"I am sorry" is the only word I can think of. I climb down from his lab, my heart feels like it will explode any second.

"I am sorry too'' he says and walks over to the chair I was sitting in and picks up his book and places it on the shelves, neatly.

My eyes go down to his pant again and it is noticeably tighter in the front. I look away.

"Can we not talk about it? " I ask. I would be humiliated if anyone hears this, especially Jane... She will kill me.

This isn't me, I don't take one cup of alcohol and kiss my best friend at his house party.

"I don't want anyone to know about this either. Now shout up and stop talking about it" he says.

"You could have stopped me," I say and stand up. I and my conscience are battling.

"Hardly" he scoffs and I feel like crying, again.

I feel hurt and humiliated by the way he is saying I forced myself on him.....

I bend down and take my backpack and head to the door.

"You can stay In here and go home tomorrow," he says quietly and I shake my head. I don't want to stay anyway near him this night.

"No thanks," I say and walk out of his room. "I need to find Jane," I tell him looking back at him one more time before closing his door behind me.

When I reach the stairs, I hear him call my name but I ignore him and keep going.

I am sure I will not see Jane  anywhere and I'm not going to try

The cool breeze feels wonderful against my skin. I turn my phone back on, it's almost four AM. I swipe to see if Jane or my brother has massage me but unfortunately, I did not see any message from them at least.

I type in the address of our house into the navigation on my phone and start to walk.

The streets are dark and quiet once I get away from Ben's house.
The other houses aren't as big as Ben's.

They are many things I don't understand about Ben this night. Why did he kiss me back if he thinks I'm forcing him. he responded so quickly and even breathed my name "Jeiel" in between the kiss.

I can't still believe I kissed him. That was the possible mistake I could have made and the second Jane or worst Jesi hears this, I am finished.

I did not trust him not to tell anyone but I hope the embarrassment of telling people he kissed his best friend will keep him quiet.

I will deny him into the grave if anyone finds out.

After an hour of walking, I finally reach our house. I stopped at the flower house to grab AFTER copy I was reading. I felt the urge to enter the kitchen and make a cup of coffee, I might as well stay awake and read AFTER to my mystery but I decided against it, sleep will help me forget a little.

I need to come up with a good explanation for Jane if she asks me why I disappeared from the party.

My feet and leg hurt by the time I entered my room.

I enter my bathroom for a quick shower, and thirty seconds later I am climbing on my bed. I sign.

I close my eyes, a picture of a brown eyes boy, Ben. Flash on my face but I pushed it away.

I put my earphone on and cover myself. Ready for the remaining night to pass.

A/n: I worked so hard editing this chapter from what It was when I wrote it.

I hope you enjoyed it❤️

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