I really shouldn't have done that, I really should have just shut my mouth and stop being petty. I couldn't stop blaming myself for days now and everyone would be lying if they told me it wasn't my fault.

But Changmin did, he tried convincing me that it wasn't my fault for so many times but I won't believe him. How could I believe him, I feel like I was manipulating him into harming someone.

He was not always that violent enough to hurt someone. I keep crying silently in the bathtub for about an hour now and reflect on myself.

Punishing myself wasn't a better way either so my mind was a mess and I couldn't think properly.

"Open the door Y/N!", Changmin shout and bang on the door. I was startled and stop crying for a while however, he went silent after that.

I quietly walk out to hear something again. Why now? His father, the Principal really had to visit him today?

I am quite brave to still stay secretly with him and wonder so many times how in the world we didn't get caught yet.

"Why am I getting a call that you are doing something out of the law again?!"

Changmin couldn't even speak before being slapped on the face. I couldn't peak outside but I heard everything clearly and I am not misinterpreting. His father beats him a lot and that always anger me.

It was my fault that Changmin did that, I wanted to go out and tell him everything but if I do that, our relationship would be exposed and who knows what the Principal would do to my graduation certificates. I was only two weeks behind from receiving everything that I needed for my future.

I stay on the room and sit on the corner waiting for them to stop. The argument went on for a longer time and what surprised me was that Changmin shout back, he never did that.

After a few minutes of crashing and breaking things, everything was quiet. I make sure the Principal leave first and peak out my head. He visited once in a while while I was there so it has become a normal routine for us.

I gasp seeing how messy the living room was. It looks like a storm just passed by.

Changmin sat on the ground, hugging his knees making me almost broke down. Why am I always hurting him? I have become mad at myself more and more.

I quickly went to grab some ointments and cotton for cleaning his blood, and finally take an egg for his swollen eyes and came back running to him.

I quietly sit next to him and clean his wound. He just close his eyes and his shaking body quickly stop when I touch him. I realize how much of a comfort he needed. It was the only thing he ever needed.

I drop everything I was holding and hug him tightly, muttering a little apologies in his ears. Tears beam up my eyes at seeing his poor state.

"They always blame me, they always says its my fault. They're right, my mother also died because of me, it was all my fau..."

"No! It's not your fault. None of this is your fault. Changmin-ah, remember how I said I'll always be there for you? See! I'm always on your side okay? Whether it's your fault or not, it doesn't matter!"

He stop sniffling and suddenly chuckle which creeps me out for a second. I love him a lot but his personality sometimes scares me too.

I pull away from the hug and he look up at me with his eyes and nose all red from crying so much. How could he chuckle at such serious time?

"Where did you learn to say such words? They're melting my heart"

I couldn't help but laugh out loud as well. What a strange relationship we have.