“Spill”

I directly stare at Juyeon and fold my arms. Changmin was not around and that gave me a time when I see Juyeon in the hallway and pull him with me.

“Spill what?”, he look at me confusedly and narrow his eyebrows down.

I realize I wasn’t being specified and mentally facepalm myself.

“You know why Changmin is like this right? I mean, the way he changed his behaviour frequently. The way he is mean to everyone and is obsessed at something he love. Is….is he sick?”

I asked directly and see his eyes shaking a bit. I didn’t expect to get any answer but I still went for it and thought that maybe I should not have asked him in the first place but his response stopped my thought.

“Yes! Yes he is sick okay?”

I knew it…

“But its not that kind of sickness you were thinking about. I think you’ve already heard how Changmin was left by his mother at young age since you’ve been living with him now”.

I nod unconsciously and he sigh loudly before pushing his bangs backward.

“His aunt used to look after him till he became at the age of 11. And then she died of sickness, it affected him a lot. A year after that, he found a new friend and that friend also died after being in an accident. Ever since that, he was diagnosed with Thanatophobia, the fear of losing someone. And when he first met you, I thought it would be a common crush but then he became too serious to the point he want you all for himself, he wanted to protect you from everyone else, from the World because he was afraid to lose you like his late aunt and his best friend”

My throat became dry. I didn’t expect the truth I found out from Juyeon. He left after telling me to be good to Changmin and that gives me a lot of mixed emotions.

In the end, he is not a mere psychopath isn’t he? He is just afraid of losing someone he loved again after a very long time although it still feels strange to think that he would ever love me like for real.

He is just afraid, like how I am afraid of the dark.

But I know that what he is suffering from isn’t healthy. At least my phobia didn’t have to appear unless the electric break down but Changmin’s phobia hit him on daily basis.

I’m lost at what I should do for him. Staying by his side wont be exactnough because who knows what would happen in the future.

GOOGLE

How to cure Thanatophobia?

I started reading the precautions and steps to help in curing the sickness. After being by myself for half an hour, the break seems to end and I hurriedly run back to the classroom.

Changmin ran up to me and look at my eyes worriedly as soon as I reached the classroom. Everyone is used to his dramatic ass now and didn’t even bother giving us a glance now which I’m extremely glad at.

“Where were you? I was searching for you?”

For the first time, I smile at him and ruffle his hair before saying,

“Don’t worry, I am not going anywhere. I will always be here with you”