Taehyung POV

We finished breakfast a while ago, Klaus said my parents would return later so we could have the welcome back dinner for Taehyon. I decided to use the time exploring the yard, the sheer number of flowers planted in the garden would make anyone smile.

I sang songs while enjoying the scenery, slowly walking toward the bridge. I saw Minho Hyung sitting on the edge of the bridge looking over it at the water. It scared me for a moment before I thought about the fact that not everyone is suicidal.

I casually make my way to him "Hey hyung" I say back hugging him. He shakes a bit shocked "O-oh hey Tae, you startled me" he said laughing at himself. I smiled brightly at him, his laughs always made me happy "Sorry~".

"Its pretty isn't it?" he said looking out over the water "Yeah very. Wonder what it will all look like at dawn." I said staring off. "Yeah but would you really get up that early Tae? Your kind of a sleep monster sometimes." he said laughing again.

"Well maybe I could just stay up then and wait for it to come." I said fake pouting. He smiled ruffling my hair "Hey Tae, your ok right? I saw your group took a break so I was wondering" he said suddenly looking serious.

"Yeah hyung just a bit stressed so I needed time to think, don't worry." I said looking him in the eye. "K well just thought I should ask, never got to before and I always regretted it." he said jumping off to pull me into a hug.

I returned the hug "I Love you hyung" I said into his chest. "I Love you too, don't ever forget that." he said hugging a little tighter as he spoke. I simply nodded in response, I couldn't talk I already felt tears coming.

I loved my family very much, but it kind of reminded me of how the members were with each other and how I wasn't apart of it. I just cried I didn't know what else to do, I felt safe with hyung so I let it out. He didn't say anything and just continued to comfort me, I was really thankful.

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After a while of talking with Minho hyung I went inside exhausted from my little crying session and walking around in the sun. I see my father waling into his office "Dad" I call. He turns "Hmm?" he hums in response. "I wanna go buy a new phone did you bring me bike here from the house?" I ask

"No your motorcycle is still there, I can just get someone to go pick one up for you." he says gesturing for me to come in the room with him. "That's ok I kind of wanted to go myself." I say sitting in the extra chair.

"By yourself, you mean alone?" he asks looking up at me, I nod. "No" I sigh in frustration. "I'm not some child I can go out alone to get a phone and come back" I say in irritation making sure to still watch my tone.

"No means no, don't push it. Tell me which one you want and I'll get it ok?" he says serious. Someone then suddenly opens the door, it was his personal security guard Roy, got me thinking, "Oh sorry sir I didn't mean to interrupt but you have a call." he said quickly

"Its fine I'm coming now." my dad said starting to stand. "Dad if a security guard goes with me can I go then?" I ask practically pleading actually. He stood still for a minute "Well I was planning to get you and the others one anyway so I'm fine with that, just wait till tomorrow I'll have one ready for you by then." he said patting my head as he left.

Dad is what you would call a business man to be polite, though in recent years he really turned into one. Before he was more like the leader of a gang in the East End, after we left London he took a slightly more honest approach to business. He figured getting his hands less dirty would mean we would be kept safer, gangster or not he loves his family a lot.

He and his two brothers moved here from Korea when he was 19yrs old. As the story was told to me my father was always quite the crafty person. He could get you to buy into just about anything no matter how sketchy it seemed.

Mom said he calmed down a lot after they met and turned his group of thugs and thieves into acceptable business men with bad habits and awful tempers. It only grew from there, my dad was the boss but his brothers had authority too.

Listening to my siblings memories of growing up differ from mine, the were often taken to different meetings and were being groomed to have standing positions in the group or in society. As the two youngest my brother and I seemed to only be spoiled, though we had to learn things too.

I know how to use a gun, I can speak five languages, traditional practices as well including sword skills. I suppose we were to be more of the face rather than the handymen of the operation. I can recall my childhood being rather pleasant aside from the constant absence of my parents, but I knew how important it was to my family so I tried to understand.

That being said whatever he's doing here is probably big and not so clean seeing as I can't even go out by myself. It's best to simply listen rather than be disobedient and get into trouble over something so small.

~Time Skip~

We ended up going to some fancy Restaurant on Oxford Street for dinner. My dad brought out the entire place so we wouldn't be disturbed, though we could have just stayed home then. I was going to sit next to Taehyon but he casually walked to the other side.

I didn't go unnoticed, Dahyun noona gave me a side hug and held my hand through most of the dinner. Everyone talked about many things but I heard none of it, I couldn't it felt like I was watching everything from outside my body.

I remained unmoving and completely unresponsive for longer than I realized, I was snapped back by my mother. "Tae Baby you ok? You have touched your food." she said drawing everyone's attention to me.

A bit flustered I stuttered "O-oh um yes I'm just not hungry" I said and her expression immediately fell. "I'm just used to being really busy and not eating so consistently is all." I said hoping it would change the situation and its not like it was a lie.

"Oh ok, well its still not good for you please try to eat." she said with understanding. I nodded in response "I have to go to the restroom excuse me" I said getting up. I could feel Taehyon's gaze on my till I disappeared into the bathroom.

Happy about the attention but sad because that's all it was going to be since he hates me now and its all my fault. That thought parading itself around in my head I started to feel sick, I bolted for the stall and fell over the toilet.

I spewed vomit in the toliet feeling no sense of control over it. When I finally had a moment to catch my breath I heard someone come in. "Tae, you good? Youve been in here for a minute mom was worried."

I tried to move or even respond but I couldn't my body was on fire and my head felt like I'd banged it against a brick wall. The more I tried to move the faster my heart beat each beat stealing my breath away. My sight started to cloud and I lost all feeling in my body "TAE! HEY TAE, SHIT!" was the last thing I heard before I blacked out.

When I woke up I was home and in my bed, a now cool rag on my forehead and an arm around my stomach. I didnt have to look to know it was Taehyon I was calm and relaxed, safety overflowing around me.

I stayed looking up through the sky light, admiring the sun. I pretty sure I'd been out for atleast the night, I felt bad too i ruined the dinner and probably scared my family half to death. As always I only cause trouble and get in the way, nothings changed.

"Your up" I was startled by the voice and the arm moving from my stomach to my chest. "Yeah sorry, i didn't mean to ruin the dinner." I said looking away. He didn't say anything though I could tell he was staring at me, but I couldn't bring myself to look at him.

He let out a deep sigh and removed his arm turning around so his back was to me. "I stayed up taking care of you so I'm tired don't make noise." he said. I felt a crowding guilt creeping into the heart the moment he let go. Tears already brimming my eyes ready to pour out, 'I should have never left'.

I back hug him tightly so he can't shake me off "Let go" he said tiredly "No" I replied in his back. "Tae I'm not in the mood le-" "I'm sorry" I said cutting him off. "I'm sorry I left you, I thought you wouldn't want to see me but I should have known better. I was just being selfish, I didn't know how to face you after that you always forgave me first. I really am sorry just please don't hate me." I said bawling into his back.

I wasn't even sure if he could understand what I said through all the sobbing and hiccups, I could only hold on to him. After a while I felt him shift in my arms I kept my head burried in his now chest. He leaned down and kissed my neck then my cheek and lastly my forehead, "Thats all you had to say stupid 'sorry'". he said wrapping his arms around me.

"I'd have forgiven you immediately had you just said it, also I don't hate you don't think I even could. Even if you are super spoiled and totally take me for granted" my breath hitched at this part "Your always going to be the most important and the one I'll always love the most." he said squeezing me tighter.

The dramatic sobbing stopped but I was stil crying, I eventually just feel alseep holding the one person I owed the world to.

I can only love him,

please be enough......please.

My god took me forever to figured out what to do at the restuarant. 😑Like ledgit I had everything else written a week ago but I stopped at the restuarant scene and completely lost it😫. Well sorry hope you like the chapter, next one will be the members POV. Enjoy~💕