Lumine
     I looked back into those beautiful green piercing eyes staring back at me. My eyes looked at every perfect feature of his face. His defined jawline, smooth skin tone, those dark bangs almost covering his eyes. Everything about him screamed handsome to me. Kody was as every bit attractive to me. He took a few slow steps towards me, closing some of the horrible distance.

    "Lumine," he said slowly from where he was at. I helplessly looked down at the floor and my feet. This is how it always started.

    He was suddenly in front of me, using his hand to gently tilt my head up. I looked at him again. Our faces and bodies were so close to each other.

    "Kody?" I said glancing at his lips for a split second. He started to smirk noticing my glance. He moved his hand to my left cheek and dragged his thumb lightly against my bottom lip. It sent a small shiver through my spine.

    He moved closer to me grabbing my waist with his free hand. He moved his face closer to mine grazing my other cheek with his lips teasingly before stopping by my ear. "Lumine," he whispered in my ear sending yet another shiver.

    God, I wanted him to kiss me already. I wanted to stop all this teasing and close the rest of the distance. His hand left my cheek and to my shoulder. He pushed me to the wall pinning me to it. He lightly kissed my cheek then my jawline. He cupped my face and looked into my eyes. I looked back desperate in my eyes to close this horrendous distance. He started to lean forward, lips finally getting extremely close to mine.

    "Lumine. I li-" his voice was suddenly shut off.

    My eyes shot open wide and I breathed fast. Immediately I sit up in bed and look around. I frowned and sighed.

    These torturing dreams have been happening for what seems forever. And they were good yet upsetting when reality wakes me up. I look down at my hands and I touch my face where Kody in the dream had. I sighed sadly and got up. These dreams have been making me more upset with each one. Because they weren't real, they were never gonna happen especially since he is in a relationship AND isn't into guys.

    Even if he did he wouldn't like me. We're only friends and that's all we'll ever be. I threw my pillow across the room in frustration.

    I went to the closet and put on a shirt as well as some pants. Then headed to the bathroom to brush my teeth. Today was a Saturday so no school for Kody. I spit into the sink and washed my toothbrush.

    But some event was coming around and later today we have to go somewhere. Kody's going to prom with his girlfriend. And honestly, it hurts to see him with her. Every time he holds her hand, kisses her cheek, smiles at her, kisses her. It's like sending a knife through my slaughtered heart.

    I walked out of my room and to the kitchen to fix myself an egg sandwich. The basics of breakfast. As the eggs sizzled I thought of all my dreams. They always end before we kiss or confess. Which makes it even worse.

    I finished fixing my sandwich and sat down to eat it gloomily. I was not excited about today. Or tomorrow. I sighed and started to eat my sandwich. Could use more salt but what's the point I already started eating. 

    I sighed and drank some milk with my sandwich to wash it down. I haven't been myself for a long time it seems. For as long as Kody and his girlfriend have been together. No, even more, because he would ask me how to ask her out or confess to her and stuff like that. And that was torture for my heart. All of this has been hurting me. But he hasn't noticed not since he's been with her. We don't hang out a lot because they're always on dates.

    I walked back to my room and pass by an awake Kody walking to the kitchen. "Good morning," he said to me. The only thing I did was mumble a "morning" back before walking into my room. I didn't look back to look at him. It would only remind me of what I don't have and never will.

     I looked at the time, in a few hours we would be leaving to go get a tux for Kody. So he can go to the dance with her. yay.

     Today is gonna be worse than all the rest. I can feel it. It's obvious.

                                  ~×~

   "Oh, that one looks nice."

   "Eh, I don't know dad."

   "What about this one."

   "Definitely no."

   Kody and his dad were talking about which one looks better on Kody. They couldn't decide on a tux and Kody is always so picky. I was sitting in a chair waiting for this to all be over already. "But I like this one on you," Aiden said shoving the navy blue one to Kody. "I said no," Kody said pushing it away frowning at the color.

    "What about this nice uh beige one," Aiden said giving Kody an ugly beige tux. "Ew no. This is not a good one dad. What are you thinking." Kody said.

    "I don't know I just want you to pick one already. Preferable one I suggest. And you're not even trying them on! Come on!" Aiden said getting frustrated. Mostly because Kody didn't like the ones he suggested mostly. It was actually quite funny to watch in my opinion. Aiden wasn't even trying anymore to pick one. And Kody was just getting more frustrated at Aiden.

     Aiden looked at me noticing I was watching them. His face instantly struck like he had an oh so brilliant idea.

     "Lumine! How about your opinion? Which tux should Kody get?" he lifted up a brown and a black tux. "The brown one or the black one?" Aiden asked smiling at me to pick a tux for Kody.

    "Neither," I said

     His face instantly fell. "What do you mean either? Oh, come on." Aiden said putting down the tuxes. Kody scolded Aiden, "told you dad." he said.

     "I mean neither because I think a certain color would be better for Kody," I said putting my hand on Aiden's shoulder. He looked up as I walked over to the options grabbing two certain ones. I walked over to Kody and put them in front of him.

    "A sort of rose red or dark violet tux would be good for Kody. They would make his eyes pop. See?" I said letting Aiden see. He made a simple 'hm' noise thinking.

     Kody grabbed the tuxes and left to try them on. Aiden looked at me, "since when did you know what color makes a certain color 'pop out'?" he asked. "Since I started watching fashion shows," I said simply. "Fashion shows??" he said. "What I get bored. And it's sorta interesting." I said before Kody came back.

    He came back in the dark violet, I was right to, it did make his eyes show more. "I actually like this one. What do you think?" Kody said looking at us. "It looked good," Aiden said as I looked Kody up and down. He looked so handsome. But I couldn't say that. "It looks great!" I said smiling.

    "Ok I'll get this one," he said before walking back to the changing room to change back into the clothes he came in here with.

    "So lumine," Aiden said nudging me. I looked over at him. "You gonna get a tux today as well?" he said gesturing to all the tuxes. "No no. I'm not going to prom." I said taking a step back from him. "Oh, why not? Its one of your last ones. You should at least go to one." he said as Kody walked over to us. "I don't know. I don't even go to school." I said. "But come to one Lumine. There's music food um music. You could find yourself a girlfriend too." Aiden said. "I'll pass," I said.

    I noticed in the corner of my eye Kody look at me. Don't look don't look don't look. Don't make eye contact. But Kody grabbed my hand and dragged me over to the tuxes and propped me in front of them. "You're getting a tux and you're going to prom," he said sternly. "Wha- but I said I don't wanna-" I started but Kody cut me off. "Ah, no buts. Your gonna go," he said.

    I internally screamed. My hand. He was holding my hand. I felt like I was on fire and it was all coming from my hand. Ahhhh.

    "Now you have beaut- nice eyes. And if I'm correct gold makes blue eyes pop right? And I guess it will look good with your white hair as well." Kody said grabbing a gold tux from the end of the rack. He pushed it towards me. "I-" "try it on," he said.

    I sighed and nodded going to the changing room to try it on. He wasn't wrong on the color thing. Must have been a lucky guess. Or he overheard the TV at some point. Anyway, I changed into the gold looking tux.

    I can't believe Kody wants me to go to the prom. If he is so persistent maybe I should go. As I walked back to them they stopped talking. Ah, man does it look bad. Maybe I just don't look good in tuxes. I looked at them and waited for them to say something.