~Y/N POV~

To say I wasn't nervous about having dinner with them all at once wasn't true, I'd be lying.

Truthfully I'm shitting it.

But I held my head high and entered the dining room to find all seven of them already at the table. All eyes on me as they raised from their seats, each offering me a nod but there was more behind their gaze. I'm sure they wanted to ask me all sorts of things and tell me a bunch of stuff in their defence but thankfully they held it back.

I only nodded back to them and took a seat that Hoseok was gentlemen enough to push out for me. That gesture shocked me but I mumbled a small thank you and sat down on my chair to pull it closer to the table.

All of them sat down after myself and even though I took a deep breath, I couldn't say anything just yet. I'm nervous to even talk about this and I know that they know what I remember which would explain the unnerving looks on their faces.

Some of them brave enough to look at me from their seats and others could only look anywhere in the room but me.

I'm just as nervous too.

Although after some time the room became too quiet for my liking so I ended up taking another deep breath which gained more focus on myself from the other seven vamps around the table.

"So...."

Before carrying on I eyed up each man around the table just double checking their reactions which was calm but intrigued.

"I wanted all of us to talk like this because I'm sure you all know I now remember a few things from our shared passed. In both lives."

"Both?" Taehyung

His eyes lit up with surprise but I just calmly nodded at him. Clasping my hands together on the table in front of me.

"Yes both. And they're not good memories, I'll put that out there."

I met eyes with Namjoon, furrowing his brows from across the table.

"What do you remember then?" Namjoon

"Just myself rejecting the bond in our first life and the way you all tormented me in school in our second."

"Oh." Namjoon

He bowed his head to stare down at his lap ashamed. Seeing that reaction made me confirm that indeed he did feel bad about his behaviour and as i gazed around the room each one of them shared the same guilt ridden expression.

At least I don't have to go into deal since that alone they seem to know exactly what I'm talking about.

"But I'm trying to not dawn on that too much. Clearly from the stories and the book Namjoon, the book you gave me to read."

He nods at me again.

" I was up all night reading that book about your thoughts and feelings about me. Not to mention the good times we had that you knew about. It kind of helped ease my mind about this."

"Y/n we swear we won't hurt you again. Those are mistakes we learned from." Jungkook

I nod at him, nervously licking my lips.

"Deep down I know that but now that I know what we all are to each other it makes a lot of sense given my experience with all of you in this life and that is what I'm focusing on right now."

"So you want to take it slow?" Jin

He took what I was about to say out my mouth and I nod towards him, finally breaking out into a smile but a small one in which he returned. Except his was more out of relief.

"Yes I'd like to take it slow and see what happens. You know now that I know, I'd like to see if something happens naturally between any one of us."

To my shook they instantly agreed by eagerly nodding.

"Of course y/n." Namjoon

"Y/n we waited years to finally find you in this life so I think we can wait for you a little bit longer." Yoongi

He snickered from his seat picking up a tall wine glass to bring to his lips. Except Jimin just slapped him on his chest and Yoongi jolted forward almost spilling us drink and threw him a death glare in return.

"What?" Yoongi

"You made that sound like we can wait eternity." Jimin

"Well we can." Yoongi

Shrugging his shoulders and finally sipping on his drink. I knew what Jimin was trying to suggest but I stayed quiet.

"Yoongi." Namjoon

Yoongi glanced his way across from him and the two shared a dark look which made Yoongi sigh and almost slam his glass on the table. Instead of the glass breaking it instead shook the table.

"You can state the obvious I don't mind."

Hoseok reached over from his chair closest to me and placed his hand over both of mine.

"Y/n-" Hoseok

"No it's okay. In this life time I'm human not half vampire. It needs to be spoken about at some point."

"Yeah but not now." Taehyung

I heard him say but lowering his gaze to his lap but clenching his jaw.

Judging by their pissed expression now is NOT the time for that discussion. A touchy subject to them I guess.

So I decided to let that go. For now.

"Okay fine. Let's not talk about it for now."

Hoseok sighed heavily and dropped his head to the table.

"Thank fuck." Hoseok

I could only but chuckle at him which made him lick his head up and smile at him with a chuckle of his own.

"Shall we get something to eat?" Namjoon

I nodded and Jungkook stood from the table heading towards the door that I just came from.

"I'll go tell the Butler we're ready." Jungkook

Before anything else was said, he disappeared behind the door. The atmosphere actually lifted between us and I'm relieved that it has. Instead of frowns and worry in their eyes they began to smile and conversation picked up.

It even makes me wonder what I was nervous about to begin with.