~Y/N POV~

"So to sum that up, yeah we've been your best friends in three lives through out time now!!" Hope

I stared blankly at her, throwing her hands up in the air, grinning ear to ear while inside my mind I was trying to wrap my head around what was going on. Even so much as ignoring Samuel's  eyes on me from the side of the bed, watching my reaction but I wasn't giving him one. I needed a moment to take this in officially and process this in my mind.

Just earlier today I thought I was nothing but just an ordinary human that's just been raised by vampires but I was wrong.

I'm the Queen that people have loved and hated through many generations and holds many stories that have been told for years. So that Queen I learned about in school years ago was me all this time and the King's, the vampires are my soulmates in this life and two before now.

But yet when I think back to what I just saw in my dreams, it was horrible. Each one of them cause me pain, physically and emotionally for reasons I don't know and right now I don't want to know even if I know my curiosity will get the better of me sooner or later whenever I decide to see any of them again.

I'm not angry at them or anyone just stressed and frustrated deeply that I can only remember bad times between us. Surely there was the good times, you know from the stories that were told about us. They have to be true and I know myself I wouldn't of stayed if there wasn't some type of good that replaced the bad.

"Y/n?" Samuel

I only hummed at him too busy staring at my bed sheets beneath my fists.

"How are you feeling now that you know everything?" Samuel

I sighed, looking up at him standing next to my bed but yet staring into my very soul.

"I'm not mad about this, if anything it kind of makes sense because of the connection I know I share with them all but..."

I lingered, breaking eye contact with him and turned away towards my bedroom door behind Hope.

"But what?" Hope

"I'm frustrated that I don't remember any good times I have with them from the previous two lives. Those stories about us have to be true right? The good ones?"

Hope giggled, covering her mouth using her hand but glanced up at Samuel. Beside me I felt him sit beside me, moving his arm over my shoulder to pull me close to his side.

"Obviously there is good time with them all in both past lives Y/n. Where else do you think those stories came from?" Samuel

I shrugged at him but that doesn't help the block I now have in my mind about the good times. A part of me really wants to know and see it all to feel that love and everything once again and not that heart break the second part of me feels right now knowing what they once did.

"Y/n you shouldn't doubt what they feel towards you just from bad memories. I mean they all sucked and every single one of them I wanted to slit their throats myself but they're not that bad you of all people should know that." Hope

Raising a brow towards her curiously, she stared at me with a very straight serious expression, not even a twitch.

"Of course I know they're not bad. Well I mean with me anyway but they have done in the past and that's all I remember for far."

"Then think of the good times you've shared with them in this one until those past memories come to you. They will in time." Samuel

I nodded at him, but yet couldn't resist the smile towards my brother when he placed his hand on top of mine. Then I looked to Hope who was now smiling back at me too, no longer as serious as she was.

"So in every life you two have been my best friends huh?"

I chuckled and yet Hope laughed, throwing her head back almost too far back when she almost fell off the side of the bed and Samuel quickly reached over to grab her by the arm to prevent her from falling.

"Be careful will you?" Samuel

She only rolled her eyes at him but yet turned her attention back to me.

"To answer your question, yes we've been glued to your butt from the beginning. Even your uncle Eric is one of us and you're parents have always been your parents whether adopted or blood it didn't matter." Hope

It actually felt nice to know we're all together even in this life, it's comforting.

"But one of us is missing. That's why Uncle Eric is searching for his soulmate because she was one of our best friends and it's disappointing that none of us know where she is or even what her name is." Samuel

"Or if she's male or female in this life. This is my second time as a girl out of three so it's possible she could be a guy this time." Hope

She pointed out speaking directly towards Samuel who nodded, biting his lower lip and staring down to the bed in thoughts of his own.

"I suppose, I was a girl in the first so that would make sense." Samuel

"Either way we're still the same people no matter what gender so she or he will still be the same." Hope

"Yeah and your constant lust of Jimin never seems to get old no matter what generation we're in." Samuel

I bit my tongue saying nothing and just watched these two begin to bicker when I noticed the way Hope rolled her eyes, scoffing at him.

"Are you never going to let that go?" Hope

"No, it's been hundreds of years and you're still lusting over him." Samuel

" Don't be jealous now Sammie boy. I cant help it that fine piece of ass is juicy and thick. Like nice piece of pie!" Hope

She squinted her eyes, kissing her finger tips and bringing her hand to the air, humming softly just at the pure thought of Jimin's ass. I almost burst into a fit of laughter but Samuel growled but Hope just shrugged it off. But then she clapped her hands together, eyes growing wide and then spinning around on the bed to kick her legs off and move over to my bedside table to pull out something from inside.

"You should read this if you haven't already." Hope

She spoke passing me the book Namjoon gave me from their library to read about the Queen but now looking back maybe he gave this to me to hopefully spark something in my mind to bring back memories. I haven't read it yet since I've had these day dates on my mind all week with them all but it wouldn't hurt now to read it.

Taking the book from her I gazed down at the leather, then opened it up seeing it was written my Kim Namjoon. Obviously now I know it was written by him and not someone he was named after.

"I think I should."

I muttered more to myself, not taking my eyes from the pages.

"Samuel I think, instead of hiding in my room for god knows how long, maybe I should have dinner with them."

"Tonight or tomorrow?" Hope

I glanced at her, pressing a smile and closing the book but then turned to my brother staring back at me.

"Tonight. It doesn't feel right to hide away. I'd like to talk to them properly about this."

Samuel only nods at me, not saying a further word about it and I looked back down at the old book. Just a civil conversation would be just fine I think. Nothing damaging.