It has been months since the Cullens' left. It's been hell...I couldn't seem to make myself do anything; eat, talk, even move. I was broken. I didn't care. I had no feelings, no one to talk to. I don't do anything anymore and it seemed to worry charlie.

I sat there in my hard folding chair staring blankly at the window for what must have been days. Charlie or someone knocked on my door a few times but gave up after the twelfth knock when I didn't get up and open the door. I was thankful for that.

I enjoy being alone. Ever since Edward left, being alone was the thing I wanted more than when he was here. It gave me time to think and burst into tears when I wanted to, in peace. Every now and then I would get up from the chair and walk around the room to relax my stiff muscles. I would also have my little temper tantrums and throw things across the room and bang on the bed and scream. Charlie stopped coming after a while. He only came when I threw things, screamed, and when he though I was sleep.

I woke up in the bed hanging half off the side. I didn't remember moving. I then recalled feeling something moving me from the chair and into the bed while I was half asleep. Probably Charlie, and he left a glass of water on the nightstand. I sat up and waited letting the blood rush down from my head. I walked to the window and peeked through the crack to see that the cruiser was gone.

Probably went to the station.

I grabbed a pair of black jeans from the floor and a black tank top. I yanked on my tennis shoes and slung my purse over my head and walked out the door without another glance back. I didn't eat much, but looking at the last couple months, why break the habit now? I walked into the truck and slammed the door. I started the car and drive off.

I didn't really know where I was going. I just needed to get out of the house and do something. I looked out the windshield trying to see the road, but ended up just staring into the open sky, causing the truck to swerve in between the two lanes. I pulled up into a random neighborhood and leaned against the seat.

What are you doing, Bella? My head screamed at me. Why are you sitting outside in a random neighborhood instead of in the room or doing something worth your time?

Because...

Why was I out here? Did I miss being outside? Being free? Doing whatever I wanted? Was there a real reason why I came out here? What was it?

There was a tap on the widow and I turned to see a middle aged women staring up at the car like it was the next big thing.

I rolled down the window and stared at her with no expression on my face, and by the change in her face, I would say it startled her.

"Um, miss are you ok? I saw you park your car outside our house and I though sometimes was wrong." The women explained.

"No, everything's fine. I was actually about to leave" My voice sounded scratchy and tight but I didn't care.

The women shifted uncomfortably and fiddled with her hair.

"Well, I just wanted to check on you. Have a nice day" The women hurried away from the car and into the house next to me. I sighed. I hated taking to people. Hate? Did I just say hate? I started the car and went back onto the highway.

I found myself at the...Their house.
Why was I here? To torture myself? It was working. Now that I was here, I didn't know what to do. Should I stay in the car or go up to the house? I made my decision and slowly walked to the door.

I stretched out my hand as if to open the door, but I stopped myself. I can't do this. This place brings back too many bad memories that I didn't want to face. I sat at the door until my phone began to vibrate. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was Charlie. I turned my phone off and walked back to the car. Turning the key, I headed back to Charlie's.

I was almost there when I saw Jake in the middle of the road half dressed with his long hair in a ponytail. I hit the brakes as to avoid hitting him. Why was Jake standing in the middle of the road? Did he have a death wish? I didn't care, I needed to get back to Charlie before he came looking for me. I was about to move when jake turned around and locked eyes with me. Jacob walked to the sidewalk and motioned for me to follow him.

I sat there in the car. I didn't have the time and patience for this! What was so important that he couldn't wait till tomorrow? I sighed and followed him to a garage. What was I doing?

"Hey, Bella" Jacob smiled at me.

I crossed my arms and gave him a annoyed look which he returned with a confused look.

"What's wrong?"

"What is so important that it can't wait till tomorrow?" I questioned.

"Well, I haven't seen you around lately and I just wanted to spend some time with you. Charlie seemed worried about you. What's wrong?" Jacob studied me.

"Nothing's wrong ok?! I'm fine!" I screamed. Why was everyone so nosey and in my business? I didn't need to be taken care of!

Jacob flinched from my tone. Good. Now he won't get into my life.

"Please, Bella, I'm your friend. I want to know what's on your mind." Jacob pleaded.

OK. I was wrong.

"Jacob, I don't have the time or patience for this." I started walking to the car but jake jumped Infront of me like a exuberant puppy.

"Bella, stop ignoring me."

"I'm.Not.Ignoring.You! I just want to get back before charlie bites my damn head off!" I crossed my arms glared at him. How was what I was saying not getting through to him?

Jake sat there starting at me which infuriated me. I pushed him aside which caused him to fall flat on his butt. I would it laughed but, I didn't feelings remember?

I left jake sitting on the ground, looking at the car like a deer in headlights.

*I hope you guys liked this chapter. I know it might not of been long for you guys and I'm sorry. Also, when I first wrote this(around mid 2019), my writing experience was shitty and I didn't really know how to change it more now than I already did. So, please leave me some comments and votes! Have a good night/day/evening!*