Kim So-eun's P.O.V

I sat still on my hospital bed, my brother and my best friend on either side of it.

I glanced at one in anger, and the other in fear and apology. But the anger made its way taking the majority of my feelings.

Yet, it wasn't like Taehyung was giving me a choice as he stared at me expectantly.

So I kept my anger towards Namjoon in, temporarily, I will keep it in just for now and boy Rapmon you wait for your share.

"I'm waiting" Taehyung said, short but significant. His tone was demanding and next I felt a lump build up in my throat.

I remembered the night when he sang for me in a comforting manner, he said the same thing back then and I didn't explain. Not yet.

"Um..." I started, I felt conflicted. There was too much to tell, from where should I start? Should I first state the fact that I woke up earlier today as I felt my best friend in danger? Or should I give him what he wants to know, tell him why I ran out that night as if it was a matter of life or death. Well it was.

I saw Tae's head nodding at me, he was slowly growing impatient but he held it in as his eyes were full of relief at the fact that I sat alive across him.

I tilt my head towards Rapmonster, he sat as I felt his gaze at me the whole time. Remembering again the fact that he thought it was his fault, I took a deep breath.

I need to clear this out, once and for all. And I started, I spelled out everything from when I ran out of our house and why I did so.

But I subconsciously left out why I was sad that night, for it didn't relate to the contrary matter in anyway.

I will leave Dongwoo out of this for now, he doesn't have to do with this matter. Plus, Taehyung doesn't even know I'm in a relationship yet.

I averted my eyes off Taehyung's realizing face expression to Namjoon.

"You" I said to Namjoon, my voice was low but clear. I knew what I was to say as anger flamed inside of me, but deep I knew it was worried and my subconscious came at me stating the truth crystal clear.

You are angry for him, not at him.

I shook my head, trying to get rid of that voice and focused on the boy sitting on my right side.

Momentarily the thought I didn't realize sank in, Tae actually was planning to hide this from me. I mentally scoffed, two jerks were surrounding me and I definitely was angry at them. Hard.

"You" I said but this time I was looking at Tae, I took another deep breath as I felt my loss of words. "You..you..both of you!!" I said shouting the last part as I held up my arm moving it in exasperation.

"What?" Namjoon asked as he frowned, Taehyung looked at me in anticipation.

"I hate you two," I started as the both of them were visibly took aback "you are a liar" I pointed at Tae "and you are stupid" I pointed at Namjoon.

"What why?" Taehyung asked, I scoffed but this time showing it boldly.

"You were planning to not tell me weren't you?!" I retorted, both of them gasped before covering up their surprised faces instantly.

Fail.

"I heard you both talking, don't try to hide it anymore. I woke up earlier today anyway mom didn't tell you saying she wanted it a surprise, anyway I heard you two. Liar. Dumb." I said straight to their faces.

Taehyung gulped while Namjoon slowly got off the bed taking his silenced steps away from me.

"Stop right there" I said my eyes fixed on neither of them as I held my chin up with my arms crossed over my chest.

I heard Rapmonster's raspy cough, I turned to him as my eyes narrowed at him.

"Ya So-eun, come on. What happened happened, it's over now. The stupid guy is fine so are you, so just let it go" Tae said touching my forearm as he displayed his rectangular smile whilst a nervous laugh escaped his mouth.

I scoffed again removing my arm from under his touch, I nodded at the door and I knew he will get exactly what I mean.

Tae is done for now, he is forgiven not because what he said now made any difference but because I did him wrong. Because he got in trouble because of me and my careless acts.

"Let's get over with this together" he said the same smile plastered on his face, I nodded at the door again admission all over my face.

He nodded in defeat slowly getting off my bed and passing by Namjoon as he patted him on the shoulder. Shortly the door's closing voice filled the air as my eyes moved to Rapmonster, he gulped several times turning around on his spot.

His arm made contact with the vase on the coffee table, I shut my eyes as my face crumbled in apprehension.

Soon the sound of the glass vase crashing on the hard floor filled the room, with a heavy sigh I got off my bed walking to the broken glass and the frozen figure standing by it.

I took the empty trash bin as I walked to the big mess the King of Destruction caused.

Bending down near him and I started collecting the glass broken pieces into the bin with my bare hands.

The thought flashed through my mind again, the thought of a life with out Namjoon. He isn't my crush anymore, yes. But he is definitely still so precious to me, as a friend- no a best friend, no one will even get me as well as he does.

At that I felt tears accumulate in my eyes, slowly blurring my vision as my hands collected the broken sharp edged glass blindly.

"You will hurt yourself So-eun ah, I will clean this up" his voice rang in my ears, how special he sounded let the distressful thought come to my head again.

I ignored him as I felt the hot liquid slowly slide down my cheeks making my vision more blurred.

As I felt a sharp edge dig into the tip of my finger I hissed in pain, I bit my lips as my face grimaced.

I heard Namjoon sigh in frustration as he bent down taking my hand in his examining my finger worriedly. "I told you you will hurt yourself!" He scolded, my face went cold at that.

I pulled my hand to myself glaring at him, he slowly lifted his gaze to meet mine staring back at him coldly. "Do you really care?" I asked my voice like ice, I tried to hide the existing crack but it was still there.

"What are you saying, of course I do" he stated obviously, I tilt my head to the side.

"If you really did you wouldn't have even thought of hurting yourself, deliberately!" I stated picking the long term definition over the one word term.

I couldn't admit that he, my best friend, attempted suicide because of a mistake that wasn't his own. By now my tears were streaming down, his eyes stared at me with his figure unmoved. "Answer me! Am I not right?!" I shouted letting a loud sob out as I landed helpless hits over his chest.

Soon I felt his strong arms pull mine down, he gazed at my crying face and slowly pulled me closer into a hug. I struggled in between his wide arms as they held me strongly.

"I'm sorry" he said, I felt my struggles go weaker as they slowly diminished. "I was afraid, I'm sorry" he repeated.

My breath was slowly gaining it's regular path while his warmness soothed me as it never failed to.

He was there, he was still there. Nothing happened. The voice inside me said, but this time I was accepting it and not shrugging it off.

"It's okay, everything is okay now." Rapmonster said with his hands going up and down my back in a comforting manner.

Eventually, I felt my heart beats calming down and my breath not erratic anymore.

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As you all may know, or not, my UB is Rapmonster so please forgive me if I make it a bit couple like between them although all what connects them is friendship, trust me it's so out of control.

Yeah, I figured out how to add multi medias lol(didn't get to add much tho :/)

Anyway here's an update~
Thank you so much for reading ♡