Barry is laying in a bed in Star Labs unconscious and he wakes up and says Cisco I can't feel my legs and Oliver hears about Barry being paralyzed he comes down to Star Labs and Barry thinks man he is sexy and the voice inside his head says he would never love you go to the bathroom get your real friend and Barry thinks okay and he says i'm going to the bathroom and Oliver says are you sure you don't need me to come with you to make sure you don't fall and Barry says i'm sure and he goes into the bathroom and locks the door and grabs a razor from out of the shower and throws it on the floor and steps on it until the plastic breaks and he picks up the blade and starts cutting his left wrists 52 times and Barry is in the bathroom a while and Oliver bangs on the door and says Barry let me in and Barry says what why and Oliver says because there is blood leaking from your side of the door and Barry says hang on and cleans up the blood with his super speed but doesn't know how to deal with the 52 cuts spread all along his arm but he doesn't have time to think about that because as soon as he finishes cleaning up the blood Oliver kicks the door open and Oliver steps into the bathroom and stares at Barry and Barry physically flinches and Oliver walks over to Barry and turns his arm over and Barry swears he hears him choke up and Oliver yells why the ever loving fuck would you do this and Barry says i-i'm sorry and it feels like Barry can't breathe and he almost falls to the floor and Oliver catches him and holds him in his arms and Barry struggles to get out of Oliver's grip and Oliver lets him go and Barry starts clawing at his neck with his nails hoping that will make oxygen get back into his lungs and he passes out and Oliver picks him up bridal style and lays him on the bed and Barry wakes up and croaks out Ollie and Oliver's head snaps up so fast you'd think he was a speedster and says i'm so sorry Barry and Barry says it's not your fault I can't deal with anything right that i'm a freak, a fuck up, dumb, fat it's not your fault i'm a mistake and Oliver says stop I don't want to hear this bullshit anymore freak, dumb, fat you think you're fat and Barry says no I know i'm fat and Oliver says well you're not fat and Oliver leaves and grabs a granola bar,a chocolate granola bar, and some chips and throws them in Barry's face and says eat and Barry says i'm not hungry and as if right on cue his stomach growls and Oliver gives Barry his doe-eyed puppy dog face and Barry says fine and unwraps the granola bar and takes a bite and Oliver looks up at him and Barry eats the granola bar and the chips because he's so hungry but he can't eat the second bar because he's full and when he tells Oliver this Oliver looks sad but says okay and Barry says Oliver i'm going into the bathroom to change and Oliver reluctantly says okay and Barry goes into the bathroom and takes off the Star Labs hospital like gown and balls up the fat on his stomach and scratches at it wishing it wasn't there and he knows what he needs to do and he takes a new toothbrush out of it's package and sticks it down his throat bristles up fucking with his gag reflex and he pukes up some of the chips and he keeps doing that until he starts seeing blood then he stops and he rinses out his mouth and rinses off the toothbrush and flushes the toilet and goes out of the bathroom and down the hallway and lifts his cigarettes and lighter from under the loose tile at the end of the hallway and goes outside and sits on a bench against the wall and starts smoking and Oliver comes out and yells what the fuck Barry and Barry screams you ass hat you scared the shit out of me and he says good now why the fuck would you smoke and Barry mutters you wouldn't understand and Oliver says what a little harshly and Barry says you wouldn't understand it calms me down and Oliver says there is other ways to calm yourself down smoking will make you die at a young age and Barry says good I welcome death with open arms and Oliver says no you don't more trying to convince himself than Barry and Barry says try me and picks up the cigarette that Oliver made him drop when he scared him and see that the light is dying and takes a hit to save the dying light and Oliver says I love you Barry and Barry thinks probably just as a friend unless he's not lying and the voice inside Barry's head says yes he's lying no one could ever love a freak like you and Barry runs to the Central City bridge and sits on the ledge and he is ready he is so caught up in his own thoughts of killing himself that he doesn't hear a breach opening up behind him or someone running up to him and one person hooks their arms under Barry's arms and pulls him up and over the rail and he realizes what happened and he sobs I hate myself I can't even die right and it takes about ten minutes before he gathers up the courage to look behind him and see who saved him and he sees Oliver and Cisco and Cisco says it's alright Barry we're right here and they go back to Star Labs and Barry runs to the secret lounge room that no one knows about and locks the door and lays down in a chair facing the door sobbing and he doesn't hear the door unlocking or someone coming in and the person that comes in puts their legs on either side of Barry's and he doesn't have to look at the muscular arms covered in green to know it's Oliver and Barry buries his face into Oliver's chest and sobs and it takes 20 minutes as Barry's sobs turn to sniffles and his sniffles turn to light hiccups and when he calms down completely Oliver says Barry when Cisco told me what you were about to do for a few minutes I thought i'd lost you and Oliver starts crying and Barry thinks this big muscular man in front of me is breaking down because I tried to kill myself and Oliver says I-I love you Barry I was afraid to tell you and Barry says I love you too Oliver and kisses Oliver and Barry looks up at Oliver and what do you know he's not crying anymore and Barry starts yawning and Oliver says tired and Barry says yes and Oliver says you can snuggle into me if you want to and Barry snuggles into Oliver's chest and falls asleep and after a little bit Oliver also falls asleep and morning comes and Oliver wakes up and Barry is shaking because he's having a nightmare and Oliver says Barry wake up and Barry wakes up and starts crying and Oliver hugs Barry and says Barry what's wrong and Barry says I was having a nightmare that I was seeing my mom getting murdered all over again and my father was going to prison for her murder all over again and Oliver peppers kisses all over Barry's face and he says you're not back there you're here with me and Barry says thank you Oliver and Oliver says you're welcome Barry and Oliver kisses Barry and Barry smiles and Oliver wipes away Barry's tears and Barry grabs Oliver's hand and says thank you Oliver for everything you do for me and Oliver gets up and goes into the workout room in star labs and takes off his shirt and does the salmon ladder and Barry comes into the exercise room and Oliver drops to the floor and gets on a shirt and Barry walks over to the exercise rings and takes off his shirt and hangs from the rings and starts doing flips and flips and does a front flip in the air and catches himself on a high bar and starts doing flips and hangs upside down from the bar and realizes it's a bad idea as he suddenly feels dizzy and he shakes away the dizziness and flips to the rings and does a flip and lands feet first arms up just how he was on the rings and feels dizzy again and stumbles and Oliver catches him and says Barry are you okay what's wrong and Barry mumbles dizzy and Oliver says when was the last time you ate and Barry says I don't know and Oliver says come on we are getting you something to eat and Barry is too dizzy to complain and Oliver picks up Barry bridal style and takes him into the cortex and says Cisco, Caitlin and Cisco and Caitlin say yes Oliver and Oliver says Barry was using the exercise rings and fell but I caught him and asked him what's wrong and he mumbled that he was dizzy and I asked him when the last time he ate was and he said to me he didn't know when the last time he ate was and Cisco says that's not good he has hypoglycemia his blood sugar must be really low if he is dizzy and Oliver says is there medicine we can give him and Cisco says yes there is medicine we can give him and Cisco gives Barry his medicine and Oliver lays Barry on the bed and Barry says guys what happened and Oliver says you were doing flips on a high bar and the rings when you suddenly dropped to the ground and said you were dizzy and I asked you when the last time you ate was and you told me you didn't know then passed out in my arms after I picked you up bridal style and Barry says Oliver i'm kinda hungry could we get something to eat and Oliver says yes we can and helps Barry off the bed and Oliver and Barry walk out of star labs and Oliver helps Barry onto his motorcycle and Oliver drives to his favorite pizza place and helps Barry off the bike and Oliver and Barry walk into the pizza place and Oliver orders a large pizza for Barry and Barry eats half the pizza and Oliver eats the other half of the pizza and Oliver orders two large pizzas to go and pays for them and helps Barry onto his motorcycle then gets on his motorcycle and drives to star labs and gets off his motorcycle and then helps Barry off his motorcycle and they walk into star labs and Oliver calls Cisco,Caitlin,and Joe into the cortex and hands them the pizzas and says these are for you guys and Cisco,Caitlin,and Joe say thank you Oliver and Oliver says thank Barry he chose what pizza he thought you'd like and Cisco,Caitlin,and Joe say thank you Barry and Oliver and Cisco grabs a piece of pizza that has green peppers and olives on it and starts eating it and says Oliver,Barry this is really good where did you get it at and Oliver says we got it at leone's pizza they deliver and they have the best pizza in Central City and Cisco says you got that right and OLiver says Barry would you like to meet my family and Barry says yes Oliver I would like to meet your family and Oliver and Barry walk out of Star Labs and Oliver helps Barry onto his bike and then gets on his bike and Barry and Oliver put on helmets and Oliver drives to Star City and drives to Thea's house and Oliver gets off his bike and helps Barry off his bike and Barry and Oliver both take their helmets off and walk up to the front door and Oliver knocks on the door and Thea opens the door and says come in and Oliver and Barry walk into Thea's house and Barry says do we take our shoes off and Thea says yes you do and Barry takes off his shoes and sets them by the door but out of the way so no one trips on them and takes off his jacket and hangs it up on a hook by the door and Oliver does the same and Thea says sit down please and Oliver and Barry walk into Thea's living room and sit down on the couch and intertwine their hands together and Thea says Oliver who's this and Oliver says Thea this is Barry my boyfriend and says Barry this is my sister Thea the one I have been telling you about and Thea says nice to meet you Barry and Barry says thank you it's nice to meet you to and Thea says Oliver how long have you and Barry been together and Oliver says me and Barry have been together for 4 years going on 5 years by tomorrow and Thea says congratulations Oliver and Barry you and Barry are such a cute couple and Thea says would you like something to drink and Barry says coffee please and Thea walks into the kitchen and Oliver follows Thea into the kitchen and says I know it's probably soon but I want to propose to Barry how should I propose to him during a romantic dinner or how and Thea says you should propose to him during a romantic dinner and Thea says do you have a ring picked out and Oliver says not yet I don't have a ring picked out yet I was hoping you could help me and Thea says what does the ring look like that you want to get for Barry and Oliver shows a picture of the ring to Thea and the ring has an etching of an arrow and a lightning bolt and the ring says together forever and Thea says that is the most beautiful ring I have ever seen and Oliver says thank you Thea and Oliver says could you help me measure Barry's ring size and Thea says okay and makes the coffee and goes back out to the living room and hands a mug of coffee to Barry and grabs a measuring tape and starts measuring Barry's finger and Barry says Thea what are you doing and Thea says I have a present i'm going to get you but it requires your ring size and Barry says okay and Thea finishes measuring Barry's finger and writes the measurements down on a piece of paper and gives it to Oliver and Oliver sticks the paper with measurements in his pocket and goes out to Barry and says Barry I have to go do something I will be right back and Barry says okay Oliver and Oliver kisses Barry and leaves and goes to the jewelers and finds the ring he's going to give to Barry and gives the jeweler the measurements and the jeweler sizes the ring to fit Barry's finger and gives it to Oliver in a velvet ring box and Oliver pays for the ring and puts the ring box in his pocket and goes back to Thea's house and goes in and Thea cooks dinner and Oliver gets down on one knee and says Bartholomew Henry Allen will you make me the happiest man alive and marry me and Barry says yes yes Oliver I will marry you and Oliver slips the ring onto Barry's finger and Oliver kisses Barry and Oliver says Barry what do you think about a wedding at the beach and Barry says that sounds like a wonderful place to have a wedding and Oliver kisses Barry again and Barry blushes bright red and Oliver helps Barry onto his motorcycle then gets onto his motorcycle and they get on their helmets and Oliver drives to Central City and to Star Labs and Oliver gets off the motorcycle and helps Barry off the motorcycle and they take off their helmets and go into Star Labs and call everyone into the cortex and Oliver tells them Barry and I are engaged and they say congratulations Oliver and Barry