In a world where everyone seemed out to get you, it was important to hold onto some things that you knew would never change. I had Jackson. A lifelong friend, fiercely loyal, but most importantly he was separate from the turbulent world of being an idol. He kept me grounded, his conversation always a welcomed distraction and break from stress.

We had drunken enough soju to make an elephant topple over as we sat in his apartment, laughing about the stupid things we'd done in our lives, before talk finally turned to my work as it always did. Jackson knew everything. More specifically he knew about the fact that my time was running out, and that if I didn't find an escort before I went on tour I would be dealing with six angry lions.

"So let me get this straight: Jungkook wants anyone, Taehyung wants someone sensual, Hoseok wants a fast fuck, Jin wants someone to talk to, Jimin wants a girl he control, you want someone mature, and Yoongi wants..."

"Yoongi wants someone to dress up as a cat," I said deadpan, causing Jackson to crack up even more so that he was unable to speak for the next five minutes.

"You know you could all just get girlfriends...or just wank?" I hit his arm softly at this comment because he knew fully well that just 'getting a girlfriend' was impossible in idol-land.

The conversation soon turned to lighter topics, but my head felt heavy as I returned home. It was such a stupid thing to get caught up on, but I felt the weight of the boy's expectations on my shoulders. Sex was such a menial thing, yet it was also so important.

***

Doing dance practice with a hangover was probably one of the most challenging obstacles I had overcome in recent months, and I cursed Jackson in my head for allowing me to get so lost in the bottom of the bottle. However, I cast off these thoughts at the sight of nine missed calls from the man himself.

Calling him back, I tried to think of a reason why Jackson would call the day after seeing me. Maybe I had forgotten something? The phone went through after two dials, and I could practically hear the smirk on his face as he spoke.

"I think I've found your girl," Jackson said, and I furrowed my eyebrows. He couldn't mean what I thought he meant - surely?

"It's not April Fools, Jackson."

"Did I say I was joking?" He replied back in the same condescending tone which shut me up completely, "Her name is [Y/N]. Beautiful - in the kind of natural, 'I don't know how good I look' kind of way. She seems like she has a lot beneath the surface, and she is in a situation which will make her loyal to the contract."

"Bring her to my office," I managed to get out before hanging up, my heart already beating a hell of a lot faster.

I got this way about any potential girl we had lined up. The adrenaline rush was real because it meant the start of a process which was more stressful than any debut or comeback. So much was placed on the line, and any wrong move would lead to utter disaster. I was already questioning again why I was going through with this.

***

I was concerned that if I ran my hands through my hair any more it would fall out, and my eyes didn't dart away from the clock on the wall. What if she was a secret reporter? What if she went straight to the press? What if she didn't like big dicks? I couldn't work out which of those concerns was the most pressing.

"Mr. Kim you have visitors," the secretary said through the intercom, and I straightened my tie and took a deep breath.

I had mastered the art of looking more confident than you feel inside. It involves a smile that never wavers, a fixed posture, and a helpful dose of aloofness.

"Jackson, even shorter than I remember!" I said quickly, my eyes barely even scanning over the girl next to him because my hands were so clammy.

"Don't diss me, don't diss me!" he replied back, and I began rambling because if I stopped speaking I would be forced to confront the real reason why we were all there.

"[Y/N], you okay?" Mr. Wang asked, which finally made me look over at her.

She was the quiet type of beautiful. That struck immediately when I looked at the bashful gaze in her eyes and the way she didn't quite know what to do with her hands.

"[Y/N] pleasure to make your acquaintance, if you're ready you can follow me into my office where we can discuss...things," I wanted to facepalm at this, but I had to keep my cool.

I became acutely aware of how messy my office was as she took a seat, her presence now almost suffocating. There was nothing I wanted more than to call off the whole thing, but I sucked it up and continued on with the necessary act that I was supposed to put on.

"Water? Coffee? Anything you need?"

It was getting claustrophobically hot in the office so I pulled off my blazer, busying myself with the necessary documentation that she needed to sign. I couldn't help stare at the way her nimble hands moved across the paper, holding the pen tightly almost like it would fall out her grasp.

"I assume Jackson has explained some things to you already about this role," the dazed look in her eyes proved this not to be the case, and I felt the heat rise to my neck at the prospect of having to explain our filthy desires to someone who seemed so pure, "Cheeky Jackson, leaving me to tell you all the uncomfortable information."

Briefly we met eyes, but it was enough to intimidate me and I soon looked away.

"By signing those contracts you have entered an application process in which you can leave at any time, but if you meet all the criteria, will have huge benefits for you. To qualify as our personal escort, you must gain the approval of each member. For the next week, you will spend the day - or most likely night - with each member, in which you will be expected to submit to their wishes. Only if you feel comfortable of course! We don't force girls to do anything they don't want to here."

"And how do I meet the criteria of each member?" she asked, a blush rising to her cheeks which seemed to make her glow under the lighting in the room.

"How good are you with your tongue?"

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turns out Namjoon is shy af.

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