Natsu and Lucy sat down at her bed with pink sheets on it. They remained silent for the time being, none knew what words could make this situation somehow work. For the first time ever, they were occupied with awkward silence.

Lucy's thoughts were all over the place, she couldn't decide if she felt bad about Natsu knowing so much or should she be glad that someone at least knows now. She was glad it was Natsu of all people since she trusted him most, but at the same time, she was scared of what he might think of her now. She knew this had positive sides to it, but it had negative too.

For example, what if the two gets in another fight and Natsu tells everybody about her little secret?

Or if it accidentally slipped out?

What would Lucy do then?

Her secret was the safest when it was only hers.

Natsu's thoughts were somehow arranged, he only thought about one thing, and that was how to make Lucy feel better. How would he be able to help?

He wanted to make her laugh, make her remember the old times when they would just sit around at someone's house and be goofy with one another.

Just then, an idea popped in his mind.

...

"Hey, Luce..?" Natsu whispered while carefully glancing at her. Lucy's gaze lifted from the floor and met his onyx eyes. His face seemed happy and cheerful, but his eyes spoke differently, they were sad and hurt... that fact alone made Lucy feel really guilty.

It was her fault that he felt like this. She was the reason for his unhappiness...

"Yeah?"

"You know you're still my sunshine, right?" the blonde widened her eyes at a well known nickname. She stared at him with awe as he gave her one of his goofy grins. Her mouth began forming a smile as she clicked her teeth together, smiling widely.

Natsu gave Lucy that nickname mostly because it suited her personality perfectly. She was indeed a ball of sunshine in his life; her hair was a good add to it, too. He always called her sunshine when she was sad, reminding her how important she is to him.

She always made his life a better place and he was grateful. The dragon slayer sometimes wondered if he had fallen for his best friend, but he would often just brush that thought off and concluded it was nothing important.

"And you're still my sweetie.." blonde exclaimed happily and jumped into his open arms, sharing a meaningful moment together.

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"Are you ready to talk about the stuff that happened? We don't have to if you feel threatened," Natsu said, he would respect the fact about Lucy not being ready to talk about such a sensitive topic.

"No, I know I can talk about everything with you.." she sighed and took a deep breath in before speaking again.

"I.. um.. I-I -"

"Don't push yourself, Luce, we can talk another time.." salmon haired boy spoke gently and began to get up, but Lucy quickly stopped him by grabbing his hand.

"I took those pills because I wanted to leave.. I wanted to leave everything behind me, I didn't think about anyone in that moment beside myself.. I was hurting and I was so broken, I wore the same fake smile everyday and no one noticed. I was so tired of faking it all, I just wanted to stop everything for a while. I was alone, and lonely, and sad and every day just got worse and worse, I just... couldn't handle it anymore.." she explained with her eyes facing the ground.

Natsu was left speechless, but she didn't need his words now and he saw that. He felt the grip on his hand loosened so he firmly took her hand and pulled her up from the bed. He pulled her on his chest, giving her comfort.

The blondes arms hesitantly lifted and wrapped around Natsu's muscular body. She felt safe, his embrace made her feel at ease.

"I don't want to lose you again Natsu, I.. love you.."

Dragon slayers body tensed at her words.

Did Lucy really just say that?

"Y-You what..?" His gaze lowered to look at her and he saw her drifting off to sleep, her legs felt tired so Natsu lifted her up bridal style and placed her under the warm blankets.

As her head touched the pillow her mind dozed away into a deep slumber. Natsu smiled at her face and gently stroked her hair.

"You say the most confusing things sometimes, you know that Luce?" He whispered and laid beside her, joining her in a deep sleep.

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heya! i'm indeed alive, how are y'all doing?

i'm sorry for not posting sooner, my school is really messing me up lately..

i wish you a wonderful day, bye bye ❤️