"N-No.. I must've heard that wrong, r-right..?" Natsu sobbed the words out with a hopeful smile.

"S-Sir Dragneel.. we um..-"

"Is the patient with lung cancer going to be okay, doc?" Lucy asked doctor to try to relax Natsu, he clearly isn't ready to find out. It took doctor a moment to catch up on what Lucy was doing, but then it clicked.

"O-Oh yes! We are working on treating him correctly," he followed blondes line and it looked like Natsu believed the awful lie.

The doctor and Lucy said their goodbyes as he headed out of the door, making it okay for Natsu to walk inside. He looked pale, which was really unlike him. He's always tanned and paleness isn't his thing.

"Are you okay? You don't look very good," she commented on his looks while worrying about the same thing. She lied about the other patient, because she saw Natsu's reaction. He clearly couldn't handle the truth, and she was wiling to spare him of it.

"I just.. I just thought he was talking to you about cancer and I panicked and dropped our drinks, a-and-"

Lucy noticed his panic and quickly got up from her bed and sprinted to him with shaky legs, she didn't leave bed for almost a month so it's natural she would have trouble standing.

"Please, c-calm down- uh!" She yelped while going towards him, but her legs gave up mid way so her knees kissed the floor after few steps.

"Lucy!" Natsu yelled in surprise and rushed next to her to help her get up. "You idiot, you're not supposed to walk yet, and especially not run!" He schooled her as she lowered her head in shame.

"What was I supposed to do, you became panicking... and you would start feeling bad and I don't want that,"

"That's no excuse," he placed her arm around her shoulders and helped her get on her feet. He slowly leaded her to the bed.

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Few weeks passed and Lucy's recovery went fine, after some time the doctors decided to let her go home for now. She would still have to come back for regular checks.

"How are you?" One of the nurses asked Lucy before she walked out of the hospital.

"I'm fine, thanks," because of her legs, she had to have crutches, so she slowly walked away with Natsu by her side.

"Are you sure you're feeling better?" He worriedly asked at her doorstep, "I can go with you in and help you with all your stuff or-"

"I'm okay Natsu, no need to worry... I'll be fine on my own," she said reassuringly while slightly smiling at him.

"Okay, I trust you, Luce.." those were his last words before she walked inside and closed the door.

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As soon as the door closed behind her, her fake smile dropped as tears started rolling down her face, everything came crushing down. She threw the crutches away and dropped to the wooden floor. She was so good at faking her emotions that sometimes even she thought they were real. But every time she laughed with Natsu or anyone, she felt nothing inside. Her emptiness followed her wherever she went.

And thats how depression feels like to some of us

Tears stained her cheeks as they continued flowing. It was always like this, but this time, she decided to do something she swore not to. But she couldn't think of anything else at this point.

She walked to her working table and took the sharpener in her palm while carefully staring at it. She brought it to the kitchen and took the knife from the drawer and started taking off the small wheel that attached blade to the metal.

She examined it after she managed to pull it out. Lucy sat at the bathroom floor and swooped the sharp thing across her porcelain skin.

She winced in pain while her body ached with pain, her eyes remained dead until realization and regret washed over her.

"W-What the hell did I just do?! A-Ah, it burns!" She cried out and limped across the bathroom to reach the bag with bandages.

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Lucy sat at her bed and stared at her wrist. Her thumb was slowly stroked the untouched skin while thoughts completely consumed her mind.

What's wrong with me?

I still... want to die

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i'm sorry for taking this much time to post this chapter, i hope you liked it!

Have a wonderful day, bye bye ❤️