I Fear

I fear that if I keep on living like this
Taking walks on the fence like I do
Never really picking a side
I will end up where the sun doesn't shine

I fear that I am helpless to correct
All the things that are wrong in my life
I know I have to let go of dark to get light
Simply spoken but hard for me to do

I fear that even if I succeed to let go
Let go of the dark I held on to
Will I ever be worthy of receiving light
Knowing I'll have to hold the light with both hands

I fear that when I take hold of the light
Somewhere along the way I'll drop it
And I'll be without light, back in the dark
Way worse than I begun

I fear that t even if I don't drop it
It'll start to go dim
And when my time comes
It won't be the Pearly Gates for me