Chaeyoung PoV

He went to my apartment a million times and sent a lot of apology gifts. I lost track of time ever since I went to his office. What day is it today? How many days has it been? I'm guessing 5 days since we last met. 

I haven't eaten proper food or gone outside my apartment. I just feel so confused and a little lost. The thing that Lisa Manoban told me was still stuck in my head. No matter how hard I try to forget about it, the thought always finds it's way to my mind. 

And it's annoying!

I find myself crying when I think of it and I'm confused why. Is this what Sooyoung is trying to say? That maybe I'm falling for the guy I'm not supposed to love? 

It kind of bothers me why there's no news about him but I'm so stupid because when he goes here, I push him away. 

He really does put effort in his promises. 

Another tear falls to my cheeks and I hug my pillow then cover myself with my blanket. I hope he won't be sick of my stupid attitude or will he? 

Is this what jealousy feels like? Or am I falling into my anxiety again?

"Ya, Park Chaeyoung!" I hear Jimin. 

All of a sudden, I feel a really heavy body on top of mine. Jimin has finally entered my apartment after 5 days of me being locked down in my own house. His cheek is pressed on top of my shoulder and his hands wrapped around my waist. 

"Are you okay?" he asks. 

No, but somehow I don't feel as sad like last time. I don't feel the anxiety sadness, I feel...confused? 

But why is Jimin in my apartment? He's supposed to be at work or with his girlfriend. Why does my cousin always stick around with me? I'm an emotional wreck, a mentally disabled, and a stupid person. 

Even if he has a girlfriend, Jimin spends most of his time looking after me or going around with me. No wonders why he always ends up breaking up with his girlfriend. 

Because, I'm his biggest problem. 

I'm the world's biggest problem. I belong to the trash can. 

"Chae?" he asked. "What's the matter, bub?"

I sit up and got out of my blanket, forcing Jimin to sit up too. Then I groaned and I wailed but he just gave me a confused reaction. 

He probably thought I'm sad and being overdramatic again. 

"Oppa!" I shouted and gave him a big hug. 

Then he just patted my head, "Are you really alright?"

I wailed again. 

"I don't understand: arghghfhghfjgjhhf as an answer," he lifted his eyebrow and he snapped his fingers. "Maybe it's because you're on a diet? You usually wail around like this when you're doing a diet."

I shook my head and sighed then closed my eyes, "Just who the hell is Lalisa Manoban?!"

Jimin looked at me shockingly and covered his right ear because I accidentally screamed. 

Just who is she?! Why is she engaged to Jungkook?! Why was I not informed?! I am outrageous! What am I?! A clown?! I do not clown myself! 

I don't care about Jeon Jungkook, okay?! But why is she engaged to him?! 

If they wanted to engage him with someone else then tell me first! Because first of all, I am the one engaged to him and I make the decisions! And plus, it's not the end of our deal! 

This is driving me crazy! I want to say that I'm so mad but all of them would end up teasing me. I am so not in love with Jungkook, I am just bothered why nobody tells me things. 

Even him! 

Jungkook dares sleeps in my house for 3 days and then secretly gets engaged behind my back?! How dare he?! He is absolutely the most horrible person in this world! 

"Oh, no. You're mad," Jimin says. "Your face is turning red."

I looked at him and he defends himself by putting his two palms in front of me. 

"Look, I just went here because Jungkook asked me to. He was worried that you got your ultimate sadness again and he said something about your emotions being a total wreck because you're on your period," Jimin tells me in a very fast speed. 

"I don't even know if I should be sad or not! I want to punch a freaking wall!" I screamed. 

"Okay, okay, but we don't have to shout," he says. "You have a gym downstairs, why can't you do boxing there? And what's with all the gifts outside your apartment door? They're all labeled 'Rosie Posie'."

I slammed my fists on my bed, "IT'S FROM JUNGKOOK, OKAY?!"

"Jesus Christ, Chaeyoung-ah. You don't have to say his name like it's cursed or something."

"I AM NOT! AND FOR YOUR INFORMATION, I AM NOT SAD! I AM COMPLETELY UNBOTHERED!"

"OKAY, DO YOU WANT TO HAVE A SHOUTING CONTEST?!" he shouted. 

I looked at him with glaring eyes, "DO YOU WANT TO HAVE A FIGHT, OPPA?!" 

"No, ma'am," he smiled and hugged me.

"Ew, get your hands off me, you filth."

"You're smiling radiantly, my baby cousin," he says. "I know what happened, stop acting like this. It also makes me worried when you act happy, sad and angry at the same time."

I roll my eyes. 

It's because of this Lalisa Manoban. Gosh, I hate her with all my might! 

Because of her, Jennie was so angry when she texted. I was supposed to go to a photoshoot meeting with her and the camera directors. But then Lalisa Manoban happened and I got so upset and so angry then I went home instead. 

Now the photoshoot has been postponed because I acted sick when Jennie called me. Lalisa Manoban is going to pay, she is definitely going to pay. 

And because of Lalisa Manoban, my agency has been worrying about me. Sooyoung has been non-stop calling. Jisoo has sent me a few chickens to 'brighten' my mood. 

I just gave all her chickens to some of the apartment cleaners in the building. Lalisa Manoban took my appetite for 5 freaking days. She literally makes my blood boil. 

And she's prettier compared to me, goddamit. I hate everything. 

"Lisa-ssi is actually..." Jimin chuckles. 

I look at Jimin, "Can you not speak her name?!"

Jimin shakes his head slowly, "Okay, where do I start the story? Let's see...uhm...Jungkook is actually going nuts because he can't get through you."

He then laughs, "I didn't know you were also going nuts."

I glared at him then he backs away. 

"Okay, I went a bit far," he said. "But seriously, Jungkook is going crazy because of this. We're all laughing at him because he's buying expensive clothes and shoes and cameras and bags and all the girly things girls want."

I lie back on the bed, "Who cares, Jungkook can just be one of those sugar daddys on the internet. Gee, I feel so lucky yay...boo. He has another girl behind me."

"Aha! So you like him?" Jimin smirks. 

"Never in a million years."

He chuckles again, "Lisa-ssi is not who you think she is."

"Then yay, Jungkook found someone he can be happy with," I rolled my eyes. 

"Don't be like that. Jungkook isn't like you. He doesn't go drink his problems out and go driving drunk then ends up in the wrong apartment. And no, he solves his problems."

I roll my eyes again, "Unlike me, I cry then I try committing suicide just to catch everyone's attention. Yay, Jungkook is the better person."

"It's not like that! I'm saying, Jungkook just likes to challenge himself and he puts in all his effort to things he really likes. But we're off topic, Lisa-ssi isn't engaged with Jungkook, you dummy. You believe easily."

"Yay, more lies," I feel my tears burning under my eyes. 

"She does photography as a side job and she's the Managing Director of J and P Associations Thailand, she was in Jungkook's office for a meeting about the 2nd quarter updates in Thailand's sales and she's consulting Jungkook for the future plans of our Thailand branch."

I sighed, "Thanks, I love your Ted Talk."

"Not only that, Chae," Jimin laughs. "Jungkook and Lisa are childhood friends. The three of us and a few other friends studied Business Management, so we know each other. Lisa is actually into someone and it's not Jungkook."

"Well, thanks, I'm the biggest clown of the entire world!" I say and cover my face with my blanket. 

"Just forgive the guy, Chae. He didn't do anything wrong. Lisa is probably just testing you, she's actually the only girl in our group so it's kind of weird to have another girl."

I shake my head, "It's not about him or Lisa, it's about me, oppa!!!!!" 

"Can we stop with the shouting?!" 

I sit up again, "I don't know if I'm falling for him. I hate it, I feel so jealous of Lisa-ssi but I'm relieved it isn't true but I'm mad that I got pressed and I'm confused if I...have a little, super little, like an ant size little, feelings for him."

When I turn to my side, Jimin's mouth is covered. And I point my pointer to him. 

"Don't even think of telling him, I am not in love with an idiot," I roll my eyes. 

He hums, "Really? Your eyes sparkle when his name is mentioned."

I punch his shoulder, "Oh, shut up!"

Jimin claps, "Ah! The unexpected always happens!" 

"Get out of my house."

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i forgot to update the other day! 

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