I have never been a fan of noise when I am sleeping. I just want some peace and quiet and I am not getting any of that right now. I hear my name repeatedly being called, but I have no desire to wake up.

I'm tired and I need rest.

" Hazel, Hazel wake up!" Roman?

That voice, it surely sounded like his.

" Hazel, come on wake up. You need to wake up." The voice sounds desperate and still like Roman's.

I must be dreaming that's for sure, because as far as I know, Roman left.

" Come on Sweet. Don't do this to me, don't do this to us. " Only Roman calls me Sweet. Yes, definetly that is Roman. But why would he beg for me to not do something to him and us?

What does he mean by that?... I haven't done nothing else but sleep.

I feel my body suddenly being shaken up and Roman continuously begging for me to wake up. Hearing him sounding so desperate and begging me to wake up gains my attention. I do as he pleads for me to do. I try wake up, pushing at my eyelids to flutter open but it proves difficult.

It's like my eyes have been glued shut.

" We need to take her to the hospital." I hear another male voice say close by.

" Colton's right. We can't risk anything." A third voice says and it sounds like, Roman's dad?

No, what would he being doing here?

" N-no, not yet. She's just sleeping and nothing major, we just need to wake her up, that's all." Roman argues.

That's right Roman. I'm only sleeping. I will wake up only when I find a way to.

" Rom - ," something stops him from saying anymore.

I suddenly feel my whole body moving and it's not long, before I am lifted off on air until I am secured into the warmth provided.

" Where are you taking her?" I hear them ask him but I don't hear an answer from him.

I'm still very much sleepy. Sleep is drawing me back into unconsciousness and I don't resist, feeling tired and in the need of another round of sleep.

In the midst of falling back to sleep, something cold washes over me, awakening me with a start. My lips part and my eyes flutter open, breathing coming out low but steady. The cold has somehow awakened my senses and now its effects have started, causing my body to tremble slightly.

" Hazel?...God, Hazel, look at me baby. Just give me your eyes." I hear Roman clearly, hearing the shaking in his voice.

My head is tilted up and before I know it, his lips connect to mine, letting them linger there. All too soon he breaks the kiss and rests his cheeks against the side of my face. I can hear his breathing, it's shaky.

I moan out, being bothered by the cold water.

" C-cold. I feel cold." I let out my first words.

Nothing is worse then being rained down by cold water, with cold air in the mix.

" Turn the water off." He says to someone and no time is wasted before the water is off. A small sigh of relief slips out from me.

" It's off baby, It's off."

" Roman, you're here." I murmur.

He came back.

" I'm here and I promise to never leave again. I'm here." I feel him pepper kisses all over my face, repeatedly telling me he's here after placing a kiss on my skin.

" Thank you. Can I sleep now?"

He doesn't answer me and I don't wait for him, my eyes start to droop low.

" Hazel ?" He says but I am too far gone back to sleep, to hear the rest of what he had to say.

I wake up again, feeling way too relaxed, a bit dizzy and nauseous. Roman's scent hits my nose before I can open my eyes. I moan out, snuggling into the softness of the pillow.

" Hazel?" The bed dips close to me.

I open my eyes and the first person I see is Roman. I can't believe he is sitting right here, infront of me. I thought he would never come back but he's here. When I look at him, thoughts of last night play in mind, me telling him the truth, him hurting himself and me begging him to stay but he left anyway.

It was so hard having to talk about what happened again but seeing his reaction and the way, he hurt himself, that was much harder. Seeing him now infront of me, silently watching me, I seriously don't know where to start the conversation. I just have no clue where his mind is at right now.

" Hazel - ," he quickly stops himself and I advert my eyes away from him.

I hate this. It's too awkward and tense and I hate both between us.

I shift on the bed and sit up, Roman jumps so fast to help me, totally surprising me. When I'm now comfortable, I take a breath before looking at him again. This time I really look him over and that's when I notice the dark circles under his eyes. He looks like he hasn't had any sleep.

Concern for him starts building up. I don't want him harming himself and harming his body. I don't want any harm coming to him.

" You should rest." I tell him.

" I can't." He shakes his head.

" Why not?"

" Because I'm afraid that if I close my eyes for even a moment, you'll be gone." He chokes on his words, emotion thick in his voice.

He looks like he could break down at any moment. I shift closer to him, until I can wrap my arms around him.

He is quick to pull me closer, his hold tight but I don't mind, I just want to be close to him.

" No I wont."

We stay like that, both of us feeding off each other's comfort.

" Your hand Roman -" I try pull back to look at it, but he tightens his hold on me.

" Don't worry about it."

" But Roman -"

" It's taken care of, don't worry." I sigh against him, calming down a little.

" I'm sorry for leaving baby, I'm sorry for everything. Forgive me please." He says, kissing my temple.

I believe he mistakens my silence for me, not forgiving him and now he repeatedly apologises.

"There is nothing to forgive. You were just shocked that's all. Please tell me you still feel the same about me, that nothing has changed."

He pulls back to look at me, taking my face between his hands. "Listen Hazel Grace, nothing and I mean nothing could ever make me change, the way I feel about you or the way I see you. You are still my Sweet, mine and mine alone. "

A smile takes over my face and his eyes soften, watching me.

" Do you know what I see right now?"

I shake my head no.

" I see forever when I look at you. I see my life and my everything, I see my happiness and I still see the only girl, who my heart will always race for. My It girl." My heart jumps in reaction to his words.

He pulls me back into his arms and I sigh against him, just loving the feeling of his arms around me. I always feel so warm and safe.

" You're my infinity." I whisper in his ear.

" Hey, you can't one up me woman!" He teases me. I chuckle, tracing my fingers along his back.

" Roman?"

"Yeah?"

" I really need to pee right now."

"Hold it in." My eyes widen.

" No, you must be crazy. When one needs to go, they've got to go." He laughs, letting me go.

I literally jump out of bed and out the door, before he can say anything else.
I reach the bathroom and do what I need to do before exiting, I stop in my tracks when I see Roman standing in the hallway, leaned against the wall.

" Roman?" I give him a questioning look.

Was he waiting for me just now?

He doesn't say anything but pushes off the wall, coming over to where I am standing. I gasp when he suddenly picks me up. I wrap my arms and legs around him and let him walk us back to his room, the whole time he walks, I rest my chin on his shoulder.

" What's wrong baby?" I ask after he sits us both down on the bed, where I am now straddling his lap.

I frown when he doesn't say anything but buries his face in the crook of my neck. " Roman, talk to me." I say softly, burying my fingers into his hair, massaging his scalp.

" I can't help but think about what happened to you." I feel my body grow stiff.

He takes his head away from my neck and looks at me. His beautiful hazel eyes are glossy. He looks so vulnerable at this moment. I wipe away the tear that trails down his cheek.

" I'm sorry." He says, his head dropping. " I'm sorry for what happened, I know that it might not help or change anything now, but I am sorry that something like that happened to you. I can't even fathorm the thought of what you must have gone through. The pain - damn it, the pain my Sweet had to go through." He shakes his head.

I close my eyes for a moment, blinking back the threatening tears. I will myself to not cry.

I take his head between my hands and tilt it up, so I have his eyes on me. " I'm okay. Roman, I'm okay." I say, wiping away his tears.

I lean closer and kiss him. He is quick to respond, immediately taking charge and deepening the kiss. I let him release everything he is feeling at this point and I meet him halfway. I know that it hurt him greatly to learn of what happened, it will take some time to process it in. I know Roman well enough to know that, he will need time.

We break the kiss when we remember that we still need to breathe. We rest our foreheads together and take time to calm our breathing.

" I'm okay. " I whisper out.

He moves his face so he can nuzzle his nose against mine. " Will you do something for me?" He asks, looking at me.

" Hmm." I nod.

" Please never think that you are easy again. Delete that thought out of your mind. I never want you to think like that anymore." I advert my eyes to my lap.

I feel them get heavy and before I know it, I start to cry. He is quick to wrap his arms around me, pulling me flush against him. I bury my face in his shoulder and clutch his shirt from his back, he lets me cry into his shirt, not minding that it is wet.

I let out everything I've felt, the pain, the hurt and everything I thought I'd let go but instead oppressed me. I let it all go and he holds me, never letting me go. I feel him shifting us so we are now laying on the bed.

The soothing rub of his hand on my back and massage of his fingers on my scalp, calms me down where my cries quieten and they turn into small sniffles and hiccups.

" Roman?" I whisper call him when I feel something wet touch the top of my head.

Is he crying?

"Just let me hold you for a little while baby please." He pleads quietly.

I answer him by snuggling into his chest.

We remain in silence for a little while, none of us attempting to say anything.

" Let me tell you something Hazel Grace, you are worth so much more. You are worth more then words could describe, you own my heart and I am more then priviledged to be in your life. Never compare yourself to others because you are incomparable, in my eyes. You are It for me. My heart, soul, body and everything that exists in me, is set on you."

I lean my head back to look up at him. I can see that he was crying, the tear stains evident on his face. I wipe away his tears and he closes his eyes at the feel of my touch.

" Tell me something, where did you go last night?"

He closes his eyes, sighing. " I went to Nick's place."

I pull away and sit upright, looking down at him. " You did?" I can't believe it.

That is surely the last place I thought he'd go to but he went. I feel relieved that he atleast went somewhere safe.

" Yeah. I didn't want to end up doing something stupid. I couldn't mess up and do that to you." He shakes his head, a disapproving look to the thought, displayed on his face.

" Well whether you mess up or fall or anything were to happen, I'll be here. No more walking away remember?" I remind him, running my fingers through his hair.

I wiggle my brows in a teasing manner and he smiles, grabbing at my shirt and pulling me down so our faces are close. I don't even waste time in connecting our lips together, sighing in contentment.

" I don't think it's healthy how I love your kisses so much." I admit against his lips.

"Better you then me, who's literally obessed with you." I chuckle against him.

" Tell me, how's your head?" He asks, pushing hair away from my face.

" It's okay and not paining like yester - ," I stop myself before I can finish, but the fallen expression on his face tells me that he caught on to what I meant. " I'm okay." I peck his lips.

" Are you sure?" His concerned eyes search my own.

" I'm sure and before you ask anymore, I still have my memory intact." I say, teasing him.

He playfully rolls his eyes at me and I sit up again, looking down at him.

" You make me so happy Roman." I say, making him smile.

His smile is so contagious that I smile too. He takes my hand and kisses it.

"I was thinking that we could go out more often, you know, do what couples do, have date nights, take walks and stuff." I take his hand and place it against my cheek. " I just don't want you to think that I am hiding you or our relationship. I want you to know that I'm serious about us and that I want to show you off." I say, admitting my worries.

He sits up.

" You don't need to worry about that. We still have years, months, days to do that, there is no rush. We will take things at our own pace and appreciate the fact that we are reunited, we will enjoy this." He gestures between us." I will continue to thank God that you are finally where you belong."

" And where's that?" I raise my brow, trying to suppress a grin.

"Right here in my arms." He says, wrapping his arms around my shoulders, pulling me close. I close my eyes when I feel his lips make contact with my forehead.

" Can we focus on things that make us happy now?" I say.

" That's totally easy for me. It's seeing my Sweet happy." He says against my skin, making my face to warm up as my heart flips.

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We actually missed school today and I didn't mind at all. We were just looking forward to spending the rest of today together. The morning sure served as a good start to it. We finally got out of bed and had breakfast, we then went back to bed and cuddled and before we knew it, we had fallen back to sleep.

When we woke up again, I was the first and I took the time to actually watch him sleep. I literally couldn't tear my eyes away from him, he looked so handsome but extremely cute. Everything about him was just right and my hearts reaction, having him pull me close and then smile, gosh, it felt like my heart would leap out of my chest.

Even in his sleep he was content with me being right there next to me.

When he finally woke up, we shared a moment of just looking at each other. That felt special to me, in a big way. He told me the reason for why he had to change my clothes, all because of a misunderstanding. How I looked when they found me laying in bed, with a bottle of pills in my hand, the image was just too horrific for Roman. It was more terrifying for him when he felt like I wasn't breathing at some point.

But because he is Roman, he stubbornly believed that I was just sleeping. Which I was. He refused to take me to the hospital and instead, took me under the shower where he sat with me. The cold water surely woke me up and I remember that. He changed my clothes right after and I was totally fine with that. I trust him.

I can't even remember how many pills I drank, I just did.

We wanted to get out of the house for a bit and what better way, then to go out for lunch. Surprisingly the weather was just right and fit for anything in my closet. I chose to go simple but still look good with a simple white lace dress, flat shoes, no make up apart from lip gloss and had my hair, simply fall on my back.

I even brought my camera with. I thought a nice walk around would get me good pictures.

"You and that camera are inseperable." He comments as I come down the stairs.

" I could never get enough pictures." I say, walking over to him.

" Well once we travel around the world, you'll tire that camera." I stop fiddling with my camera and look at him.

" You would do that, travel around the world with me?"

He gets off the couch and stands infront of me. Letting me take him all in.

" I would go anywhere with you." He says, tugging a strand of hair behind my ear.

" God, I love your hair down." He says, taking my hand and spinning me around. He gives me a look of approval when his eyes take me all in.

" Ready to go?" He asks.

I simply nod with my reddened cheeks, walking ahead so I can cool myself down.

We drive to a small restuarant that is not too far from our place and immediately, I say with my heart that this will be our spot. There is a rustic theme to it and it is cozy and just a good match for us.

When we enter, we are led to the booth at the back where there's like a mini wall around us, it's cute and I like the privacy of it all. Roman lets me slide in first and once we are seated, the waiter attends to us. I feel a hand on my thigh as I am still looking at the menu. I look at Roman with a questioning glance, only to notice Roman clenching his jaw as he he looks at the waiter.

Glancing between the two, Roman is boring holes at the side of the waiter's head while the waiter, has his eyes focused on me, waiting for me to place my order.

I finally place my order and the waiter leaves. I yelp when I'm suddenly pulled onto his lap and he buries his face in the crook of my neck.

" I think you should sit here so I don't have a reason to tear his eyes out." He mumbles into my ear, before pulling me flush against him.

" Who, the waiter?" I ask in confusion.

" Hmm." He nods.

" What do you mean tear his eyes out - he didn't do anything."

" Him looking at you the way he was, that's enough for me."

" And how was he looking at me?" I ask, clearly amused by this.

" Like you are a piece of meat. I don't like it one bit, you're mine." He mumbles, kissing my neck.

" The waiter's coming back." I say, trying to pull away.

" I don't care." He says, placing a kiss behind my ear.

I feel my breath start to get uneven as he pays more attention on that spot, his thumb making circling movements on my thigh.

I gulp when the waiter comes our way with our food.

" R-Roman." I stutter as the waiter stops at our table, having brought our food.

I quickly get off his lap when he finally loosens his hold on me, I look down at the floor, letting my hair fall around me like a curtain and hide my face. My face is feeling so hot right now and the shyness in me is surfacing.

" Enjoy." The waiter says before he leaves and a sigh of relief washes over me.

" He's gone, so we can pick up where we left off." Roman says, pushing hair behind my ear.

" Say that again and there will be no more Romy time." I say, narrowing my eyes at him.

" No." He gasps, dramatically placing his hand on his chest.

I try by all means to hold in my smile when his eyes grow wide and he pouts, as if the thought of no more ' Romy time' is the biggest crime to him.

" This looks delicious." I say, looking away from him and trying to hide my amusement.

" You're not serious." He says.

" What, that the food looks delicious ?" I blink up at him innocently, pretending to not have a clue on what he is talking about.

" No, that there will be no more Romy time. You would be committing murder, you know that right?"

I cant help but laugh when I see say this with a straight face.

" It's not funny you know." He grumbles.

" But it is. You've surely invested yourself too much on it." I say, pecking his cheek.

" Yeah, it's our special time."

" Says who?"

" Me." He says it as if it's obvious.

I shake my head, letting the smile to finally come out.

"If you let me eat in peace without trying -"

" Got it." He quickly says, cutting me off.

I chuckle at him, turning back to my food and he does the same.

" Don't tell me that you actually believed me." I say, glancing at him.

"Not really, just wanted to be a little dramatic for a bit." I look at him for a moment before bursting out laughing.

He smirks at me.

I shake my head, rolling my eyes at him. The two of us finally eat and get to share a good lunch with a good and enjoyable conversation. Being around Roman just feels right, he makes me laugh, giggle, blush, cause my heart to react in so many different ways and all in all, he gives me that giddy vibe in which bubbles within me, whenever he looks at me.

I'm smiling when we leave the restaurant after lunch, he holds my hand the whole time we head to his car, our joined hands swinging back and forth between us. Reaching his car, he opens the door for me and lets me in first before he takes his side.

His phone buzzes before he can start the car. I watch him take it out of his pocket and run his eyes all over the screen.

" Your father would so kill me." He mumbles, turning to me.

" Why?"

" Because just this once, I want you to bail on a session and spend the rest of the day with me."

" Real tempting but I can't miss it."

" I should kidnap you."

" I would so be all over the idea, if I didn't think I need the session, especially this one."

He looks at me for a minute before leaning over the console and kissing me. I smile at him when he leans back in his seat and just looks at me.

As if the morning is repeating itself, we find ourselves simply looking at each other. No words are needed to be shared but us looking at each other is enough, our eyes find conversation in the silence and being around each other is enough.

" So what are you going to do while I'm away?" I ask curiously.

" Wait for you." He simply answers.

" Where, at home?"

" Nope."

" In your car?" He shrugs.

" But you'll be bored sitting here waiting for me. And I don't want you to be bored." I say, not exactly liking the idea of him having to wait for so long, for me.

He could be doing something else at that time.

" Baby, I've learnt to wait almost a decade to see you again, an hour wont kill me. Trust me."

There is just something about those words that melt my heart.

"Okay, but if you get tired at any moment, you can go. " I say worriedly.

His gives me a soft look, placing his hand on my face, his thumb caressing my skin.

" You're so cute."

My cheeks heat up and I advert my eyes to my lap, trying to keep cool. Damn him, he just has a way of making me feel all mushy and shy.

" And adorable."

" S - stop." I shyly say, making him laugh.

I pull his hand off my face and entwine our fingers, placing them on my lap as I look at him again.

" You know, we still have about an hour or so before my session, what do you wanna do?"

He thinks this over for a moment before he speaks. "Maybe we could stop somewhere and take a walk."

"Yeah?"

He nods. " I just want to spend any time I am given, to spend with you. And to create memories to capture on that camera of yours."

And just like that, he makes me fall for him harder.

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Anothet update. Yay!!!!👏👏👏👏

Anothet round of Razel💞💞💖💖❤❤❤❤❤💕❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Usually I dont let my characters call each other ' baby' too much. I dont know, it felt too normal for me. But somehow it just feels right when Hazel and Roman call each other that way. It doesn't sound too cliche, dull or normal. It just fits.

It feels way too right it's scary.😅😅😅😅😅😅.

I dont know how you feel about it.

Lol, to anyone who has been wondering about Roman's hair. It's long, let me say shoulder length hair. Man bun vibes😂😂😂😂😂

So little note of Razel :

● They simply enjoy looking at each other...

●They adore each other's hair.

● And they have ' Romy ' time.

I think all this equals cute/ adorable. You name it.

If you think there is more you find cute....let me know.

What are your thoughts on their journey so far, do you think it's smooth sailing from here on out or would there be the unexpected.

Your thoughts matter. Dont be shy to share. Love hearing from you.💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟💟