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Winter Sebastian

Winter Sebastian
jean?
are you there?

Mermaid Jean
hey, seb
i'm here
i was actually just about to text you

Winter Sebastian
listen, jean
about the thing on twitter earlier today

Mermaid Jean
seb, honestly
i don't know how to tell you how sorry i am for that
i swear, my brother was probably possessed or something when he sent that tweet out

Winter Sebastian
no no no
i should be the one saying sorry

Mermaid Jean
are you crazy, sebastian stan?
what the heck are you apologizing for?

Winter Sebastian
for making it known to the world that you might turn me down

Mermaid Jean
jesus, that's nothing
that's not even half as bad as what jon did

Winter Sebastian
is it really though?

Mermaid Jean
what is?

Winter Sebastian
about your brother intervening

Mermaid Jean
i'm no stranger to my brother intervening with my things and neither is he when i meddle with his as well but i have never gone out and said things like that

Winter Sebastian
if your brother hadn't tweeted that
would you have continued with your cover-up answers?

Mermaid Jean
what do you mean?

Winter Sebastian
jean, i'm 33
i'm no stranger neither feelings nor rejection
and i can tell when someone is using a cover-up answer to avoid something
i know that you may not want to talk about this right now but you and i both know that we can't ignore the elephant in the room, especially since your brother and my friends have decided to "unite" us, in a way, on twitter.
the two weeks i spent in helen with you were the best two weeks of my life. i know this is definitely and undoubtedly the most cliché thing to say but i'm not lying.
i can't and i most certainly won't lie to you about this.
i know things have been rocky between us this past month, with you in L.A and me in New York but i want you to know that i've missed you terribly and i really want to see you, and that is only if you'll allow it.

Mermaid Jean
and here i thought i was a pretty good liar. . . guess not, huh?
well, i guess our accidental meetup should have clearly indicated to me that i'm not a good liar since i couldn't even lie to your face.
seb, i. . . i can't tell you how sorry i am for the way i've been treating you this past month. i guess i needed some space and with you being so straight-forward with me as well as being 2500 miles away from where i am, i got scared.
i let my fear get the best of me because i'm still reminded about my past relationship. and it took me a while to recover from it, even though i'm pretty sure i'm still not way past it yet.
but me being scared is no excuse for the way i've been treating you. i knew it was wrong and selfish of me to avoid you by using ridiculous excuses but i couldn't help it. i had to guard my heart and myself, not from you of course.

Winter Sebastian
jean, there's no need to apologize.
i get where you're coming from, i truly do.
i still remember how you were so afraid that letting me know what was hurting you back in helen would make me run for the hills but now, it seems like i've made you run for the hills.

Mermaid Jean
what
sebastian, no
please don't say sorry
oh god
this isn't your fault.

Winter Sebastian
no, i'm sorry.
i'm really sorry, mermaid girl.
i usually take things slow but then by some magical christmas miracle, i happened to meet you in a dingy old pub in helen while everyone was outside building a snowman and chasing each other with mistletoes in their hands. i'd suddenly lost all sense of taking things slow. i happened to meet this amazing girl by accident a day before christmas, when all i was trying to do was lay low over the holidays.
and i was even lucky enough to be able to go out with her during our remaining week in helen and get her number and kiss her twice, even if it was for the sake of tradition.

Mermaid Jean
you'd really call yourself lucky for meeting me?
i should be the one saying that.

Winter Sebastian
i feel incredibly lucky to even be able to talk to you right now.

Mermaid Jean
you're too good to be true, sebastian stan.

Winter Sebastian
i'm really not, considering the fact that i came on to you too fast.

Mermaid Jean
you weren't the only one.
these past few weeks have been. . . weird for me.
i'd wake up every morning and crave for those waffles we had in helen and i'd even crave for your company because i just feel so comfortable with you.
but then those bitter memories would come flooding back and i'd just be reminded that maybe the same thing might happen again if i let someone else in.

Winter Sebastian
you're worried that i might turn out like your ex-boyfriend?

Mermaid Jean
i know it's wrong of me to think that and even think that far about our relationship when we've only just known each other for a month.
i mean even though i've known you for a month, i don't even know who your favourite actor is or what your favourite colour is and here i am thinking about our relationship.

Winter Sebastian
jack nicholson is my favourite actor and my favourite colours are red and black. i honestly can't decide.

Mermaid Jean
oh. . .
well, i wasn't expecting that

Winter Sebastian
jean, i really do understand where you're coming from. and since our feelings are mutual here, i was hoping, if it's okay with you, that we get to know each other a little better. i'll admit that i've thought about our relationship as well so please don't feel like it's wrong or anything. i know you're worried and scared, and i don't blame you.
but if you'll allow it, i'd like for us to get to know each other better.
i'll only move forth with this if you're okay with it and if you want it as much as i do.

Mermaid Jean
you're too good to be true, honestly.
i don't think i've ever come across someone who's so willing to be upfront with me about this and who's so understanding.

Winter Sebastian
well, i hope you still remember what i told you
i'm not going anywhere, jean
can i call you?

Mermaid Jean
yes, please
that would be great x

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a/n; i'm crying 'cause these two are finally being honest with each other :')

alsooo, i just posted a new bill skarsgård fanfic entitled 'sentimental' (yep, another one because i can't help it)! so far, only the introduction, epigraph & prologue have been posted. the first chapter will be up sometime tomorrow or the day after! sooo, you can check it out if you want :-)