HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN. I LOVE YOU ❤️❤️ ❤️HAPPY 18th.
Don't own any of the songs in here. Timeline is going to be a bit different in my story than his real life. I hope you enjoy. :)

Underlined sections are flashbacks
(Originally posted August 8 2016)

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Depression.
It probably sucks if you have it. I mean I don't have it, but I can't tell you what it's like to be happy all the time. I know there is a huge difference between having depression and not being happy, but there have to be similarities. Just like lying and keeping a secret. It's not the same thing, but there have to be some things that are similar.

It wasn't always this hard to keep this secret from my friends, it used to be really easy. I used to be embarrassed by it, and now I accidentally got this huge secret that no one knows about.

July 23, 2012
"We will be on our best behavior, does everyone understand?" My mom stressed for the fourth time, as she threw her long blonde hair into a pony.

"Terry, everything will be fine, Karen is grateful that we offered our house. Things will work out, right kids?" My dad smiled

"Right" Cory replied

"Sure" I added

"I know ... it's just she was my best friend in high school, and I haven't seen her since. Their Florida tickets got misplaced during their move and I just wanted to see her and meet the kids. I didn't want their summer to go to waste, so this has to work out for them."

My mom always had to help others, no matter what it was. She offered things she couldn't always give, sometimes she offered all she had. It was her best trait, but also her biggest flaw, depending on how you see it.

"They're here!" Cory yelled, from the doorway.

My mother turned out of the living room and walked outside to give some lady with dark brown hair a hug. My father walked out after my mom and shook a man's hand. this man had darker skin and darker hair. He had this smile that stretched from ear to ear and a personality that seemed to be very kind and gentle.

A small girl came running into her dad, not because she was shy, but because she was loving and liked to show it in public. She looked liked her father, with the beautiful long hair like her mother. Her skin tone was slightly tanned, but not enough to really notice .She looked to be the same age as my brother, give or take a few years. Her smile was gorgeous, her laugh and playfulness were already introduced, even before her name.

"Sam right?" A voice said as it set next to me.

I looked to my left to see the boy that sat next to me. He was clearly a year old than I was, he had dark brown hair and deep brown eyes. He had both his ears pierced which threw me off, but it didn't look bad. He smiled at my staring, which revealed a mouth full of braces, braces that somehow looked good too.

"Or are you Cory?"

"No, I'm Sam." Is smiled back.

"I'm Shawn and that's my sister Aaliyah."

"Nice to meet you."

Corey and Aaliyah connected better, but not better than Shawn and I. My parents said it was an age thing, but we liked the same thing and that thing was music. We had adventures, things that made us close, even in the first year of our friendship.

"We aren't supposed to put the dog in the sprinkler!" Cory screamed as Shawn and I laughed

"What exactly is going to happen when I push your dog into the water," Shawn whispered.

"Do it and find out," I smiled.

My dog went ripping through the yard, and back into the house. Rolling on the carpet and shaking, then back outside to roll in the mud.

That was the first time my mom lost her shit on Shawn and me.

No one just finds a true best friend, it doesn't happen, especially on the first day of meeting each other. When I was younger, around the age of 13, it was weird to have friends that weren't the same gender as you. Don't even get my started on the fact that he didn't live in the same area as me, not even in the same province.

These were the reason why I didn't tell anyone about Shawn.

Now I am fucked.

"I am only going to help you if you make a promise to me." I teased

"Fine." He laughed as the guitar sat on his lap.

"If this goes viral and you become some Canadian rock star. You have to promise you won't change who you are. You won't do drugs or let the fame and money get to you."

"Considering you're a year younger than me, your pretty mature. I promise."

"Okay, then I shall record your Vine." I paused "And I know I'm mature." I smiled.

When Shawn was starting to get noticed, I had thought about telling my friends, but people wouldn't believe me, or they just wouldn't care. By the time I released I should tell people, Shawn was playing on every radio station.

There was no way my friends would believe me. My best friend is Shawn Mendes, we kinda grew up together, but not really.His parents knew my mom, well his mom and my mom were friends, She went Ontario for schooling, she grew up there.

I could tell them the truth or a lie, and no one would believe me either way. So I stayed quiet, again.

"Happy 16th Birthday Loser!" I screamed.

"You already said happy birthday to me last night." He reminded me

"So. Anyway, what did you want for your birthday?"

"For you to leave me alone."

"This is my room Shawn and my bed. I am not leaving."

"I hate you."

"Good" I laughed

"Okay fine. I don't want anything from you except for a promise. You made me promise, now it's your turn. You have to stop selling yourself short, even though you're short." He laughed "You can't settle and you need to protect yourself."

"Sounds easy"

Not easy.

There's something else."

"Go on."

"We can't tell people I come down here. If you already told your friends, that's fine. I am worried, though, if people start realizing I come down here every summer, then I may have to stop coming down here. You're my best friend and I don't want to give that up."

"Shawn stop. I get it. I haven't told anyone. I won't were all good."

"You're sure?"

"One Hundred Percent!"

"Great let's go eat breakfast, I am starving."

Officially fucked.

Chapter one ❤️