It's short, it's crappy, I know. But hey- be glad I'm updating at all! I'm procrastinating my homework to get this out, and even so it's going to have to be short. So I started a songfic, 'cause those are usually short...ish.

"And the boy learned an important lesson that day: to love is to destroy, and to be loved is to be the one destroyed."

~Jace Herondale (City of Bones)

"This... this isn't working, Y/N. Maybe... maybe we should get some space."

"I'm - what?!"

"I'm sorry, it's just-"

"Save it. I don't care." You left the obsidian cabin, wishing you were angry enough to slam the door. But you weren't angry, just crushed.. Some nagging, doubtful part of you had unceasingly whispered in your ear 'You're not good enough. He will leave you soon.' 

So maybe the little voice was right. Maybe you weren't good enough for him.

When I am alone I sit and dream

And when I dream the words are missing

In the days that passed, you sought little corners out of the way where you could be alone, whenever you could. In that tucked-away little nook, you would just dream of the way it used to be. The way it was before.

But your visions of those golden times were muted, with no sound. Because all those words the two of you had said to each other, all those times you'd said 'I love you,' were evidently nothing.

'I love you' was a broken promise.

Yes, I know that in a room so full of light

That all the light is missing

But I don't see you with me, with me

No matter if you were outside in the full, blazing warmth of the sun, or inside your cool, shady cabin. It made no difference where you were: all the light was leeched out of everything. 

Because Nico wasn't right next to you, where he'd promised he'd be.

Just another shattered promise, just more broken lies.

Close up the windows, bring the sun to my room,

Close inside of me the light you see

that you met in darkness

So you shuttered the windows to you heart. You brought every little scrap of happiness, every golden memory. 

Because you'd need those beautiful, innocent memories. You'd need them, for the son of Hades's betrayal had stolen your light. Taken what you'd given, with nothing in return.

You supposed maybe you'd been foolish to think that someone would ever love you.

Time to say goodbye

Horizons are never far

Would I have to find them alone,

Without true light of my own?

So you said goodbye to Nico, and in part: goodbye to yourself. That part of you that'd trusted innocently, that part of you that had believed in love.

The part that'd been crushed underfoot by careless wanderers.

And now you had to struggle through this misery that they called life alone.

In the dark.

With you I will go

On ships over seas

That I now know

That don't exist anymore

It's time to say goodbye

You would've gone anywhere with him. Anywhere. But you couldn't go anywhere with him, because all the boats you could've sailed on with him were gone.

Or perhaps they never existed. That thought troubled you the most. You'd thought you'd found true love with Nico, but perhaps he was just fooling you.

Maybe you couldn't say goodbye if there was never a true hello.

When you were so far away

I sat alone and dreamt of the horizon

Then I knew that you were here with me, with me

Whenever he had to leave, perhaps on a mission for Hades, you simply waited. Yes, you might've lived your life, but all you were doing was staring at the horizon far, far beyond what the eye could see. To a certain boy.

Whom you'd thought was always with you in your heart- but you weren't so sure anymore.

Building bridges over land and sea

Shine a blinding light for you and me

To see, for us to be

Time to say goodbye

As you tried to light the inky depths of oblivion in your soul, some subconscious part of you sent out a tortured plea to the boy who you had loved and wanted so desperately.

Not knowing that on the other side of the country, with his sister, the child of Hades was wishing for you too.

Bleh. Not my best work. Oh well.

Comment how I did, and remember to vote! I know it's short, but I have a fencing tournament so yeah.

Hey. Do you guys even read these? Comment "Potatoes" if you read this far. :) Just want an estimate.

See ya peeps!

~Cali