Xavier

"Why?" I mutter to myself as I kick and punch the nearest wall

I came here to save her.

I came here to be her knight in shining armor, but all what happened was my heart getting broken into millions of pieces.

Again.

I thought I was numb to the feeling of being hurt, but when I saw Alyssa kissing him, my own brother, rised all of those emotions that it took me years to bury.

Everything flipped, and before I could process it, I grunted out the most painfullest words ever.

"We're done".

The words still echo in my mind because it's the only thing I've been able to think about.

I can't believe I gave my all to her, and all she did was throw it away in the matter of seconds.

I mean is there something wrong with me?

I've been rejected by the love of my life, in different scenarios, twice, to the one person who's supposed to be family.

My own brother has betrayed me.

My ex girlfriend betrayed me.

But then again I can't just blame them.

I promised myself to never love again, and that's exactly what I did.

So in a way, it wasn't entirely their fault.

Because I betrayed myself.

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Alyssa

"I have to find Xavier." I whisper to De'André who's lazily hanging onto me

We've been hugging for a while now, and his perspective really has taught me that both of these twins are mentally fucked up, but I choose Xavier.

It's always been Xavier.

And De'André's confession proved that.

No I didn't feel anything when he kissed me, I think, but it did make me question things such as 'Why was he gone so long?' and "Were these his plans all this time?'

This was all a set up from the beginning, and I'll be damned if I let something as fucked up and twisted as this get in the way of me being happy.

"Go ahead." I hear him mutter in the crook of my neck

My mouth opens slightly from surprise because this is the first time he's agreed with me.

"You're going to let me go? Just like that?" I ask curiously making him loosen his hold

"Alyssa." He deadpans then looks at me with an emotion I can't quite recognize

"You weren't the one I wanted. I wanted Xavier to hurt because that's what he has done to many people. He needed to learn that his actions had consequences." He finishes making me raise an eyebrow

"I understand that, but you aren't perfect either. You've made bad decisions thinking you were helping people." I say standing up for Xavier

Even though I'm pretty sure he doesn't want anything to do with me, I'm still going to stick up for him and protect him, because I know he would do the same for me.

He chuckles and looks down with a sad smile on his face.

"I've already had my consequences." He admits then looks up with a tear rolling down his cheek

"What do you mean." I ask searching his eyes for any kind of emotion

But there isn't any.

I always thought Xavier was the one who needed the most reassurance, but now I see that it wasn't him.

It's De'André.

"I - I..." He stutters making me put my hand on his cheek to reassure him

He takes my hand in his and closes his eyes as more tears start to fall down.

"I killed our mother." He finally admits and opens his eyes that has a wild and vivid look in them

His eyes jump from mine to behind me, and I already know who's there, but before I can turn around, I hear his voice.

"You did what?!" He screams making me wince

In an instant, I'm being pushed to the side and thumps and grunts enter the once "peaceful" scenary.

I turn around in attempt to move them away from each other, but Xavier is on top of De'André giving him blows to the head.

"Stop Xavier, you'll kill him!" I scream and run by his side and pull his arm back but all he does is push me to the side again and continue to smash his knuckles into his head

Blood starts to pour out of De'André's nose and head, but he still continues to lay there.

"Stop!" I scream louder causing Xavier to look at me with rage filled eyes

He gets up and walks over to me and I instinctively take a step back, and his face softens slightly.

But once De'André wheezes, he turns to look behind him, then back at me and gives me a cold look.

"Do you love him?" He questions in a gruff tone

"No." I answer truthfully causing him to take a step closer to me

"Then why did you kiss him?" He questions once again and this time I take a step closer

"Because it was the first thing that came to mind while searching for an escape plan. I remembered how much he wanted me, and used that to my best advantage. I was going to kiss him then grab his gun and make it out of there, but you showed up before it could happen." I reply making his face soften in understandment

He shakes his head as if he's having a mental battle on whether I'm telling the truth or not, and I walk up to him and and put my hand around the back of his neck and bring him down so our lips can connect.

Once we pull away, I rest my head against his, and open my eyes slightly.

"I want you and only you." I admit making him smile softly and grab me by the back of my thighs

I hiss as he picks me up, completely forgetting about my gunshot wound, and he notices.

"What's wrong?" He asks and looks at me

"Julia shot me in the thigh." I answer and his expressions becomes unreadable for a split second but then he nods and puts me back down

"Do you have anymore wounds?" He asks looking down at me with a clenched jaw

I look down and nod my head, and he growls lowly and I slowly wrap myself around him making him sigh and puts his arms around my shoulder.

"Don't pull that shit again." He demands in my ear nipping it softly

"Ok, I won't." I reply biting my lip and nuzzling my face in his chest

Before any of us can say anything else, we hear more wheezes and coughs making us turn our attention to a bloody bodied De'André who's trying to pick up his gun.

Xavier rolls his eyes and connects our hands and my stomach swarms with butterflies.

"Why after all these years do you still fight me?" He asks and walks over to De'André then kicks the gun farther away

He groans and mutters a curse word under his breath.

"Because I know I will never be as much as a leader. And because I will never amount up to your success." He spits out making me look up to Xavier in worry

But all he does is purse his lips and pull out a gun of his own and points it at his head.

"We all make mistakes De'André." He admits then sighs

"I know, but you keep yours discrete and it doesn't even affect you." He replies causing more blood to pour out of his mouth

Xavier shakes his head and takes the gun off safety.

"Go ahead. I want to see father again so I can know if he's actually proud of me." He advises then closes his eyes and leans all the way back

I look up to Xavier to see him wipe his eye and then he throws the gun to the side.

"I'm not going to kill you, even though I should, everyone deserves another chance." He says then looks at me making me smile

"Don't you think so Alyssa?" He asks and then I look over to De'André who's eyes are partially closed

"Yes, yes I do."