It's not even done and I know I screwed up

This is what I get for attempting to color when I know I suck at everything to do with art and I only have my dad's colored pens
(He doesn't have yellow for a sunset 😞)

It was SUPPOSED to be one of my characters (or a random character depending on how you want to look at it) walking through a field of lavender bushes at sunset with a big, dark storm on the horizon
It's taken from this trip I'm on rn and we're driving through the lavender fields of Provence, an area of France.

But since I only have colored pens to do art with I tried using some wet q-tips to blur the background.

CLEARLY that went wrong 😫😭
It got into my front lavender bushes that I was really proud of and screwed them up and the background didn't blue and just ARGH

TBIS IS WHY I DONT COLOR SNYTHING THATS NOT DIGITAL BECAUSE THEN THIS HAPPENS
*feels like punching self because I knew this wasn't going to work and I tried it anyway and ended up screw ein up something I liked originally*
*kicks wall and bangs head on table*