Dearest ex-friends,

I was a wreck for a solid week. I couldn't tell my dad about the affair. I couldn't tell my sister. My heart was cleaved in two and I didn't know who to turn to. Zoe voted to tell my dad straight up while Ian said to tell my sister first. I couldn't do either.

You both got so frustrated. Why ask for advice when I wouldn't take it, you both said. Why be so difficult, you both said.

Zoe, you looked me straight in the eye and said "Maybe you should just keep your mouth shut. Wouldn't want your dad to take some pills like your little sister did. You should be grateful your family at least pretends to be happy."

Ian, you told her. I told you that in secret!

I just smiled at you, Zoe, and said I knew you were going through a hard time. I said I knew you didn't mean it. But as I walked away, my bottom lip quivered and tears rain down my cheeks.

I felt so worthless that day. I felt like I ruined everything I touched and no one wanted to be my real friend. I thought maybe it would be better if I disappeared. Would everyone be happy then?

Remember,
Laila