Honestly speaking, I was done with all her dramas, why was she so confusing? I parked my car properly, stepped out and headed straight inside the mansion, I hoped her mother wasn't around because I really needed to talk to Khushi and I couldn't do it if she was around.

As I walked in, gladly the place was empty, I saw Khushi heading upstairs to her room so I followed her, she dint even notice me following her.

When she walked inside her room, she heard my footsteps I guess because she turned around and looked at me in surprise.

"Arnav, I thought you left." She said.

"I was to leave then I decided I'm not leaving without answers." I said as I walked inside, she ignored me and walked to her bed as she sat down so I followed her and sat beside her, I placed my hand on hers as she looked at me in surprise but dint say anything.

"Khushi, I really like you, a lot. Since childhood, since the time we all start thinking that way about someone, I've only thought about you, I even wonder if it's a crush only now that it's been so many years or something more.

I've never had the confidence to tell you or even to talk to you, you know I was the nerd and you were clearly the most popular girl, it was obvious that you wouldn't be interested in me, and I was happy with my one sided feelings for you until that day you talked to me.

Now there's a part of me that hopes that maybe someday you might like me that way too and even if you don't it's fine but please don't confuse me like this." I said.

"Arnav I..." She tried to speak but I placed my hand on her mouth shutting her up.

"Today is my day to speak, let me please because I might never have the courage to say all this again. I am sorry for all that nonsense I said that day, I was just angry, my intentions were never to hurt you Khushi, that's the last thing I would want to do.

I have no idea why you think that you're not worthy enough to be liked or anything because you are Khushi, if you'd look at yourself through my eyes you'll see how worthy you are and I hate it when you look down upon yourself like that, please don't do that.

I am not saying this because I want you to reciprocate my feelings, I mean everyone is entitled to choose who they want to be, and I might not be your idea of love but I'm sure someone out there is, and if you keep thinking this way about yourself you might lose out on that chance.

So for once see your worth and you'll see how different your life will be. I don't know what happened in your life that made like you like this but whatever it was, I'm sure it's not worth you thinking this way about yourself." I said, she kept on staring at me silently while I spoke, looking at me with a tiny bit of smile on her face.

"Why are you so nice to me? I've been a terrible person to you, yet you care so much about me." She asked.

"Because is see what other people can't see, the Khushi behind the popular, mean and rude girl." I smiled.

"Arnav I... I dint want this life, I dint choose it for myself. I just... it's difficult for me to explain." She looked at me sadly.

"I don't need any explanation Khushi, what I need is for you to love yourself, be the girl you show to the world, be the strong Khushi who loves herself, because at the end of the day, all we have is ourselves and that has to be enough right?

You don't know me much, it might not be easier to open up but maybe someday when you think you can trust me enough to share things with me, I'll be there to listen." I smiled at her, she smiled back but it faded away immediately.

She stood up and walked away from me.

"Arnav I can't feel for you the way you feel for me, I am not trying to mean to you or to hurt you but you aren't the kind of a guy I've dreamt about." She said.

"It's okay Khushi, I told you it's not a must that you feel the same about me, you have a different choice and it's fine, but we can be friends right? I might even help you find the guy that you want to be with, not the kind of you just date because you are popular and it's good for your image, the one that you will be in love with and be happy with." I smiled.

"Really?" She looked at me excitedly.

"Really Khushi." I smiled at how excited she looked.

"Do you think I deserve to be loved? With there be a guy that can love me despite knowing everything about my life?" She asked.

"If he loves you, he will continue doing so no matter what." I assured her.

She smiled once again as she walked back towards me and pulled me into a tight hug, I held her back in my arms until she felt okay, she broke the hug after a few minutes.

"Thank you Arnav, thank you for not being terrible to me when I was so terrible to you, thank you for making me love myself even when it's so difficult." She said.

"So we can be friends right? Not the kind we were before where you were so mean to me, but actual friends? I promise I won't expect anything more." I smiled.

"I would be glad to have you as my friend, and I promise I will no more be terrible to you." She said.

"Thank you, that's all I ask for." I giggled.

"Okay now go home, Anju needs you too, I'll visit later with Kabir." She smiled, I nodded as I walked away from her, but I stopped before walking away out of her sight.

"Khushi." I called out her name.

"Yeah?"

"Don't forget to love yourself." I smiled, she nodded as I walked away, right now I might have no idea what had happened in her life to make her feel worthless but I'm sure she would open up with time when she trusts me.

All I wanted was for her to be happy in real, not the one she showed off at the university, I wanted her to love herself and know that she deserved the best, and maybe I wasn't the best one for her, but I guess it was okay.

I got inside the car and looked at the empty road straight ahead of me, this feeling I had in my heart was kind of strange today, it wasn't something I usually felt for her, it was something deeper than it.

I could feel the difference because before all I ever wanted was for her to notice me and maybe like me, but today all I wanted was for her to find whoever her dream guy was and be happy, and I knew exactly when someone felt like that.

It was when they were in love, because at that time all they wanted was to see the other person happy even if it was without them.

Wasn't it funny how I had a huge crush on her since childhood and those feelings dint really grow but now when I was so sure that I had no chance to be with her, was when I realized that I was in love with her?

I was in love with Khushi, it kind of made me feel happy even when I knew nothing of such sort was possible from her side, but still it was beautiful.

All I hoped was that she was going to love herself as much as I loved her right now instead of expecting someone else to love her that way first.

Well at least something good came from all this drama between us, we were now friends for real, and I knew things between us were going to be different and better from now on, at least she was going to be a part of my life, if nothing else at least as a friend, and I was happy with it.

*****

"Someone is glowing, what's up?" Anju asked as soon as I walked inside the house, she was staring at me so keenly.

"What's up? Umm let me see, I am in love Anju." I smiled as I hugged her excitedly.

"Idiot, I thought it was something else." She said as she broke the hug.

"Why? Aren't you happy that your brother is in love?" I folded my arms and pouted like a baby as I looked at her.

"It's something I knew was always going to happen, I would have been happy if you told me that you confesses your feelings to Khushi." She giggled.

"Well be happy because I did that too." I smirked.

"What really? You're joking." She slapped my arm excitedly.

"Yes really, I dint tell her that I love her but I did tell her I like her, yeah whatever so she knows." I smiled.

"What? Wow, so you finally had the guts, what did she say?" She looked so happy and excited, I dint want to break her heart by telling her the truth but well it was a fact and it was better if she knew.

"She said I am not the type of a guy she's dreamt of, she can't feel that way about me." I said, her expressions changed immediately.

"And you're so happy about being in love with her? Bro, are you okay?" she looked at me in confusion.

"Anju, not everyone can fall in love, I am happy that I did, so what if she doesn't love me in return, Lord Krishna said love isn't about being with the person you love, love is just being in love and being happy about it, that's it. I am just happy that I can feel this feeling, anyway you're a kid you won't understand the deep meaningful sayings." I said as I stood up to head to my room.

"You know you're so weird bro." She shouted, I laughed as I nodded, maybe I was weird because my idea of love was different from others.