I was pacing around the house continuously, I dint know what else to do, Anju was seated in front of me staring at me wondering why her brother had gone crazy so suddenly.

"Will you stop pacing around bro? What happened?" She asked.

"I did something stupid and now I'm regretting it, that's what happened." I say as I continue pacing around trying to calm myself down but I just can't.

"What did you do?" She looked at me curiously.

"I confessed to Khushi that I had a crush on her, on wait, I dint just confess, I shouted on her and told her that I regretted having it, yeah that's what happened." I sat down on the sofa sadly, seriously what was I thinking doing this stupidity?

I know she made me angry and she kind of deserved my anger but I shouldn't have said what I did, I have never regretted feeling this way about her.

Well after what I did today, I doubt she'd even want to see me friends, so I would just become invisible for her once again like I was before, God! Why did I have to do this?

"Wow, I don't even know what to say." Anju sighed, well neither did I. The doorbell rang and I noticed Anju becoming excited.

"Go open the door, it must be Kabir." She said excitedly, I just smiled at my crazy little sister as I headed to open the door, to my surprise or let's even say shock, it wasn't Kabir but Khushi.

Was she here to insult me like I had insulted her? I couldn't stop wondering why she was even here.

"Can I come it?" She asked while I continued staring at her, what was she doing here? I wish I could ask but I was scared to even talk to her after what happened at the university today.

I nodded as she walked in, she ignored me completely and walked towards Anju, I locked the door and turned to look at the both, I saw Khushi hugging Anju then she said something to her which I couldn't hear.

Anju just nodded as she stood up and headed to her room followed by Khushi, so she was here to visit Anju, but why? I couldn't understand this girl at all.

I mean yes I know she told me she would visit Anju daily but I dint think she would do that after what happened today but here she was and it was confusing for me, I just couldn't know what she was thinking or anything.

Now that she was here I dint even know what to do, I wasn't obviously going to apologize because she deserved my anger but why did I have to confess my feeling? Now it was going to be awkward as hell.

Like what was I even thinking telling her that I was going to hate her from today onwards as if it was possible, I knew I could never hate her, I knew I could never feel any negative thing towards her, I was literally screwed.

I sat down on the couch and switched on the TV so I could distract my mind from her, I sat the silently watching a movie but still I couldn't stop thinking about her. I stood up and walked to the kitchen, I served food in two plates and headed to Anju's room.

I found her playing chess with Khushi and they both were arguing about it, I just left the plates on the stand and looked at Anju, Khushi dint even want to look at me.

"Don't forget to eat then take you medicines okay?" I said to her, she nodded as I headed outside, all this while Khushi dint even look at me and I hated it.

I headed outside ate a bit and continued watching the movie until I fell asleep on the couch without realizing.

*****

I was woken up when I felt something, I opened my eyes and found Khushi putting a blanket on me, she stepped backwards immediately and turned around to walk away.

"Khushi." I called out her name, she stopped close to the door but dint turn to look at me, I don't even know why I called her, I had nothing to say to her.

"Should I drop you home?" I asked, of course she came with her car and it was a stupid question but I wanted to talk to her so I just asked random question.

"I'll manage on my own, I don't need your help." She said in a strict voice.

"I dint know you would come here today, I dint expect you." I said.

"Just because I hate you doesn't mean I don't care about your sister, she isn't you."

"Why do you care about her? You dint even know her. Plus who told you that she wasn't well when you came to visit her last time?"

"Kabir is my cousin, he told me and I care for her because Kabir loves her, nothing that related you so if you're done asking questions can I go?" wow, I couldn't believe Kabir was her cousin, how come I never knew about it? and Kabir dint tell me either.

"You're angry with me, I get it."

"So what did you expect, me to be happy about all that terrible stuff you told me?" She turned to look at me, she seemed really pissed.

"If you wouldn't have spread rumors about me dating Nina, I wouldn't have to shout at you like that, it was all your fault, can't you see it? Why did you even have to spread such rumors about me Khushi, what did I do to deserve that from you?" I looked at her sadly.

"Fine it was my fault I get it, I did whatever the hell I wanted to, so now why are you trying to talk to me given that you wanted to hate me? Go on Arnav, hate me, hate me for being the mean, good for nothing, heartless and whatsoever girl you said I as, but you know what, I don't really care." She rolled her eyes.

"Khushi, why are you like this." I looked at her feeling defeated, I just couldn't understand this girl, at times her behavior was really strange it made me question a lot of thing.

"You won't know Arnav, all you can do is judge me like everyone else does without knowing a thing about me, you have no idea what my life is like or why I do half the things I do and I am not even trying to explain it to you because you don't deserve any explanation, just think of me the way you want to, hate me talk rubbish about me I don't really care.

Judge me all you can, it won't affect me, it never has, I'll live my life the way I want to and you can hate me for it, I don't really give a damn because I don't care about all those people who always keep judging me, and calling me some weird names that makes them happy, and know this, I don't care about them neither do I care about you." She said.

"You really don't care about me Khushi?" I asked.

"What would make you think that I would care about you Arnav, I mean out of the seven billion people in the world, why the hell on earth would I care about a nerd like you?" She raised her eyebrow and looked at me curiously.

"I don't know, maybe you putting a blanket on me when I was sleeping despite everything that happened between us today, you could have just left and not cared, you doing that showed that you cared, dint you?" I asked.

"Oh don't get any wrong ideas Arnav, I did it for Anju because if her brother sleeps carelessly without a blanket he might get sick then she wouldn't have anyone to take care of her, I did it for her Arnav not you. You mean nothing to me, why would I do anything for you." She said, I just looked at her blankly, she really hated me dint she?

She stared at me for a moment waiting for me to say something but when I dint speak she shrugged and turned around to leave, she opened the door and walked out then walked back in holding the door open and looked at me.

"By the way, I remember you saying something like having a crush on me and all that, I dint know you could have a crush on me and hate me this much at the same time, but well I don't even care about it.

Just so you know, don't keep your hopes high, even if you're the only man left on earth I'd prefer staying single than being with you." She said as she walked away.

Wow, that was really mean but maybe it was the truth, I knew it from before that she wasn't ever going to be with me, and being the stupid person I was, I had to tell her about it and now she just insulted me and left.

I couldn't stop wondering though, did she say that because she was angry on me for shouting at her and saying all that I did or was it because I was a nerd like everyone called me and she dint want anything to do with me.

Seriously, it would be much easier if I just got rid of this feelings I had for her, then it would stop hurting this much, but the funny part was, no matter how much I tried to move on or not feel this way about her, it dint really work, I just couldn't stop this damn feelings.