A/N: Sorry for not updating for a while,this is a super long chapter so I hope you enjoy.I've noticed that this story has gotten a lot of reads lately and new readers,I'm really happy and I hope that you all enjoy this story.

I was wondering if the chapters are to long? No one really complained about the chapters being long so...urm I guess you guys enjoy the long chapters?

Anyways,picture of Sehun's older sister^^

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"Noona...are you crying?" Wooyong looked at me with deer like eyes,he was concerned.

Wiping away my tear I managed to fake a smile."No I'm not,just something got caught in my eyes."

"Noona...I know hyung hurt your feelings."

"N-no." I chuckled managing to look happy.

"Yes,I can see."

"Hyung just says stuff he doesn't mean,trust me.He looked really angry right now,maybe something made him mad and he took his anger out on you."

"But why?...I don't understand." I wiped my eye again because another tear was about to cascade down my cheek again.

"He really does love you,trust me noona."

Can I really trust your words Wooyong? Chanyeol doesn't have feelings for me at all,he probably left to see the girl he has feelings for.Slightly I felt my heart ache,this one sided love hurts and I don't know what I'm doing.I'm getting frustrated thinking that he was going to meet another girl.

I wanted to ignore what happened but it just makes me feel upset,did he have to take out his anger on me? Does he even care about me? But I have to remember that we are just friends.

Were nothing more than that.

I wish we were more,I'm not being greedy am I?

This feeling I can't even compare to the feelings that I had towards Jongin,those feelings were just towards a mere crush.The feeling of feeling fluffy inside that you can't see anything other than that person,I was blinded by Jongin.

But not anymore,I had opened my eyes to see the person in front of me.Why is it that even if he's beside me I feel as if I'm not that close to him,I don't really know and understand Chanyeol.

I want to know and understand him.

I want him to know how I feel towards him,will that change the way we view each other? I don't want to become distant from Chanyeol.

Visioning that stung my chest,can I really like Chanyeol? No,I already like him.I can't reverse my feelings,it has already happened.

-Park Chanyeol's POV-

I made a turn and took another glance at my gps,I was almost at the destination.Wind blew in my hair as I bit my lower lip,am I really going to meet this person or is this just a joke?

I ran my fingers through my hair,why do I feel like this is a joke and I'm wasting my time?

Driving I see a nearby cafe,is this the place they want to meet at? I helplessly laugh and looked at the gps,it was the destination.

What the hell is this? I thought they wanted to meet at a secretive place like a empty parking lot,a place where there would be no one around.

I park my car and got out,I saw that this cafe wasn't so popular but had a decent amount of customers.I walked inside and peered at all the tables,how am I supposed to know what they look like? Shaking my head I got in line to get some coffee,maybe they will go up to me or send me some sort of signal.

I noticed the cafe had nice decor and was very simple,at the front they had a cake display and pasteries.They did catering and that surprised me,they also had varieties of coffee.The line shortened and I kept my eyes sharp for the person,still I haven't seen.

"Hello?" I heard a voice.

I looked to the front and saw the lady stare at me,I took a step closer and made a clumsy smile.

"Sorry,I wasn't paying attention." I apologized.

"It's alright,what can we get you for today?"

"I would like an ice coffee,extra sweetened."

The lady punched in some numbers and the total showed up on the screen."Is that it?"

I nodded."Okay,your total is $3.10."

I handed her five dollars and she happily accepted it,I received the change and put it in my pocket.

"Please wait over there." She pointed to the left counter where employes were handing finished drinks to customers.I took my receipt from her and left the line.

I walked to the other side and waited,a man appeared from the back holding a drink.

"Did you order a ice coffee with extra sweetener?" I nodded.

"What is your name? We always write our customers names on their cups."

"Chanyeol." He pulled out a marker and began writing my name.

He held out the drink."Here you go."

"Thank you." I grabbed it and took a sip,it was rich and refreshing.

"Wait...I think someone left something for you,what's your full name?"

Surprised I put down my drink."Park Chanyeol." Did the person leave something for me?

"Let me check,I'll be back."

I took another sip as I waited,I saw him holding an envelope and a small box.

"I'm pretty sure this is for you,your phone number?" I told him my phone number to verify that these were mine.They even know my phone number,who is this person?

"Okay,here you go.Have a good day!" I took the box and envelope and sat at a table,I took the envelope first and opened it.

Unraveling the paper I read what I saw.

You're going to lose her trust soon.

Those were what I saw,putting down the paper I only thought of one person.

Jung Hwa.

I am going to lose her trust? How? Frustrated I opened the box and saw a red velvet cupcake with a white rose on top,why would they give me this?

I place the cupcake back inside the box and decided to leave the cafe and head back home,driving I look back at the box and note.

White means death,the color of death.

Why would they give me a cupcake with a white rose design?

-Jung Hwa's POV-

I stroked Wooyong's hair as he slept peacefully,Chanyeol's voice echoed in the back of my mind.I try to push back what Chanyeol said to me but I keep replaying what he said.I want to forget about it and pretend that I don't care but I clearly do.

I heard someone walking closer towards Wooyong's door,as I saw Chanyeol walk past as I bolted up from the bed and ran outside to see him.

"C-Chanyeol." I called out,he stopped in his tracks and turned around.

My eyes met his and my heart stopped,I saw him holding a cute box and a letter.He must've received them from the girl he likes.

"Do you have something you want to say?" He asked.

"W-where did you go?" Right away I regretted asking that question.

"I went to a cafe."

"Oh,you did?"

"What's that box?" Again I regretted asking.

"There's a cupcake inside." She gave him a cupcake? Or did he buy it? I need to stop asking questions that I would regret afterwards,I looked away avoiding his eyes.

"You okay? Where's Wooyong? Is he with my mother?"

No,I'm not okay Chanyeol.

I nodded."He's sleeping in his room right now."

"I'll get going then,I need to study for our upcoming exams.You should study too."

I nodded again and saw him walk away,I clench my hands together wanting him to stay longer.

"What are your feelings towards me? What am I to you?" My lip quivered as I whispered.

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Sehun flipped through his textbook as he sat on the other side of my desk,I glanced over to see Chanyeol handsomely grazing his fingers through his notes.

Sehun licked his lips and closed the textbook."Crap! I forgot what textbook page for math was."

"Maybe page 127,or was that for science?" Minseok ran his fingers through his hair.

"I'll check." Sehun opened the textbook again.

"Hey,why are you so quiet? Are you stressed for exams too?" Sehun laughed.

Minseok sighed."No shit,were all stressed."

Looking at my review notes I took a deep sigh,exams are in two weeks and there's no time to waste.Everyone is studying hard and since it's our second last year,all our marks are everything if we go to university.I studied a lot but not as much as these guys,looking around I can see a textbook in all their hands.

"You know what screw this,I'm just going to become a model like my sister." Sehun threw his head back.

My eyes widened."You have a sister?"

"Yeah,she's older then me.Her name is Haeun."

"She's really pretty." Suho commented.

"Of course she is! My whole family is blessed with good genes!"

"Is Haeun noona in France right now?" Chen asked.

"No,she left France two weeks ago.Shes in Japan right now,she's currently studying to become an actor too."

"Wow,that's amazing." I smiled,she must be beautiful and talented.I couldn't really imagine Sehun having a older sister,I always thought he had a older brother.

"I have modeled for a couple of magazines,every time I do some agency scouts me.Its pretty annoying,so I stopped for a while now." Sehun models for magazines? I couldn't vision him as a serious model.

"Scout you? Heol~They like your face? You have a resting bitch face though." Baekhyun laughed.

Sehun gave him a glare."I bet no modeling agency scouted you,your ugly as hell."

"I saw you on the cover of a magazine with Haeun noona,does she have a boyfriend?" Yixing perked up his eyebrows.

"She doesn't,she broke up with her boyfriend a couple of months ago."

"The actor? Oh god,why did they break up? I actually liked him." Baekhyun threw his pen on the desk.

"Psssst,he was obsessive and I hated him.He was always at our mansion,he was always around her.Like 24/7,he thought she would cheat on him if he wasn't around."

"So their relationship was like that..." Suho said writing something in his book.

"Those kind of guys are no good,she deserves a gentleman." Chen nodded.

"She's a pretty well known model,who wouldn't be paranoid if thousands of guys go to her fan meetings? I know I would." Kris furrowed his brows,my mouth slightly opened but I closed it.I didn't expect to hear that from Kris.

"You have a point." Sehun nodded in agreement.

"That would mean if I became a model thousands of girls would love me and my one and only girlfriend will be jealous all the time and eventually break up with me!"

"If she truly loves you then I don't think anything would bother her,that would include your fangirls." I said,Sehun looked at me for a couple of seconds and smiled.

"Woww,your so deep.Now that I look at you Jung Hwa,you would be a amazing model!"

I became flustered."W-what? Me a model?"

"You would be a pretty good model,your beautiful and tall." Sehun smiled as I blushed,does he really mean it?

"I-I am?"

"She is right Luhan?"

"Yeah." Luhan smiled at me,a deeper shade of pink spread across my cheeks.

"See? Your Luhan approved,he usually is really picky with choosing pretty girls.I mean...he kind of looks like a girl." Right away when he said that Luhan got up from his seat and hit him on his head,Minseok pulled him away and Sehun rubbed his head.I got startled and asked if Sehun was okay,he nodded slightly.

"Arreso! You don't look like a girl! You always hit lightly,why did you hit so hard this time?"

"Your always call me a girl! I hate it,you piss me off so much.Next time I'll kick your ass,I'm not lying."

"Like your strong kicks? You do it every time you score it into the goalie,all the girls go crazy." I've heard that Luhan was on the soccer team but never saw him play,I'm pretty sure he's amazing and really skilled.

The teacher walked in through the door and scanned all of us with his eyes."Seems like everyone is here,settle down and let's do review for the upcoming exams." I hear sighs throughout the room,I took a deep breath and exhaled as I continued on with the questions on the paper.

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Siting at our table I swung my feet back and forth as I picked a piece of cantaloupe on my fork,I had a variety of fruits on my plate.Some I've never heard of,they're all delicious.My brain had been fried from all that studying,I felt refreshed and the headache that I had earlier disappeared.

"I don't want to go to gym,I just want to lay in bed and sleep all day." Baekhyun yawned,he looked like he lacked sleep and was drowsy.

"My back hurts." Kyungsoo's straightened his back.

"Because you arch your back all day,sit up straight or you'll have a hunchback in the future." Tao said pointing at Kyungsoo with his spoon.Everyone here always took care of each other,I found that so brotherly.

"Have you eaten anything else other then that fruit?" Looking in front of me,Chanyeol chewed his food.

Suddenly I became more nervous and shy."M-my mother said that you should eat fruit first because it takes longer to digest."

"Really? Heol~ I've been eating fruit after this whole time." Suho pushed aside his bowel of rice and pulled his plate of fruit in front of him,a smile faded onto my lips.

Chanyeol stared blankly at me,I could feel my palms getting sweaty."W-what's wrong?" My heart is racing in such a fast pace.

"Yah,every time Jung Hwa talks to you she always stutters.Stop making her nervous and on the spot." Sehun furrowed his eyebrows.

"W-what? No! He doesn't,I just-"

Sehun rises from his seat."See? She's doing it again."

"She doesn't stutter when we talk to her,it's just you."

"I bet your bullying her or something." Sehun pulls me into a hug and strokes my hair telling me it's okay.I ended up laughing,the others ended up laughing as well. Sehun is really funny and I like that about him,he can make anyone cheer up and laugh.

-Park Chanyeol's POV-

Breathing heavily I glanced over at the girls field and saw Jung Hwa holding a lacrosse stick shielding the net,worried I wondered why did they put her as the goalie? She's so petite and she isn't that strong to block,what if she gets hurt?

Suddenly I saw Jung Hwa block a strong throw,she raised her arms in the air in excitement.I couldn't help it but a smile crept on my lips,she might not be weak as I thought.

"Who are you looking at?" I heard someone behind me.

Baekhyun tried to look in the same direction where I was staring at,quickly I turned around watching the guys."Ayyy,you checking out the girls?"

"No,why?"

Baekhyun crossed his arms."Your right,there isn't that many hot girls here but there are cute girls."

Our coach called Baekhyun back in the game and I sat on the bench taking little glances at Jung Hwa,she wasn't a good runner but good at defence.I was more amazed at how courageous and hardworking she was,how little I've thought of her.

We finished up our game and the period was pretty much over,taking a gulp out of my water bottle I saw Sehun and Jung Hwa having a conversation near the water fountain.I was curious and wanted to know what they were saying but I had turned around and was heading to the change room,the both of them have been close since they've first met.

Sehun was a friendly outgoing person,he is always positive.I've noticed that every time Jung Hwa is around him she seems more happy and content,everyone would feel the same way.I've known Sehun since forth grade,I even remembered back then when he was going through his rebellious phase.We all tease him about it and he would get angry,I find it quite enjoyable.

Walking inside the change room I saw Jongin waiting beside my locker with a serious expression plastered all over his face.I walked towards him and he lifted his head giving me a cold stare.

"I need to talk to you,meet me in the back." Jongin instructed,he disappeared to the back and I was dumbfounded.

Obeying him I went to the back to find him with his arms crossed.

"What do you want to talk about?" I asked with a sigh,after what happened our close friendship has been distant.Sometimes Jongin acted as if nothing happened,I knew that he still had feelings towards Jung Hwa.Ever since that happened he hasn't talked to her much,if he is trying to force himself on her I will not allow that to happen.Never in a million years.

"I needed to verify something,do you like Jung Hwa? No,do you have feelings towards her?"

Without hesitation I nodded."Yes,I have true feelings for her."

Jongin lightly chuckled."Did you fall for Jung Hwa because of her looks? Because more than half the school did."

"No,people say looks are just a bonus." I shrugged.

"Did you?" I asked.

"I didn't fall for her appearance,I fell for Jung Hwa's personality."

I chuckled."You know nothing about her."

"Jung Hwa fell for your looks,she knew nothing about you.Just like every other girl in this school,your nothing more than a pretty face towards Jung Hwa."

I saw the look in his eyes."Are you two together?"

I didn't respond,we are just friends.

"Did you...sleep with her?"

My eyes widened,why is everything revolving around sex now? Jongin is literally jumping to conclusions.

"Why would you ask that? And no,we are just friends."

"You were a player not so long ago,until Jung Hwa came around you suddenly stopped? Every week you would have a girl clinging by your side."

"I'm not like that anymore." I retorted.

"What? You've changed because of Jung Hwa?"

"This might sound dumb but I have."

"Jung Hwa...likes someone,I don't know who he is.Last time I talked to Jung Hwa,she said that she couldn't accept my heart.And after that she was about to say 'because I'm already'.She was cut off when you grabbed her away and that pretty much ended off our conversation."

"W-what?" I couldn't even remember that day clearly.

"She likes someone,I thought it could possibly be you."

There's no way that it's me,how come I've never picked up any signals? Our group is always around her,that must mean that Jung Hwa likes one of us?

"Is it possible that she likes one of us?"

"I don't know." I answered.

Jongin's phone rang in his pocket and he looked that the caller."Hey,how about we talk some other time?"

"Sure." I said,he nodded and left.I was left speechless,Jung Hwa likes someone else already?

-Jung Hwa's POV-

On our ride home I checked my phone and saw a text message from Sehun,I smiled and opened it.

Sehun- Crap,I forgot my textbook at school! Can I borrow yours? It's the math textbook.

Reading the text I arched my eyebrow,how can he forget his textbook? I can't let Sehun know that I live with Chanyeol either,why can't he just ask the others?

Jung Hwa- Just go online and find the page you are looking for.

Sehun- I like the actual book in my hands,that's just how I learn.

Jung Hwa- Ask the other guys,I need the textbook.

Sehun- Jung Hwaaaa,come on! How about you just come over?!

Jung Hwa- No,sorry Sehun.

I closed my phone and saw that Chanyeol was staring at me oddly."What's wrong?" I asked,I could feel that my heart was racing.

"Nothing." He faced the front.

If I told Chanyeol my feelings,would he hate me? Will we both become distant towards each other? Thinking about that made me nervous.If I did,that would change everything right?

I wanted him to know my feelings,I hated how I had to keep everything bottled up inside.I just wanted to let everything out,to get it off my chest.I knew that he had feelings for the girl he liked,I didn't want to interfere with that.

But keeping this to myself and listening to Chanyeol talk about her in front of me just makes me uncomfortable and I want him to acknowledge that and keep that in mind,I wanted to be mature and confident about doing this.Confessing shouldn't be that difficult,I have confessed before.I've confessed to Jongin and it wasn't that embarrassing.

Before I knew it we were already at Chanyeol's mansion,I got out of the car and we all headed inside.I noticed that Wooyong wasn't around,he usually is waiting at the door for me.Going upstairs,Chanyeol's back faced me.When should I confess? I wanted to get it over with and send send the message across quickly,I don't know how Chanyeol will react but I'm sure that he won't be childish about it.

He was on my floor and he passed my room,should I follow him to his room and privately talk? I saw Chanyeol disappear at the corner and I let out a sigh,what exactly am I doing? If I'm going to confess I should do it right!

I gave myself a pat on the back and began walking,my heart was pounding so fast.I was nervous of course,my palms were becoming sweaty.I got closer and closer to his room,closing my eyes I suddenly feel like I should just turn around and give up.

Finally stopping at his door,I slowly reached and lightly knocked on his door.I wanted to just run back to my room and rethink this over again.

There was no response and I decided to knock again but with more force,surprisingly the door opened and I pulled my arm back.Did he not lock his door? I peeked in and didn't see Chanyeol around,I heard water lightly hitting against the ground and knew right way that he was taking a shower.

I opened the door and walked in,should I wait inside or outside.Should I just leave? Wait no! I came all the way here to confess,I should do it and leave! The other half of me was anxious and nervous.

Chanyeol had his own washroom and his room was bigger than mines,I noticed his desk was quite messy.I saw study sheets and notes scattered everywhere.My legs were getting tired of standing so I sat down on his bed,his bed was king sized.I didn't understand why Chanyeol needed such a large bed,maybe he preferred it.

Suddenly I felt a vibrate near my thigh and got startled,I scooted over and saw that it was Chanyeol's phone and picked it up.I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was my mothers doctor calling,why is he calling? I slid my finger across the phone and heard him from the other line.

"Hello,we would like to inform you that the injection to euthanize the patient Lee Sora has arrived and we would like to know what date would you prefer to set between next week and the week after?"

My eyes widened and my body froze."W-what did you just say?"

"Hello? I asked-"

"N-no,what do you mean by euthanize? Why is my mother being euthanized?"

"Let me see here...I'm sorry give me a second,I am not your personal doctor that would give you all the information that you want to know but it says in her record her that Lee Sora has not made any improvements for months throughout her coma and that there is no signs of her waking up in the future."

"We put her on life support because she has trouble breathing,a ventilator is needed to keep her breathing stably."

"Are you saying that she will not wake up?" My lip trembled.

"I'm sorry,it seems that you have not heard the news yet.

"M-my mother has no hope in waking up?"

"I'm afraid so."

My hand shook and I dropped the phone on the bed,I felt something heavy on my chest and I couldn't breath.I stumbled to get up and tears flooded my eyes,I buried my hands in my face and tried not to let out a cry.I faced the bathroom door and realized something.

Chanyeol knew all along?

He knew a long and he didn't tell me? My heart crashed deeper and I held my hand over my mouth reaching for the door,I had to leave.Why did he not tell me? How could he do this to me?

Wiping my eyes I opened the door and headed to my room,I couldn't believe Chanyeol didn't tell me.My mother has no chance in waking up and he didn't tell me,the lady's voice echoed in my ear.My eyes clouded and I let out a small cry.

I got into my room but I didn't know what to do,without a thought I grabbed my phone and pressed a number calling someone.

"Hello? Jung Hwa?" I heard Sehun's voice,I continued to cry and wipe my eyes.I tried to say something but it sounded breathy and my voice croaked.

"Are you okay?! Why are you crying?!"

"N-no." I managed to say between my small cries.

"Where are you?! I'll come and pick you up!"

"C-Chanyeol's house...Sehun come fast." I held the phone tightly.

"W-Why are you at his? Um,never mind! I'll be there in five minutes! Wait for me that the front door!"

"Come fast." I whispered,my throat suddenly started to hurt.I held the phone against my chest and wiped my eyes again.

I couldn't understand,the one person I trusted more then anyone else I knew kept this secret from me.

Why did you keep this from me? Something so important towards me.How long were you planning not to tell me?

My tears flooded my eyes again,my heart ached.I thought Chanyeol was someone I could trust,maybe I was wrong?

I stood up and my head was spinning,I covered my mouth to prevent myself from making any sounds and shoved my phone into my pocket.I had to get out of this mansion,how could I bear to stay here after I found out this?

Chanyeol's words repeated in my head,he told me not to leave this mansion without telling him.I nodded biting my lip,I'm leaving again and I don't know if I will be coming back.

I don't know how many more secrets your hiding from me but this is over the line.

I snuck downstairs and saw no maids around,I opened the door and saw one maid outside doing some garden work.I hid behind a bush and ran as far as I could towards the gate,I was lucky the gate was still opened.I ran as far as I could until I couldn't breath,I stopped at a bus stop and sat down resting my hands on my face.

Tears were still falling,knowing that Chanyeol kept something so personal to himself hurt me a lot.Thinking about my mother made me cry harder,why is happening to me?

I saw my mother appear in front of me smiling,am I visioning my parents again? I must be going crazy,all of this is so hard to endure.

"Why are you smiling?" I chocked out looking at her,she smiled again.

"This is so hard,why are you doing this to me?" I pounded my chest.

She turned around walking towards the middle of the road."I'm having a hard time,why are you leaving me like this?"

I staggered to get up "Please don't go,I need you!" I held my hand out reaching out for her.

"You can't leave me alone!" I fell to my knees and buried my hands into my face crying,this time I don't need to hold in my miserable cries.I can let it all out,this whole time I tried to act like I was okay and waited patiently for my mother to wake up.

In the end I'm alone.

But I'm scared,I don't want to be alone.

"J-Jung Hwa?" I heard someone call out my name,I looked up and saw my mother.I got up instantly and ran into her arms,she came back for me.

I looked up and realized that it wasn't my mother,it was Sehun and he looked heartbroken.My eyes became blurry again and my breath shortened,he pulled me into his arms and I didn't hold back.His arms felt like how my mother hugged me,with such a heartwarming hug.