Continuing with Avneet's pov.....

I entered college, everything is so different. Everything is cheerful, but I don't want this. I just Want to go away from this world. I don't want to come in limelight. I can say with past experience, that it is better to stay in dark than living openly in this world. The world is so cruel, I want to hide. And even Jai, he said he has some work and went away, he told me to go inside he will come soon. How can he? He knows that I can't handle this. I am so hesitant. I slowly walked inside the campus. No one should notice me.

I was walking when some students came and surrounded me. Shit... Now, what will I do? One guy initiated the conversation. His voice is familiar. I didn't look at his face, I just said that my brother is gonna show me around. I stuttered so badly. I don't have confidence. I was still looking at the ground. I didn't saw all of them, I saw two girls, they were beautiful and one of them was too much, her clothes were too revealing and it was like she painted herself in makeup. I don't know what happened but they gave me away, and I just ran away.

I was thinking about why they let me go when one girl pushed me and started shouting at me for no reason. Then I remembered this girl was the same makeup kit. She is accusing me, abusing me for something I didn't did. I am literally crying, I asked her to let me go but she didn't. Suddenly a boy came and asked her to let me go. She argued with him at first and then she left my hand. I was going to run but that boy held my hand and pulled me closer to him. This feeling was so familiar, I didn't look at him, he wiped my tears and I was about to go when he said "Miss Butterfly", it was him, Sid. I still remember how he used to give me nicknames. I looked at him, yes he was him. But maybe he didn't recognized me. He gave me my stall I took it and said Thanks and went away. I didn't want to come in limelight and he was the most popular guy in the college, if I would have said something, everyone would have known me. It's better to let Jai handle this.

I called Jai and told him I have class and he said he is coming. I waited for him for some time. Then I decided to go to class as it was already late. I went to class, the class was almost full. I saw one seat vacant at the back side, that too near Sid. I slowly step towards him, thinking about how I will control my feelings in the whole class, how I will stop my tears in front of him? Did he really forget me? Then what was that I love you? Then what about our friendship? I was thinking about it and suddenly I slipped and fell on Siddharth. My lips touched to him and that spark was the same. There was no fault of him, nor mine it was the fault of destiny, I am so unlucky. I couldn't control anymore, my feelings for him were overpowering me. So I chose to run away.

I was sitting in the garden crying. I am changed, I am not that old Avu who could fight anything so easily. If I would have been that girl I would have hugged him tightly, but I was so scared. And after that incident, whatever happened to me I can't. I can't let him become my friend again. I am cursed, I am not pure anymore. I am not me anymore. I have to control myself, my feelings.

Suddenly I heard a voice, same voice, same song. This song has many memories with my Siddharth. Whenever I used to feel sad or angry, he used to sing this song to cheer me up. I don't know what should I feel right now, happy because he still remembers me or sad because he doesn't deserve a friend like me, he deserves better. I am such a cursed soul I can't give him the happiness he deserves. But I couldn't control myself and ran towards him and hugged him tightly. He also hugged me back. He also had tears in his eyes. This hug was comfortable. After 2 many years I felt comfortable, I felt solace, warmth, emotions and safe. In these two years, I avoided many things. I even used to be scared even if I find someone just looking at me. I used to stay at home. I avoided everything, but today I felt like to spend my whole life in these arms. But suddenly reality struck me. I can't do this. I have to stay away, stay away from this cruel world, from everyone. I pushed him away said sorry and ran away. I couldn't do this. I can't let my feelings take over me.

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