honestly , i'm tired . i know now should be about other people and there are far more with much worse going on at the moment . i understand that and maybe even sharing this is selfish right now .

but i've deleted social media's excluding wattpad .

i know , i know it could be considered selfish and i could be sharing more information on instagram and such and spreading the word .

however , i just can't stay on there . these friends i have on these sites are honestly posting only negative things and it's draining me . especially when it comes to ' acab ' . apparently that stands for all cops are bastards , not bad like i thought .

and i understand the movement is about police brutality but some people are taking it too literal . there is a reason i disagree with people who say ' all cops ( with no exception ) are bad ' . not referring to the movement but actually meaning what they say .

as selfish as it is to say no to that , i will .

the reason behind this is because of a personal loss . my uncle was a police officer and died on duty . mid june will mark five years from his passing and he was one of the best men and officers i had ever known .

that and some of the content being posted is also extremely brutal and unfair . now i did ask for them to at least be considerate of what they post ( they were a friend and had known to a certain extent that certain content would upset me ) . of course their response was just unfollow or block them , and actually ended with them being nasty and ( i mean , a sentence with all caps is shouting basically ) raising their voice at me just because i said that . it wasn't me being nasty ( after their comment , yes i was a little snarky ) . maybe i shouldn't have asked - although one of their stories had stated if you were uncomfortable with their posts that you should tell them ( apparently that only does apply to a person of colour ) . idk , but i think there are nicer ways to treat someone who listened to you when you were angry or hurt .

not that it should matter but neither of us are a person of colour - i only state this because some people have asked before .

i think a certain level of sensitivity needs to be applied when breaching into this subject too .

it's not only this but there is also so much hatred going around too and it's extremely difficult to handle any of it .

so i am switching off instagram , snapchat , facebook . i will not be on tumblr or any of the other mainstream social sites . i will still be active here , and i will still be supporting blm .

there are many other issues regarding me taking a step back from media but this is one of the most recent that has given me the final push to take a hiatus . eventually i will be back , but for now , i don't think it's a good idea .