Ashley

His eyes harden, he looked at me like I am a stranger, like he doesn't know who I am. It wasn't my secret to tell even though I  wanted to tell him but I also forgot because I have so much going on. He never stopped me from leaving there was this little part within​ me that hope he didn't mean what he said and he wouldn't let me leave. He let me​ go. He let me slip from his hand.

I know he was hurting, maybe I shouldn't​ had told him that I knew but when I see the pain in his eyes I know I have to let him knew that I believe him. Now I'm broken once again. I don't think my heart can take anymore pain because if it does it will be shattered completely.

Days has passed and he hasn't called me. I looked at the phone again without blinking hoping it would ring this instance and he would apologize. My phone was the only thing I take with me, nothing else and I haven't gone back to the house to get my things. I can't face him. He can throw them out for all I care. I'm not going back there. I turn up the music more and take a slice of my pizza eating.

This Christmas was my worst Christmas ever. Love has hurt me twice. Why is love so beautiful yet so cruel?

I tried not to cry and hold it together but every time I think about him, how he's so sweet, how he supported me. They way he teaches me to know my worth and gosh don't forget about the sex. It bring tears to my eyes. I have cried so much and I just want it to stop but I don't know how to, how to move on.

I wanna die. I can't do this anymore. I just can't.

"Drowing yourself in love music isn't going to help." Lisa shouted at me as she grabbed the remote from my hands and turn off the music.

"Leave me alone." I groan as I tried to grab the remote from her.

"Ashley it's been a week and all you do is cry, eat ice cream, pizza and depress yourself."

"He hasn't even call me."

"He's an asshole okay, now go take a bath you stink."

"I don't want to."

"If you don't go am doing to get that hose and turn it on you."

"I have fallen in love with him and this is how he treats me. You should have seen the way he looked at me." I start to cry again. "First it was Joel now him."

"Your are a queen don't let any man make you think your not now go take a shower and keep your head high to prevent your crown from falling."

I lay back in the coach and pull the sheets over my head. I'm not moving, I'm now glued to this spot.

"Matt, bring a buck of ice cold water!" Lisa yelled. I immediately jump up and rush to the bathroom.

I take a nice long warm bath hoping it would make me feel better but it didn't help. I got dressed in his sweatpants and his shirt that he have given to me sometime ago. I just want to smell him.

"Here." I handed Lisa a knife. "Cut my heart out please."

"What are you crazy!" She yelled, hiding the knife.

"I don't want to think about him."

"But your wearing his clothes Ashley. What the hell is wrong with you!" She yelled at me so loud that Matt came rushing down.

"I'm broken." I groan suddenly the door bell rings.

"Matt watch her and don't let her do anything stupid." Lisa command Matt before leaving to open the door.

"Is uncle Nathan responsible for making you so sad." Matt asked looking at me.

I don't want to hear his name "yes Matt. Do me a favor don't fall it love because it hurts so bad."

"But I love you and it doesn't hurt." He smile hugging me.

"He loves you, maybe even more than me. I could see the way he looks at you it's the same way sis looks at Jai. I Nathan looking at a ring one night." He was going to give me a ring.

"What ring?"

"A shiny sparking ring. He said this is for the most amazing woman in the world." Matt is not helping me out here.

"Oh no" I cries again. He was going to give me a ring. I can't handle this anymore.

I looked up to see Jai and Lisa walking towards me. I reached my hands up to wipe my eyes. "Go play." I whisper to Matt but before he left he hugs Jai.

"What is he doing here?" I question Lisa.

"He's my boyfriend."

"But he's Nathan friend." I mumbled.

"Ashley I'm so sorry for what's happening." Jai said to me and he reached forward to hug me.

"You need to pick yourself up." He whispers in my ear.

"Which side are you on?" I question as I pull away from him.

"I'm not choosing sides."

"How is Nathan?" I really want to know. I want to know if he's in this much pain as me.

"He has shut me out. He has shut everyone out." He's hurting also.

"Good."

"What?" Jai questions.

"He should feel just as how I'm feeling."

"He loves you, trust me but he's just too stubborn to admit it."

"I hate him." I screamed.

"Ashley you do not hate him." Lisa whispered to me.

"Yes I do hate him!" I screamed walking away to my room.

*******

I wake up after an hour and walk back down hoping that Jai has left.

"Is he gone?" I whisper to Matt.

"Yes."

"Lisa" I call

"She went to get some milk. She's gonna bake me cookies." Matt smile at me. I walk to the living room and picked up the controller, playing the game with Matt.

I heard the door bell again. It can't be Lisa because she wouldn't ring her own door bell and it can't be Jai because he just left.

I place down the controller and walk to the door. I was shock when I see the person standing infront of me.

"Willa?" I muttered.

"Is that how you greet your sister in law?" He question pulling me into her arms.

"What you doing here?" I questioned, how the hell did she know where I am.

"I tracked you down, I'm kidding I ask Jai and he told me.

"Come in."

"Anything to drink?" I ask her.

"You need to go back to my brother."

"No I can't."

"Why are the both of you torching each other?" She question looking at me.

"I hate him now."

"You do not hate him. Your wearing his clothes." She looks at me. I put my hand around me, trying to hide them but it was useless.

"I just want to smell him."

"My brother hasn't been in love for ten years and now he finds someone that he loves and I'm not letting both of you ignore your feelings. The night at the charity event was the first time I saw him sing in years and that happens only because of you so I know he loves you because he would never sing for me no matter how I beg him." I remember how our voice blended with each other.

"I don't know, he told me to go."

"He was hurting and that was the only solution he has. I know it was a rash decision but​ I bet he regrets it."

"Then why didn't​ he call?"

"I don't know. His mind and heart aren't saying the same thing and he doesn't know which one he should trust."

"Tell him I'm not coming back and here give him back his phone." I removed the phone from my pocket and gave it to her​. I'm letting go the last thing I have of him.

"Can you do me one last favor?" She begs looking into my eyes.

"If it had anything to do with your​ brother then no."

"There is a new years party tonight. Starting at 8 and we are going to count down until New year's. Please come."

"No"

"Please." She begs.

"Okay fine." Maybe that will help me get my mind off him. I don't have anything to wear but still I agree.

"Here." She gave me a bag that I didn't realize she was holding "he said I should gave you this. See you." Before I could say another word she left.

It was the box that Nora send for me. I haven't opened it since I got it. Why did he send it here. Isn't the root of our problem starts from Nora.

I removed the box from the bag and set it down on the table then I lift the cover, let me see what's inside.

My eyes widen as I looked at the beautiful red gown. I lift it up and twirl it around looking at it. This is my design. I drew this on paper when I was working with her dad.

This is a two piece dress where the bottom flows to the floor and it can be removed leave a knee let dress and the design on it was incredible perfect.

When I look down in the box there was another dress, I placed down the red gown in my hand and reach to examine it. It was a golden skin tight dress with a slit at the side another one of my designs, the top will clung to your boobs like a second skin. It's also another one of my designs.

I went to college and earn my fashion degree. My mother said it was a useless career and after what happened when Nora said I stole the dress nobody wants to hire me.

I saw a note and I lift it to read what it said.

Peace offering?
I said to myself why not put two of your designs on fabric
Don't worry I will not steal any of your designs. Inside is the book I found in the desk after you leave.
Hope you like them.
Your talent by the way. Maybe you should go back to fashion designing.

Xoxo
Your bestie
Nora😽

She got to be kidding me. She's the reason why I'm here in this position. I don't even know if I should be angry at her because I really need dress. I will wear the gold dress.

I look at myself​ in the mirror as I applied my lip gloss. Lisa was getting ready in her room since she's Jai girlfriend and he invited her. I'm​ relived that I will have one familiar face with me.

"So?" I heard Lisa behind me. I turned looking at her. "What you think?" She twirl looking at me.

"Gorgeous." I respond. Like my dress hers had a slit at the side. It clung to her body like a second and she looks incredible sexy.

"My boyfriend has taste." She smiles.

I stand taking my clutch "Ready?"

"Why you looking like that!" She yelled frightening me.

"Don't you like my dress." I ask her twirling.

"I'm not talking about your dress, I'm talking about your face." She spun me and push my face close to the mirror.

"Do see that?" She whispered.

"What?" I'm confused.

"Your not wearing any make up."

"I'm wearing lip gloss." I muttered.

"That doesn't count when your going through a break up and it definitely doesn't go with that dress." She rushed out and came back with her bags of many make ups.

"Are you finish operating on my face?" I questioned as I feel her applying all her foundation, face power, fixing my eyebrows and I just want to go before I change my mind. She doesn't even want me to look in the mirror.

"Let me apply your final touch." She said reaching for her blush and spray which will apparently keep my make-up from smudging. "Now your ready." She said spinning me around to look at myself in the mirror.

I reached my hand touching my face as I looked at my transformation. My mind flash back to the day that Nathan send over Gigi to do my makeup. Suddenly my heart felt like it was been stung by a bee. "Now you don't look like someone who has been broken."

"Yea." I replied trying not to let her know that she just touched a memory. "Is the baby sitter here?" I asked as we walked out into the living room.

"She should be here any minute now." She said and then we heard the door bell. Lisa went and let her in.

"Matt , Gabrielle is here. Now behave yourself." She tells Matt but I know he will be asleep in an our.

"Okay." He replied. Then he hug us both.

"Both of you are looking pretty. Enjoy yourself." He told us walking away.

*******

My mind is telling me to turn around and go back how as we showed up at the hotel but I have promise Willa that I will be here. I breathe as I muster my strength and walk towards the door as I prepare for what's ahead and hoping that I will not see Nathan tonight.

Ashley is trying to get back out there but too afraid. She's is much stronger than she thinks. Yes she hasn't turned to Alcohol for help.

Getting rid of the best friend named Alcohol.