Ashley

💋An hour pass by since the alarm but I was still lying in bed thinking about the events of last night. There was this ridiculous smile plastered across my face that I can't get rid of. I looked at my reflection in the mirror above me and gosh I looked horrible.

I slowly get off the bed thinking about the way I trembled under Nate touch, seems like I will never get used to it. Each hold send a different chill up my spine.

I make my way to the shower and wash my body clean, the warm water cascaded against my skin. I brush my teeth, rinse my body then turned off the tap and wrapped the soft towel around my body. I reached for a second towel and wrapped it around my hair. I glanced at my reflection in the mirror. There was something different about me, my cheeks were redder than ripe tomatoes. My eyes were brighter than the sun.

The moment I pulled my blouse over my head I heard a knock on the door.

"Nathan?" I called out feeling alarm.

"Can I come in?" He mumbled behind the door.

"Yes please" I answered but he didn't come in. I walked towards the door and open it. "I said you can-"

There was this beautiful smile across his face and his eyes lights up when he saw me. As I was about to turned I noticed he had a tray in his hand. There was bagels with butter spread across it, pancakes with syrup to the side, cut up strawberries and grapes, a cup of coffee and apple cider. I didn't fail to notice the rose on the tray.

He walked in behind me. "I made breakfast."

"I see." I turned planting a kiss on his cheek. I take up the rose and smells it.

He placed the tray and the edge of the bed.

"Ash." He breathes my name.

"I want you to sleep with me from now onwards, no separate bed because it's hard spending  minute away from you."

I blushed.

He's blushing.

He looks so vulnerable.

I realized he was looking at something behind me , so I turned. Oh shit no, no, no.

"Why do you have so much blood suckers on the bed."

I laughed trying to hide my embarrassment. "These are tampons, not blood suckers."

"They are blood suckers, it sucks your blood."

"Please shut up." He laughs clearly enjoying my embarrassment.

He lift the tray and walked over towards the table over at the edge of  window. He pulled the curtains opened and the sun peep tru. I never had any need to pulled the curtains opened. The sun shines on him making the view incredible perfectly.

Yes ,it's perfect because it's Nate. His bed tossled hair make's it looks perfect.

"Shall we eat?" He asked and I walked over to the table. Nathan didn't even take a bite, he was just smiling watching me eat.

"Aren't you going to work?" I asked.

"Yes, I will get ready soon." He smiled. I reached for the bagel and pushed it towards his lips and he takes a bit and I did the same. Then he reached down and rested his palm over mine , rubbing in and giving me some comfort.

I could feel all the butterflies  in my stomach. I never knew I could feel this way again. Nate is my happy little pill. It seems as if I never knew happiness until him. Seems as if I just lived but now with him I'm living. He takes my breath away. He knows how to put a smile on my face. He's knows how to treat me right. And I love him, I love every bits and pieces of him.

Did Brianna actually saved me as she claims?

"Babe." He calls out to me. I put down the steaming cup of coffee and looked at him.

"Yes."

"I can't wait to show you off to the world." My stomach flipped and I was doing the happy little dance inside. A smile spread across my face and he leans in a kiss me, which causes me to blush so hard.

"In a few days I will announce to the public that Nora and I are fake"

"Isn't that going to cause a lot of problem?"

"Yes but I don't care as long as I still have you in the end." Where is my Nate? Who is this guy still in front of me.

"I can't pretend with Nora anymore. I just can't." I could see the sadness and hurt on his face.

Nora, she send me a gift which is still unopened because I obviously don't know what she's playing at. She can do just about anything. I haven't think about her in so long. I totally forgot about her, her pregnancy. I need to tell Nate. This pretending that he had to do with could have ended a long time ago if I had told him then I could save him from the hurt and for feeling bad about himself. I didn't know where our relationship would be or if I would still be here. I have no idea that I would fall so hard for him. Maybe it's best for him to hear from me than anyone else.

"Nora is-" his phone doesn't have any manners, it rings in this instance and he takes the call.

"Yes, un-huh. I will be right there."

"I have to go. See you later. And dress in something that might take my breath away because I'm taking you out of dinner." He stand and left the room.

"Thanks for breakfast." I yelled. Go Ashley , go Ashley go. I am falling so deep and hard and I hope he will still be right at the bottom to catch me.

*****

"When you coming to visit me?" Matt voice booms through the phone.

"Soon"

"Are you sure Aunty? I miss you."

"Yes infact I will let you stay with me for a few days."

"Yeah!" Matt screams over the phone "bye aunty I am going to take my bath now."

"Bye.. love you" I said as I closed the door and put down the bags.

I couldn't find anything to wear so I have to go shopping. I got the perfect dress because I want to look good for him.

I haven't screwed up since I've been with him. I haven't got drunk and I haven't made any mistakes. I know he's good for me and he makes me want to be good. He makes me have a reason to live and I feel good that I am not a disappointment to him.

I have caused a lot of trouble growing up because my mother expect everything to be perfect with me. She's wants the perfect daughter. She had two miscarriages before I was born so every pressure was placed on me. It get overwhelming and I just couldn't take it. I couldn't take it that she expects everything to be perfect with me. I wanted to life free and have fun with little expectations of me.

Then my brother came along, I was happy I have him. I was happy she had another child but still she expects the perfect daughter. I couldn't play that role anymore because that wasn't me,so I go out have fun, got drunk and have sex, lots of it.

Which results in me being her biggest disappointment but she doesn't understand that her pressure was driving me insane and if I didn't loosen up I would be a mad woman.

I am not proud of most of the things I've done but I'm proud of who I am. I have a loving boyfriend now and he treats me like a princess, like I'm the only girl in the world.

I hated that Joel cheated on me. It fucking breaks me but I'm glad I found out. I may not found out in the best way but it change my life drastically.

Drunken Marriage. Drunken love.

Nate has mend my broken heart. He has been with me since day one and he never leaves me. He's makes time for me in his busy schedule. Joel would never do that. I know that I was in love with the idea that I love him that I was blinded to what was going on in my apartment.

I hated that apartment. I hated everything about it. I hate the memories we formed in it. I hate the way we cuddled in bed. I hate the whole damn place.

I love this house, it makes me feel like home. I love the way Nate cologne lingers in the air. I love the new memories we make. I love the bed , I love his presence in the house. I love the way we cuddled. I love the way he kisses me and I love the sex. I love just about everything in this house and everything that comes with it.

I love to run my fingers through his hair. I love to see his smile. I love his arms been wrapped around me.

My phone vibrated snapping me out of my thoughts. It was a text message from Nate so I opened it up immediately.

I will be home in an hour. get ready. 💋 Kisses..

One hour of applying make-up and getting ready and still I'm not satisfied with my look. I applied some light makeup up , red lipstick and a light eyeshadow with this black dress which was above my knee. It has lace at the front, letting my boobs peeps out a little. I know someone eyes will be on them all night.

He arrived right on time and I made my way slowly down the stairs hoping I won't fall in these heels.

"Wow." Escape his lips as he looks at me, his hands move up to cover his lips. He was just standing with eyes wide not saying a thing. I felt like an teenager all over again.

"You've changed?" I asked when I realized he wasn't going to say anything.

"I did. Yes I did. I always have an extra suit in the office."

"So shall we?" I asked the moment I reached up to him.

"Yes." I loop my elbow with his. "You did it, you take my breath away."

"Your the most beautiful girl in the world.. I'm happy you came into my life when you did." He always knows what to say to drive me over the edge. And when I looked at his lips forming those beautiful words about me. I wanted nothing more than to be in his arms, laying on a blanket and watching the stars.

****

We pulled up at Ocean's seafood restaurant. I remember it like yesterday that this was the same restaurant he brought take out when we found out that we are a couple. I never knew that we would have more days together with each other. I was just supposed to go to a place and called it home. But now we are hear together.

He parked the car and we walked in. The waitress greet us and escorted us to our seats. I love the interior decoration. I love the aquarium with the fishes at the side. It gives this nice cool feeling, inside was painted mostly blue to give off the nice ocean atmosphere. The picture frames with different sea creatures on the wall.

Nate pulled out the chair for me and I sit. I took up the menu and have a look at it. A bowl of small soup for $30.00 this place is so expensive. Why does the menu items has to be so expensive and we are just going to poop it out anyways. I placed down the menu.

"Is everything okay?" Nate asked me. I nodd.

"Don't worry about the price , just choose whatever you like." I nodd again and picked up the menu.

I love salmon , it's delicately flavoured, rich in omega3 so I decided to try the Spicy pineapple tamarind- glazed salmon for my main meal and a Grinch cocktail. Nate decided to have herb-crusted salmon and we both decided to try fish cakes for appetizers.

"Have you decided on your order as yet?" The waitress asked us. We told her what we decided to have and she writes it down and take our menu.

"Could I have a bottle of your best champagne?" Nate asked her.

"Sure. I will get it right away." And she left us.

I was looking around the restaurant, looking at the different couples around.

"Hey , what's there story?" I asked Nate as I took a sip of the champagne.

"What?" He asked looking confused.

"Them." I point to a couple in the booth. It's a thing Adian and I use to do when we go to a restaurant. We try and guess what the couple's were saying. It was fun then.

"Okay let me start" I said and he smile looking at me.

"See how they are looking at each other I bet this is there first date." I look at the guy "he's saying

Boy: I still can't believe you agreed to come on this date. Why did you give me such a hard time and you know I love you. You make the the happiest man in the world tonight.

Girl: you have to fight for what you want, I was just seeing how long were you willing to fight. And I might tell my parents I was going to Becca. Haha."

"Ok let me try." Nate said laughing. He looked around until he saw a couple two tables away from us. "So she's wearing a wedding ring and he's not which means she's cheating so I think they are saying something like.

Man- why don't you just leave him already. I hate sneaking around. Tell him you love me. I can give you everything you want.

Woman- you know I can't leave him besides you know what you were getting into. And I love you for the sex because you have a big dick, still can't believe how it fits."

I started to laughed and I spill my drink.

"Not bad for a first timer." I said to Nate and he put on a smirk. Gosh the way his eyes sets on me is just incredible and he's taking my breath away.

"Your fun, I like that about you." He rubs my hands.

Our meals arrived and we ate in complete silence. I am happy with my choice and I could smell the herbs on Nathan meal and I know it will be just as good as mine.

"Did I tell you how beautiful you are? How you take my breath away?"  Nathan asked leaning his hands forward to hold my cheeks.

"Huh-yes." We were waiting for the check. The meal was delicious and I love it and I am extremely happy that I am having this meal with Nathan. He pulled my hand forward and placed a soft delicate kiss. Damn it- the feels I'm getting.The waitress come back and handed the check to us.

"Here you go" she place it on the table and the debit machine. We asked her to bring it with her when she returned with our bill.

"Hey" I called to her as she waited "what's your name?" She wasn't wearing a name tag and she forgot to tell us her name. It happens sometimes, I know.

"How rude of me. I'm sorry I didn't introduce myself . My name is Cindy." She smiles. Why does this name sounds so familiar.

"Thanks for your service Cindy." I told her.

"Your welcome" she smiles.

"Cindy?" Nathan asked her and she confirmed. There was a sudden change, he no longer has that smile. He leave the restaurant and I run behind him.

"What was that?" I shouted behind him as soon as we reached out side.

"Nothing, let's go."

"Nothing? That can't be nothing?"

"I said it's nothing let's go." He walked towards his car.

"I don't understand, why this sudden change of behavior if it's nothing?" I asked. I was getting so cold because I rushed out leaving my coat inside.

"Come Ashley , let's go home."

"I am not going anywhere until you tell me what's going on? Are you cheating on me?" It's burns my stomach to asked that question and my heart hurts.  I think all the food I just ate was about to come back up.

"No I am not cheating on you"

"Then what?" I shouted.

"Just drop it ok!"

"No, tell me."

"Get in the car it's cold. Please." He added when I didn't move " then I will tell you ok."

I walked towards the car when I heard Cindy calling out "you left your jacket."

"Thank you." I smile and take my jacket. She's such a sweet heart and a really beautiful girl. I get in the car.

"Okay talk." I said the moment my butt meets the soft comfy seat.

"I should have told you , the night at the charity event." Oh right, The Cindy Mortez Charity, I wondered why it was a familiar name.

"Cindy was my girlfriend of College. I couldn't get over her no matter how hard I tried but you came into my life and it's like she doesn't matter to me anymore but she does. I feel guilty like I'm cheating you two."

"What happened between you two?"

"The funny thing is, nothing happened."

"Then what?" I asked , placing my hand over his palm to keep him calm. But I see a tear in his eyes.

"She died." His voice was filled with hurt and sadness.

"I'm so sorry." I pulled him into my arms giving him comfort. But he needs to know that it's time to let go because he has a life to live.

"It's time to let go." he nodds in the crook of my neck. I feel hypocritical right now because even I can let go off   William.

"Letting go is the hardest thing to do but sometime we have no choice but to let go and that is what you should do now."

"But I want to hold you forever." He whispered in my ear as I feel his hands tighten around me.

Dedicated to fatimaa-

Ashley and Nathan have a lot more in common but they don't even realize..

Nathan why don't you get her a ring already??

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