Amilia POV

Damn why did I agree to train with him? Why? I knew it was a mistake because the moment his skin touched mine, I melted and didn’t want him to let me go because he felt nice. I let myself feel it for a few minutes before I actually realized what I was doing and pushed off him and ran, ran into the forest to get away from the feelings and from him but I still felt those feelings, those incredible sparks and his scent was all over me and every time I took a breath, I smelt it and it made me weak inside. I am so confused on what to do. 

I ran and ran until I realized I was in front of my uncle’s house so I ran onto the porch and knocked on their door.

“Hey what’s going on, everything alright?” Uncle Altan asked as soon as he opened the door. I flung myself onto him and started to cry. He picked me up and carried me inside and sat on the couch with me on his lap. 

“I’m going to be a bit, why don’t you two go ahead and I’ll meet you at the restaurant.” I heard uncle Altan say to his mate and son.

“Ok, I don’t know what’s going on but I’m sure it can be worked out. We love you kiddo. I love you Altan.” I heard kissing and a door closing.

“I’m sorry to ruin your plans uncle Altan.” I sniffled and wiped my eyes once I sat up slightly and looked at him. He smiled softly and cupped my cheek and moved my hair from my face.

“It’s ok. They understand. Want to tell me what happened?” I took a deep breath to calm myself down and explained what happened and he listened to every word with understanding, he’s the only one who does in a sense. 

“You are scared of giving him a chance after all he’s done which not one person can fault you for that Lia, you just need to follow your heart, not listen to your mind all the time. Yes he did unforgivable things to you even cursed he knew what he did after he ‘woke up’ so there is no excuse for his past actions but you also know it is true he doesn’t remember that whole day you and him spent time together and went back to your house. Caleb and myself both read his mind and emotions and he was truthful about that. I know that day and every day before that all matter and I know that’s all you are thinking about, what he did to you and others. I can’t tell you to forgive him, that is something only you can do but I can and will tell you to at least talk to him. If you don’t and aren’t willing to at least be near him you can end up in the clinic because you may not want anything to do with him but Fierce needs her mate, both of them. The only way he can be cured is when he mates with you and Garrett, you know that right? So until you are to that point, he will most likely mess up or he may not since he has Garrett but to avoid any of that, don’t be alone with him. Make sure someone is always near or in eyesight. I don’t want you to get hurt and I don’t want you and him to drift further apart. I would wrap you in bubble wrap but that is a little over the top isn’t it?” He smiled at my eye roll and smiled.

“Yes a little bit. Thank you for listening and your words, it means a lot. You should go, your family is waiting for you.” He smiled at the mention of his family. It took uncle Altan a long time to find his mate and when he did, it was not what he expected and he wasn’t to happy about who his mate was but they eventually worked things out and now they have a son a year younger than me so needless to say, things worked out for them and I’m glad. I just hope things work out  for me and my mates.

“How about when we get back Amar and Fierce do some bonding? He’s been wanting to spend time with her these past few days.” 

“That sounds great to me. I love you.” I kissed his cheek and hopped off him and he stood up and kissed me.

“I love you too Lia. Tell your daddy I will be calling him in the morning to talk about the meeting he went to today.” 

“I will. See you later uncle Altan.” 

“See you later Lia.” He has taken to calling me Lia since I was little because I couldn’t say my name, at least not to where it made sense to anyone so uncle Altan came up with Lia but only he calls me that, he doesn’t like anyone else too. I think it’s more Amar but I don’t care, I love the name they have for me. 

I left the house and went for a walk in the forest to clear my mind, to think about what uncle Altan had told me. I may be an idiot for this but I have always liked Mikael. He is tall and handsome and his smile is beautiful. He is nice to a lot of people and he does have a good heart, I have seen it over the years when he would help someone in school littler than him, stick up to bullies when he would see someone getting bullied. He helps at homeless shelters and even donates to food banks and is a big brother to a six year old boy who lost his brother a few years ago so how can someone like him be so cruel to me? Yes the curse has a lot to do with it and yes I want to help break it but I am so not ready to mate with him to break it, even if it causes me pain in the end. 

I made my way to mine and daddy’s spot and sat on a rock along the bank and looked at the clear blue water and watched the fish swim around with no worries. What would it be like to have no worries and just swim around all day long? I took my sports bra off and shorts and dove into the water. It feels so nice and cool since it’s a hot day. I swam around with the fish and just let myself forget about the outside world while I’m here. 

“How are you holding up Fierce? I’m sorry if my not being near your mate is causing you pain, I just can’t face him. What do I do?”

“I admit it hurts but you come first Amilia, your safety above all else. I’m not sure what you should do but know I am always on your side.” 

“Thank you but you also need him so some advice would be nice.” I huffed and she chuckled softly.

“Sorry, I will always look out for you and be on your side no matter what you choose. Yes it would be amazing to be with him, to feel complete and happy after so long but you are what’s important.” After that I was left in silence as I swam around for a bit before deciding to get out and lay down to let the sun dry me before I got dressed and went home.

“Daddy, uncle Altan said he is going to call you in the morning to talk about the meeting you went to today.” I said when I walked into his office. He looked up at me and nodded.

“Ok. How are you doing baby girl? You went off earlier looking upset.” He asked and leaned back in his chair. I sat down in front of his desk and told him what happened and about my talk with uncle Altan.

“Hmm well he is right and how you feel is how you feel. You can’t force these things, trust me. It won’t end well for any of you if it’s forced. Just give it time, you just found out your mates a couple of months ago so you don’t need to make any rash decisions alright? I wanted to kill the bastard and if it weren’t for Ethan I would have. I don’t want you to suffer that kind of pain so I’m glad he did stop me. I would tell you to go talk to someone in the family about this situation but none of us have a mate who tried to end our lives like that so I honestly have no idea what to tell you on how to move on and work past this but know I am here for you, always will be here for you no matter what you decide. I just want you to think about the future, you know the curse will break when you mate and you will be happy, eventually. Now it isn’t possible to forgive him and move on, I know that. I’m just saying you can be happy and have a life and family with him because you know he can be a nice guy even if I want to not believe it myself. Think about everything, the pros and cons of being with him and how you will feel without him and with him. Being without your mate is very painful even if you reject him. Trust me and a lot of others when I say that we know how it feels and the only way you feel complete and happy is with your mates. It doesn’t have to be now or next week, month, or a year from now but give it time and think about things before you make any decisions about you and him.” 

“So don’t give him the time of day now, don’t reject him, give it time and bond with him, work on forgiving him as we bond, mate break the curse and be happy? That’s what you’re saying?” I asked and he nodded slightly.

“Yea, just take it one day at a time. You started the bond when you touched so it will just get stronger on it’s own and you will eventually go into heat now that you have started the bond and have a bond with Garrett so when that happens, I’ll take care of you unless you are at the point to mate. I’m not going to say you can’t mate with your mates because it is something that is needed so when the time comes if you need me I will take you away from here and it will just be us or I take you to your mates to help in ways only they can. I’m just saying because it will happen and I just want you to know you have options. It may not seem possible right now baby girl but it will get better, I promise. You don’t need to cry.” He said softly and wiped my cheeks of tears that I didn’t even realize I had cried. I sniffled and he picked me up and I snuggled into him, feeling his warmth and love wrapping around me. 

“I love you daddy.” I said and he kissed me when I looked up at him.

“I love you too sweetheart.” He said and walked out of his office and went to the Alpha suite, also our home and when we walked in, I noticed both of my mates were in the kitchen with dad and pop. Daddy carried me to my room and put me down.

“Take a shower and come join us for dinner.” He said and I nodded biting my lip, thinking about the fact both of my mates are here, in the apartment, together with my family. Daddy shut the door and I went to get some comfy pants, a tank top, a clean bra and panties and went to take a much needed shower. Yes the lake water was nice but it didn’t get me clean.

Once I was dirt, sweat, and sud free I got out and dried off, wrapped my hair in a towel and walked into my room and went to my bed and sat down for a minute, just taking my time and yes avoiding going out to have dinner. 

I know later uncle Altan and I are going to spend time together, I hope Ryker will join but that boy has a nasty attitude toward people but he isn’t one to cause harm to people, just his mouth and the way he looks is enough to make someone not want to be near him but I know deep down he’s a good guy. He is my family after all and he can be sweet especially to the pups, he loves the pups and spends a lot of time with them. The pups who lost their parents in one way or another are the ones he is really close to. 

I took a deep breath after I was dressed and made my way to the dining room where I heard their voices and Garrett was the first one to stand and he walked over to me and hugged me and kissed me sweetly. When we pulled apart I was breathless and daddy cleared his throat so we sat down and Garrett was on my right and Mikael on my left. Just one dinner, you can do it. 

“How did the pups do with the rest of their training?” I asked and Garrett chuckled.

“Well they all ganged up on Greg and decided to throw attacks at him at once. It was pretty funny seeing their little bodies taking down the gentle giant. He was laughing the whole time.” Garrett said and I can see them doing that to Greg and him letting them. He wouldn’t dare hurt them since they are just starting their training and have to build up their strength and tactics. 

“I’m sorry I ran off during their training. It wasn’t the right thing to do.” I said and he shook his head.

“It’s ok, they had fun and also did the moves you showed them and they did ok with it, they need to practice more obviously. Are you doing ok?” Garrett asked and I felt Mikael tense slightly since his leg is barely touching mine and I liked how even his leg near mine felt.

“I’m ok, had a couple of talks to help so I’m ok.” I said and Mikael relaxed and I bit my lip to keep from smiling a little. Damn bond is making me not want my mate to be upset or stressed much to my dislike. He is sexy and so handsome, fit, has a very nice hard body and I felt that body when he held me in his big strong arms and it felt amazing, he felt amazing. 

Dinner was actually nice and I talked to Mikael without wanting to kill him or feel scared of him. He even held my hand and I didn’t flinch at his touch, in fact I wanted more of it and that is what scares me. Once my mates left I helped clean up the dishes and worked on some homework before it was time for me to go hang out with uncle Altan and hopefully Ryker. 

I wasn’t surprised to find Ryker and one of the pups, Jacob playing in the yard when I arrived at their house. Jacob saw me and ran over to me and tackled me to the ground in a hug.

“Hey little guy, how are you?” I asked and he smiled so brightly at me. He is an adorable little guy with blonde soft curls and bright gray eyes with light freckles dusting his little nose and cheeks. 

“I'm fine! Ryker took me for ice cream and now we’re just hanging out. What are you doing?” He asked cutely and I smiled.

“Well I’m actually here to see Altan and go spend some time with him. I was going to ask Ryker if he wanted to join but you are here so maybe another time.” I said and looked at Ryker and he glared at the ground. Jacob kissed my cheek and went back to Ryker taking him to the ground and Ryker laughed, such a rare sound we don’t hear so I enjoyed seeing him laugh and seeing him happy with Jacob. I walked onto the porch and the door opened and there stood my uncle smiling at me like a child on Christmas. I noticed Amar was in control and I giggled at his childish ways as he bounced on his feet and grabbed my hand and basically drug me off the porch with a shout to his family he’ll be back later. 

“Lia I have missed you!” Amar said and crushed me into a hug once we stopped running. I laughed and hugged him back.

“I missed you too Ami!” I giggled when he playfully growled and pouted like a child.

“I told you not to call me that!” He whined and I couldn’t help but laugh at how freaking cute he was. 

“Oh well, at least no one knows so they can’t tease you.” I poked his nose and he huffed but still smiled. 

“Well come on, what do you want to do?” I asked and he looked up and back at me.

“I want to see Fierce so shift and let me look at you. It’s been a while since I actually saw her so I want to see how big she got without flying away in a fit of anger.” He said and I blushed at the thought of shifting in front of the whole pack for the first time and it wasn’t even my doing. I went behind a few trees and stripped and shifted. I made sure I was clear before I did because I don’t want to take out any trees. 

“Wow look at you.” Ami said when he looked at my bird and Fierce screeched and he chuckled.

“You truly are amazing Fierce. Want to go fly?” He asked and of course Fierce agreed so she got low to the ground and Amar climbed onto our back and held on before Fierce flapped her big beautiful wings and took off into the sky. 

“So how have you been doing with your mates?” He asked as we soared in the clouds about an hour later of peace and quiet.

“I’ve been ok, had dinner with both of them and my dad’s and it wasn’t that bad. I actually enjoyed it very much.” I answered when I landed and shifted back and got dressed since he held onto my clothes for me. 

“That’s good, you seem more calm since a few days ago which I’m sure is because you were with your mates. I love you and I want you to do what you think is best for you and for you to be happy, that’s all we all want for you.” He said as we sat down on a fall log.

“That’s the thing, being with both of them is what’s best for me but I don’t know how to get past the fact my own mate tried to kill me. The past shit he did yes it was horrible and I was scared to even step foot outside the house and go to school because I didn’t want to be there with him or anyone else because I didn’t know what was waiting for me but that is nothing to how it felt with his hands wrapped around my throat and squeezing the life out of me with blank eyes and a smirk on his face as I struggled to get him off of me. I can never forget that.” 

“And no one is telling you to forget that Lia, just do what you feel is right, no one can make your choices for you.” I knew he was speaking from experience so I took his words to heart.

We spent a few hours talking, flying, running with me on his back and I took us home around ten to see his house was quiet and dark except a couple of lights on the second floor from his room and Ryker’s.

“Good night uncle Altan. I had fun this evening. I love you.” I said and he smiled and hugged me.

“I love you too Lia, we had fun as well. Have a good day at school tomorrow and remember what we said. Be safe going home.” He kissed me and I left.

I went home and went to the suite, took another shower and went to my bed and laid down just thinking of all the advice I was given today and thought about what I’m going to do before I felt myself drifting off to sleep after this eventful day.