I hate doing this to y'all but I can't update this week because THE CHAPTER GOT DELETED.

IM REALLY ANGRY BECAUSE IT WAS ALMOST DONE AND MY PHONE CRASHED, RESTARTED, AND DELETED ALL THE PROGRESS I MADE. I'm literally dead inside and I'm actually like, extremely guilty that this fucking happened because I like to keep the weekly updates going but it just ?????? God has a vendetta against me I swear to god.

Since I don't have a stupid update this week I'll just do another PSA of sorts that will be me (failing) attempting to promote positivity since this book is about mental illnesses but I'll be tagging random people and explaining everything I love about them. Ahg, I'm still sorry this is a waste of time.

hqheaven
Listen, I really fucking love you. I remember when I was a haikyuu fanfic writer and when I saw you follow me I literally dropped my phone and screamed about it. I love you because you're always open to peoples problems and even though I'm THE MOST frustrating person to talk to sometimes about my problems you still listen quietly and give me some of the best advice (apart from telling me to murder the kid I tutor). You're so positive to be around, you could literally just say hi to me and you make my day 100× better because you're just ahhhhh. You've taught me to stop questioning why people love to be around and why people even like me because no matter the answer I receive I'll never be satisfied with the words of others, only the actions they take to show that they truly appreciate me as a person and this has honestly helped my so much this year.

I love you Hatari ❤

reeia_bean
THIS CHILD. THIS CHILD IS MY SISTER.
She taught me that family isn't always blood and she's been with me ever since I was like 13 AKA my fucking weeaboo days when I would choke someone out for hating on Jean Kirschtein (how tf do I even spell it anymore). I've watched her grow up into such an amazing girl and I'm proud to have known her since she was a child because we've both learned so much from one another and she's helped me through so many things and even helped my mysophobia a bit. She's amazing and if you're not friends with her you're honestly, truly, missing out on something amazing.

llSinll
Yes, you're next you sinful bastard you. Max is amazing and thought I haven't known them all that long they make my writing so much fun because they're always there just basically holding up a sign that just says
"Fucking do it m8."
No matter my idea, they're always there to support me no matter what, Beautiful Disasters truly would have never happened if it werent for them because they really help me when I'm having writers block during each chapter of this story. They give me ideas, they give me the motivation I need, and they're an amazing editor even though they slack a bit too much lol. Please go to their profile and tell them you love them because Max needs love because they do just as much work as I do for this story but are so underappreciated.

ricemunchkin
Hi I love you honey. Jay is such a sweetheart, like, there is nothing wring with this child she's so innocent and fluffy. Just like Max, she's always there to be part of my little appreciation squad and is always ready to motivate me when I'm feeling down in the dumps. I really love you jayjayritto :')

LEREXIA
YES HI LEO. I LOVE YOU.
Leo is such a sweetie pie just like Jay, she's always ready to help me feel better about myself (and she even made a fan account of me XD) and she definitely taught me how to always be there for everyone no matter what because this child would break their back for you tbfh. Follow her if you need someone like her in your life.

@ All of my readers :)

I really love y'all. Honestly, if you know me then you'd know that one of my favorite little fanbases out of all my books was once treasure because they were so amazing and actually took time to solve the mystery but now I have to say that the Beautiful Disaster audience is the audience I hope I'll have when I become a professional author. You're all serious about the topics being portrayed in this story and all understand the characters in ways I never would have expected y'all to. I mean, when I first started this story I never really thought it would blow up like it did on wattpad or AO3, I truly thought it would just be overlooked like many of my failed fics like Cursed Child. Making this story and seeing how much you all really care about my version of the voltron characters actually helped my self-esteem with writing. I was really ready to give up wattpad around the time I started this because I used to be a big haikyuu writer but when I stopped I lost followers and many readers because they didn't like the fact I moved on from what THEY liked. I used to think that the only thing that truly mattered was making stories that my audience enjoyed and making my iwaoi story "Solace" made me truly hate writing. I got caught up in making it fit what the audience liked that I lost sight of what I wanted.

This story, Beautiful Disasters, was my story where I could do my own thing and do what I've always wanted to do ever since starting my wattpad account; make people feel welcomed and loved. I've always wanted to create stories where my fans/readers could be friends with one another, love the story, relate to each character on a personal level, and respect me as the author. You're all everything I've ever wanted as a writer and I don't know how I could ever thank y'all. I really love and appreciate y'all for giving my purpose to write again. I will never EVER forget about any of you even when this story is done and I move onto my next project. I've met so many amazing people through here who are willing to help me by talking about their own problems like gender dysphoria, autism, bulimia, depression, the whole thing. You're all truly the real beautiful disasters that'll have a special place in my heart even when I leave wattpad for good.

Thank you for everything :')

Ahhhhhhhhh, again thank you and I really hope I can continue writing a story you all love and relate to. I'm dearly sorry for the inconvenience of the newest chapter being deleted.

Enjoy this

Goodnight y'all ❤

Anri^^