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❝If I said too much, I know you're mine to lose.❞

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CHAPTER SIX

THE EARLY MORNING breeze, the gentle reminder of another day, to another lie. I've lived like an island as alone as quiet, there was so much to be said to be heard but I liked pretending to think everything was just fine when in reality the truth was too harsh.

“Where did you go, I woke up and you weren't there?”

My eyes snapped towards the man as he made his way downstairs, my hands that held the bread and eggs placed them into the basket.

“We were out of milk, bread and some eggs—” I informed as he yawned stretching his arms lazily grinning he grabbed an apple and took a large bite.

“You should get changed I'm leaving for work—”I wasn't able to finish as he pressed his thumb over my lips, it smelled little bit of the apple he just held, his eyes burning into mine, with an intimacy that had my heart drumming longingly in my chest.

             “You’re not going to work today, you'll come with me to the office,” Jungkook’s voice calm and steady as his eyes bored into mine, I swallowed hardly my brows furrowed before withdrawing his hand away from face.

“I am not going anywhere—not with you.”

“Why you own 20% of the shares technically you're supposed to be there everyday,” He reminded and lowered his head somewhat intensely, he stared into my eyes and it made my heart wreak havoc with my chest.

And then his hand slowly covered mine. His skin was warm and rough, and he pressed my hand against his cheeks, and then to his mouth, and kissed my palm, intensely. My heart racing faster in my chest, I was finding it hard to breathe, so I tried withdrawing, moving backwards but his free hand found the small of my back and he pulled me to him, slowly but surely with firmness, so divine I could not deny, and then he touched my chin holding it upwards by two of his fingers; he made me look at him,“Come with me,” he rasped the words out sounding as if they were ripped from his throat.

I felt my heart beating wildly all of a sudden, hearing him say those words. Seeing him give me that dark smile, his eyes lighting up at the look on my face when I very slightly nodded before flashing him a faint smile.

Standing back he gave me a huge grin,“Great I will get ready in ten minutes, and we can have breakfast at the office.”

Nodding, I turned to look away when he turned back,“We good baby?

My hand almost dropped the mug as gulping hardly, I turned to look back at him. An unwavering feeling dawned upon me as I tried remembering when was the last time he referred to me that way.

‘baby’

His whimsical chuckle drew me back to the current situation as taking a deep breath I murmured back,“huh—you should get dressed.”

Acknowledging a simple nod sent my way I turned to get, ready myself even though I was already dressed I felt like I haven't showered even I did shower, it was undeniably hot the weather today was just unthinkable.

Getting into our room, I could hear the shower running. Pulling the curtains and opening the windows I let the fresh air come, my body sore and my eyes stinging from all that crying I've done last night.

Sleep didn't come easy for, I felt miserable lost. There wasn't anything hopeful I just didn't know where to point my finger at but I just wasn't happy.

I was pulled out of my thoughts with the ringing of his cellphone by the nightstand.  My hands fidgeting with lopes of my dress wondering whether to pick it up or not. Sighing I stared at my reflection in the mirror and closed my eyes, trying to ignore the ringing of the phone, I didn't even know why would I be just so scared to check his phone, like there's nothing wrong with it he's in the shower.

Minutes passed and the phone finally stopped ringing my eyes focused on my reflection in the mirror as my body stiffened when he came out of the shower with his pants on and his chest  completely bare, I gulped hardly avoiding to meet his gaze.

“While I was in the shower I thought of something,” he spoke, his voice that sounded hoarse voice after coming out of the shower reached my ears as I gripped the dressing table harder when he came to stand beside me.

His hard body pressed against mine, as I felt his hot breath trickling against my exposed neck, his hand placed beside mine on the table while the other touched my exposed inner thigh, my muscles tensed under his feather like touch, my breath hitched as I tried holding my breath still when his hand moved further closer to my most intimate part.

“Jungkook—” my voice caught in my throat as suddenly his hand drew circles over my exposed skin, while his mouth very slowly, sensually started playing their soft, assault on my neck, the back of my ear, as I gasped for air when his tongue licked my skin, his teeth bitting in.

“We can stay in bed all day if you want, and I could show you the ways of how much I want you,” he whispered against my skin making chills to go down my spine, as my body trembled with such intensity when he pulled me harshly by my arms and turned my body around to face him.

My breath coming out in strange little pants as my eyes traveled from his mouth to his chest, those strongly build muscle then back to his handsome face. Jungkook is still staring down at me; an urgent look in his eyes.

“You are getting late for work,” I whispered, when slowly he brought his hand to the straps of my dress; his fingers crossed around them, as slowly with his eyes never leaving mine he slid one strap off my shoulder, my breath caught in my throat as I gripped the hem of my dress in anticipation, “I—I"

“Just relax,” his smooth voice soothes my ears as very gingerly, he lowers his face towards my other shoulder strap and pulls it down with teeth, his wet lips touching my skin, making goosebumps to prickle. I breathed out slowly feeling my heart beating loudly, I found myself in a whirlwind of emotions. I felt angry and desperate but most of all, I felt clueless. This was just fast.

I could feel his gaze, the contrast and the emotions within his gaze overwhelms me. As his gaze travels down over my body taking in the upward curved of my breast that was exposed with the dress hanging off my almost half naked body.

“The world could fuck themselves. I goddamn want you.”

I staggered back and I definitely gasped when he pulled me harshly against him by my hips, his nails digging deeper into my skin as I dropped my gaze to his bare chest, where my hand was kept, putting a little bit of space between our two bodies.

My eyes observing his features, I could stare at him forever and never get bored. He was a masterpiece. His  skin looks so smooth I long to kiss it. I wanted to feel every part of him, my hand pushed against his chest as I closed my eyes and tried numbing all the unwanted thought, the endless doubts out of my head but I just couldn't it was too hard this was too hard.

I still couldn't find a way to believe in him, it was like all he felt for me was just momentary lust and if I let him have what he wants now, soon it would all be over and he would be bored of me.

My eyes were opened wide my hands were idly hanging off while he worked his way down my naked chest, my bra almost hanging off my body as his hand strongly pulled my dress down  along with my bra. His pupils dilated as the drank the sight before him.

“Stop!” my voice came out broken, as my hands pushed him back, his hands stopped, his whole body jolted against mine as he straightened forward, standing up.

Everything within the moment stilled. When he looked at me with that look in his eyes,“Ivy?” he sounded hurt but his eyes they were burning bright I could feel the angry burning off him, his jaw clenched as he stepped closer my body moved backwards, scared I hugged my arms around my body trying to cover as he stared at me with puzzled eyes, his hand hesitating to touch me, he seemed confused for a second but then anger took over him and he pulled me by my chin, tilting my face towards him whilst his other hand gripped one of wrist and pulled me harshly against his body, my breath hitched my eyes teared as I blinked when he brought his face close to mine.

“Why are you doing this?” he growled demonic, I could feel my breath hitch, seeing his dark eyes glare at me anger evident in them.

                         “You want to hurt me—just do it. I'm tired, of the littles games you play and the ways you hurt me again and again everyday in a different way,” I spoke with the little courage left in me; my eyes blurring his face as my more tears fell through, his grip around my wrist tightening as he let goes of my face and reach towards my hair tugging it behind my ear, as he leaned in, blinking I slightly opened my eyes, frozen I stood.

His knuckles paled as his grip around my wrist never loosened, the intense pain almost numbed all the other thoughts from my mind, “Fix yourself I'm going downstairs.” his cold voice brought me to the realization that he was still standing very close to me and every part of his body that touched mine made me feel uneasy, it made me feel used.

“I don't want—I cannot,” I tried forming words but failed miserably, hotly cheeks ablaze I take a deep breath, to pull myself together.

He's watching me, his eyes staring down at me through his dark lashes as with an angry gaze and steady breath he let goes of my wrist and withdraws back, and I was finally able to breathe again my wrist felt numb, I couldn't feel anything, bitting my lips I winced when I rubbed the sore spot with the pad of my thumb. His fingers prints on my pale skin were like a stigma of the downfall of our relationship, there's nothing left anymore.

Why we're still together, it's not like he still wanted me. All I was here was to just warn his bed.

“You are coming with me and there's no changing to that. Period.”

Were his last words before he left the room with his shirt and his coat in his hand, banging the door the behind him making me flinch with a jolt as I breathed out, hugging my body, covering my chest, my make up was ruined my wrist looked horrific, I looked dreadful.

I don't know for how long will this go on for I was tired. Taking a deep breath, I clear my throat forcing a short painful. I ran my hand rapidly across my eyes. As my hands reached for my dress scattered around the floor.

TO BE CONTINUED

Author's note:

Long time no update. And I know there should be no such excuses or apologies for that but I'm going to be very honest I need to feel the emotions the intensity of ones feelings to actually write this chapter down, this was emotionally a challenge for me because let's be real any girl going through a toxic relationship where there's nothing she could do. It's really something society never talks about I don't understand why toxic relationship are fantasized in romantic way.

Because there's something worst than physical abuse and it's mental abuse, it's worst and it is something that needs to be given attention as much as physical abuse.

Stay precious as you are to me and remember to smile ♥

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