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❝Don’t want no other shade of blue
but you, no other sadness in the
world would do.❞

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CHAPTER TWENTY NINE

AFTER YEARS OF PAIN, WHEN a sufferer finds relief, the first thing that do is run from it, scared and confused. Their souls that have suffered tremendous loss, are unable to describe relief. The peace, because it is something they were robbed off. Undefined, and incomplete their feelings are far from anything serene. After all the mind may forget the words but; the heart it remembers the feeling. And it won't ever be the same.

Because forever, is a loop of lies molded to feed, desperate hearts. Nothing can happen without a reason, and no reason is enough to justify your suffering, the pain you feel may not be permanent, yet it is something you did not ask for. It's only a matter of time, you realize that everything in life is unplanned. There's no point in resisting, and looking away from things that break you.

Hence, now I stand facing all my fears. Testing my own limits.

“What are you doing?” I asked sounding drowsy sauntering into his study, he eyes rose to mine, as he lowers his glass of scotch, “I thought that you'd come.”

His gulps soundly, placing the crystal glass on the table, making an irked sound echo hauntingly, as his gaze sizes me up and down. I watch him push his seat a little before, exhaustion flares through his hard gaze and he bites his lips, finding it hard to remain calm, when he notices me approaching him.

“Where you waiting?” Jungkook asks, his voice raspy, and breathless as he sighs when I continue to walk near him, bridging the distance between us.

“I was waiting,” He has asked this question before, numerous times only this time I don't lie. There's so much that we've lost with our lies, now only truth should save us.

“What's the matter? Tell me, is something bothering you?” My voice sounds weak and drifting, as he sighs when I dig my fingers into his hair, his eyes shut close in ease, as I find him leaning to my touch. God he was like a puppy.

Smiling, I continued to stroke his hair trying to calm his nerves, my fingers play carelessly against his scalp, as he breathes deeply making a shiver run down my spine, when he suddenly pulls me by my waist, his arms tightens around my waist. He places his hand against my hip bone. My eyes, drop with daze and amusement, as he holds me by the waist firmly.

        “Today was overwhelming—but it was unforgettable, Ivy it's scares me, the more time I spend with you, the more selfish I find myself getting,” He murmurs darkly, I felt blood rushing to my cheeks, Lord his voice was full of dark promises, I don't think it's ever going to be easy for me. His touch burned against my skin, as I felt myself getting greedy when his hands do not wander, but stay there motionless.

“But, still you should come to bed its too late, Jungkook.”

   “I hope you remember your promise,” He says in a wicked tone, as I chuckle hitting his shoulder playfully when he pushes his nose against my ribcage. My heart races, and I find warmth spreading throughout my body.

“Oh, dear why do you think I was waiting, husband?” I whispered back, in a feathery tone, as his eyes light up and he shakes his head, refusing to let go when I tried to step back a little.

I think I can't handle him being this needy. But, I don't hate it.

         “Good. I wasn't planning on letting go either,” He chuckles, as a sudden gasp left my lips, when he suddenly lifts me up, my feet hang loosely in air. As when I glance at his face, I find my eyes widen and the sleep, and drowsiness that ruled my mind vanish, when he proceeds to walk towards our bedroom.

It wasn't a short walk, when he was climbing up the stairs I raise my eyes to his face, to find it flushed, yet composed. It is totally unfair, how he gets to stay this calm when my heart was a mess because of him. Running my tongue along the crease of my cheek, I smile mischievously as a thought reached my mind and before that thought would stay as just a thought, I put it to action. Clutching his neck, I lift up my face, but he was too tall and my mouth could only reach till his neck, smiling I stare at his the hollow of his neck for a moment, before my lips tremble, taking in a deep breath I inhaled his scent, as my lips plucker over his scorching skin.

     Jungkookʼs breath hitched. His steps alter, and he trembles. His whole body shook with an intensity that made me whither, and gasp when I find his grip lossen around my waist, I shreak and acted impusly grabbing his neck in a death grip, as he groans catching me back just as I was about to fall. His eyes timidly turned to look at me, only to find me glaring sharply back at him.

“You almost dropped me,” I whisper, as he sighs frowning, before a deep shade of red colours his neck.

“You shouldn't have kissed me so suddenly,” He replies, his voice breathless, his eyes darken when we enter the bedroom.

“So, now it is my fault?” I question back my brows pinched with bewilderment.

His eyes drop upon my lips, and then back to my eyes as he gently lowers me on to the bed. My eyes soften with warmth and calmness, as he soon joins me, pulling the blanket over our bodies molded together.

“I am a weak man, Ivy scumbbed to my desires. There is a limit to temptation, even a saint can't resist beauty such as yours.”

He was staring at me so fervidly, so desperately, I felt as though his gaze might peer into my soul. The sincerity, reflecting through his irises tugged relentlessly upon my heartstrings. I couldn't tear my eyes from him, as his arms snake around my waist securely. The way blood was rushing through my veins, was buzzing my mind, I was just defenseless against this man's advances.

Lifting my chin, I chewed my lips nervously when he nuzzles his nose into my nape, my fingers were fisting his shirt, as he nudges his knee between my legs. It seems as if he was trying to burn into my soul, fully imprint his touch upon my skin. I knew he was trying to remind me how being in his embrace felt like, though it was past it. Now, it was just him melting into my embrace. Our bodies, perfectly recognized each other, his chest pressed firmly against mine, our fingers clasp together as we stare back, taking in every detail, every emotion shadowing our faces.

         “Thank you for never giving up on us, when I did,”I mumble, after  awhile taking a deep breath that was mixed with his as he hmm, gently caressing my back, as my eyes shut close sinking with deep slumber. When our bones crash against each other and, my heart beats against his.

Nothing—can ever suffice this. Jungkook was my husband, he owned every piece  of my soul even the bad and the void.

TO BE CONTINUED

Author's Note:

I hope you enjoyed reading this update, I debated whether to publish this chapter or not, because it was only about them holding each other but I thought, it only fair to let  you all read about their happy and peaceful time just as you all read about the times they were busy fighting.

Are they finally opening up? Do you think they can make this work

Stay precious as you are to me. And remember to smile. Stay, strong and always believe in yourself.

Thanks for reading <3

Love,
shafaq-Shapel ♥