beautiful, but bleak  ╱  a joel miller story
❛ i'll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor,
your morgue and final resting. ❜
━━━ written by sloane!
© HOTELDIABLO- 2023
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I'm sorry.
          I'm sorry.
                     I'm sorry.
———  I should be better, but I'm not.

i feel like i was broken that day back in october, when you said you didn't love me but couldn't explain why. maybe it'll change, but maybe i won't. it's time to live faster but still die slow, but still young — oh, how i wish to die young. oh, how i wish to die young.

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⤹ synopsis ...

Would you suffer for love?

Francesca Zwicker only knew suffering, so she supposed love was no different.

That did stop ...

... for awhile anyway, when she met Joel Miller.

A man she clung onto more than she probably should've.
Since the outbreak, the act of deep and intense affection towards another human only ended in misery for her, but still, she chased it down because her heart craved it more than the need for the tainted blood pumping through her veins —— Francesca itched to feel suffering and loving a person was the best way to satisfy it.

And whether it was because of his own demons that started haunting him long before knowing her or because she was just doomed to suffer —— Frannie yearned for a life with Joel she could never have, a life she had no idea how to make work ...

... until the unwanted arrival of a girl named Ellie.

But even then, the world is still cruel and love is still tragic, and a brutal end is inevitable.

or,

IN WHICH! Francesca and Joel realize that they truly are meant to be — for better or for worse, in life and in death.

i can no longer see and i can barely speak. the words get stuck more than usual and i am far too weak to finish any sentence, or write anymore words when no one wants to listen, when i am never heard.

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⤹ starring ...

francesca 'frannie' zwicker
———     thirty-one      capricorn      doomed lover
"i should leave. i should've left a long time ago, but i fucking hate myself and i think i deserve this."

played by olivia cooke!

pedro pascal ╱ joel miller
bella ramsey ╱ ellie williams
anna torv ╱ tess servopoulos
natalie portman ╱ juliette zwicker ✝︎
scott wilson ╱ mickey brown ✝︎

&&
the rest
of the
the last of us
cast
as
themselves

and once again it's 2am, unable to fall asleep. i slept till 2pm again because i couldn't face this week. the wind is howling at my window, it's BEAUTIFUL, BUT BLEAK and maybe that's all it was ever meant to be. maybe that's all we were ever meant to be, maybe that's all i was ever meant to be —— not beautiful, just bleak.

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⤹ francesca's mixtape!

001       the garden, flower face
002 neptune, sleeping at last
003 ruin, the amazing devil
004 spiracle, flower face
005 fine line, harry styles
006 teeth, mallrat
007       your needs, my needs, noah kahan
008 will i always feel this way?, instant crush
009       work song, hozier
010 mama, my chemical romance
011 i never loved myself like i loved you,
dead poet society
012 oh god, mothica
013       as it was, hozier
014       me and the devil, soap&skin
015       it's called: freefall, rainbow kitten surprise
016 for your love, måneskin
017 i'd like to meet the moon, gilanares
018       baby teeth, flower face
019 life on earth, snow patrol
020       francesca, hozier
021       i'm your man, mitski
022       beautiful, but bleak, wilted flower

⤹ sloane's corner!

DISCLAIMER!
▇ i do not own the show/game THE LAST OF US, the plot, their characters, or the dialogue said within the show/game, however, i do own my characters and their storyline and dialogue and any plot that i add on to the original. ✸ plagiarisms of any kind is forbidden! if i find that my characters and their storylines have been stolen you will be blocked and reported and i will send a witch hunt on you idfc.

▇ this layout is of my own design and you are more than welcome to use it as long as you give me credit!
(song used: beautiful, but bleak by wilted flower)

▇ PLEASE don't be a silent reader! votes & comments mean the absolute world to me and knowing that you guys are enjoying what i'm writing is what keeps me motivated to continue with the story!! plus, i just love talking to you guys! it only takes a second to vote or comment, please support me, making these books takes a lot of effort and time and when i hardly get any interaction there's just no point in writing anymore.

WARNING!
▇ this book contains smut, nudity, swearing, unhealthy sexual coping mechanisms, age gap relationship (25 years, but she's a grown ass woman so don't even start), depictions of blood and gore, violence, toxic(ish) relationship, talks and depictions of suicide, depictions of struggling mental health, mention of sexual assault, torture, and (violent)death!

▇     this is the only warning you will be getting! if you are uncomfortable with any of the topics i mentioned above, you are more than welcome to leave, take care of yourself first. ✸ if you need more details in certain warnings listed above please let me know! i would be more than happy to tell you!

EXTRA!
▇     this story is gonna tear me to shreds 🏌🏻

▇     the reality of a relationship involving two mentally struggling people aren't often shown properly in media (ESPECIALLY in an apocalyptic world) or in the case of joel fics (from what i've seen), the way he interacts with love interests is widely inaccurate imo and erases a lot of what makes him the way he is so i'm really trying to make it as right as i can and it's gonna ruin me in the process but i deeply love joel and frannie's dynamic no matter how complicated it can get because they do truly love each other in such an intense way and i'm excited to share it 😌

▇ i'm obsessed with the playlist i made for this 😪 i think it perfectly encapsulates frannie,, my sweet broken complicated girl

▇ i've been attracted to video game joel since i was 15 and pedro has not helped it in the slightest so i needed to make this, that is all,, goodbye and enjoy this distraught emotional rollercoaster with me! ❤️‍🔥✌🏻

DEDICATIONS!
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thank you so much
for all the support
you show my
books & writing!
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STARTED.     3|14|2023
PUBLISHED.     3|24|2023
COMPLETED.     tba

with love ,
sloane