Nat's POV

The days after the funeral were the worst, Steve and I started to clean Lily's house, memories coming from all the rooms, all the objects.

After a week I came back to London and I felt terrible.

James, Yelena and Carol did their best to cheer me up but I felt like I was falling again in that silence I felt when my parents died.

-I am worried- I have heard once James tell Yelena -She isn't speaking much, I don't want her to go back like she was before-.

Working was the only way to not think about what happened and I started spending a lot of hours in my office.

-What are we going to watch tonight?- James asked while sitting on the sofa next to me.

I didn't say anything, I only put my head on his shoulder.

He hugged me: his hugs always made me feel safe, at home.

-I am always here Nat, tell me what I have to do to make you feel better and I'll do it- he said.

-Stay with me- I said -Leave that woman and stay with me-.

Yes, the day I arrived Carol showed me some photos that she took and they showed James with a woman.

-I... It was a mistake, you were gone and... I thought you left to stay with him- he said and he meant Bruce.

I nodded.

-Just... Don't do that again please- I said, a tear falling down my cheek.

-I won't, I swear- he said.

-So you are moving here definitely?- I asked Yelena.

Some weeks passed and I was started feeling better. It still hurt but, like they say, time helps.

-Yes, I fought again with my parents and I can't go back there anymore, I risk to get crazy!- she said.

-What did they do?- Carol asked.

-Well they want me to do what they want, get married and spend my life at home raising kids- Yelena said and then started insulting them.

-I am glad I don't understand Russian- Carol said and both Yelena and I laughed.

-How are things going with James?- Yelena asked me.

-They are good- I said -We are even closer than before-.

-What does he ask for before proposing?- Carol said -It is crystal clear that he wants to marry you but I don't understand why he is waiting this long-.

-Maybe he is waiting for the perfect moment- I said -And my last engagement didn't go very well-.

We all laughed.

-Any old boyfriend that James should be scafed of?- Yelena asked.

-No don't worry- I said laughing.

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