TRIGGER WARNING for suicidal(?)/negative thoughts and gay "slurs" (queer and homo)

      It had been almost a year since Jeremy deactivated the Squip, thanks to Michael. Jeremy still had attacks when the Squip would reactivate for a few minutes, causing intense pain and messed up thinking. 

     Jeremy was lying in Michael's arms, the boys were cuddling after a long day of college classes. They passed a vanilla milkshake between them while watching Harry Potter on a worn out bean bag chair.

     "No! Sirius just died a-and now..." Michael trailed off, biting his lip to keep from crying. Jeremy giggled a little, leaning up to kiss Michael softly. He tasted the faint vanilla on his lips and made out with him a little to keep the flavor. 

     "You taste good." Jeremy said with a smirk, watching Michael turn bright red.

     "S-shut up... You're too damn cute, Jer." Michael held his boyfriend tighter, his hoodie providing warmth to both boys. Jeremy closed his eyes to almost drift off softly until he shot up quickly, clutching his head. He walked across the room in a haze, then running to the bathroom to collapse on the cold floor.

     You can't escape me, Jeremy. You're horrible, Jeremy. You should die, Jeremy.

     "GET OUT OF MY HEAD." Jeremy screamed at nothing, he was shaking and he scraped his nails down his face to try to calm himself. He heard Michael run after him, and soon saw his familiar figure in the doorway. His face looked terrified, dropping to the ground next to Jeremy.

     Tell him to leave. You don't want him here. He's ruining your life.

     "M-Michael... G-get away f-from me... N-Now..." He gritted his teeth, falling to his hands in pain again and hissing through the waves of pain.

     "I'm not leaving you. Not again. Tell me anything you want, I'm staying here." Michael said sternly, reaching out to put a hand on Jeremy softly. Jeremy smacked his hand away, panting and glaring at Michael. Realizing what he had done, Jeremy started tearing up. 

     "W-what did I d-do..."

     The right thing, Jeremy. Good job, punch him, tell him to get out of your life.

     "Shut the fuck up. Please, go away." Jeremy spoke more quietly but his voice full of pain towards the Squip. Michael sat next to Jeremy, putting his arm around him gently. Jeremy accepted it, breathing heavily. 

     What are you doing, queer? You want to be cool, don't you? Get away from him.

     Jeremy's gaze went blank, and he pushed Michael to the ground and got up from the floor. He got to the doorway into their dorms bedroom and gripped the doorframe tightly, feeling like he might collapse from the head pain. Michael was persistent, rushing after Jeremy again.

     "I-I'm telling you Michael... L-Leave me alone... Homo..." Jeremy was also a homosexual, the Squip was taking control of his thoughts and he couldn't control the words coming out of his mouth. He fell to the ground again, looking up to Michael and almost growling at him. 

     "Jeremy...?" Michael looked almost lost at the slur thrown at him. He tried to keep telling himself that this wasn't Jeremy, this was the Squip. But tears lined his eyes, and he felt like he was losing Jeremy again.

     Good. GOOD. Look what you've done, you horrible boy.   

     "Stop... P-please le-leave me alone... M-Michael... H-help..." Jeremy's personality came out again as he whimpered, Michael's heart breaking as he saw his boyfriend in pain. He carefully sat down next to him, looking him right in the eyes.

     "You're okay, I'm here. I love you, Jeremy. You're going to be okay..." Michael spoke softly to calm him down, trying to break the Squip within Jeremy.

     What are you doing? Get rid of him.

     "N-No... I love him..." Jeremy whispered, collapsing against Michael's chest and breathing heavily. Michael put his arm around Jeremy's back to restrain him from leaving again.

     Jeremy, listen to me. You know what happens when you don't...

     "P-please don't hurt me!" Jeremy spoke louder, and Michael looked at him angered. He was mad at the Squip for hurting his boy. He wanted to rid him of the Squip forever, and it hurt him knowing that he couldn't. He pressed his forehead to Jeremy's.

     "Get out of my boyfriends head." Michael said, then pressing his lips to Jeremy's. Jeremy kissed back through tears, making the kiss wet and gentle. 

     Jeremy, you naughty boy, you were so close... I'm disappointed in you.

     Jeremy ignored the voice as it got more quiet, continuing to kiss Michael. Michael started making out in the kiss, and Jeremy blushed bright red.

    "He's gone."

     "I love you, Jeremy."

     "I l-love you too... I-I'm sorry, you pro-probably hate me..."

      "I don't think its possible for me to love you anymore than I do right now. Wait, I love you more now. Nope, I love you even more-" 

     "Y-you're f-funny..." Jeremy giggled and climbed on top of Michael and kissed him again. Michael reached up and wrapped his arms around his boyfriend, flipping them around so he could be on top. He kissed down his neck, then leaving a trail of kisses on his collarbone. 

     "F-fuck Michael..." Jeremy moaned out a little, feeling Michael bite down on his soft skin. He was leaving a hickey on Jeremy's neck to mark him as his own. 

     "Mine. Not the Squip's. Can he hear that? Jeremy. is. mine." He said the last part in between kisses against Jeremy's soft lips, still tasting the faint vanilla. 

     "Y-yours..." Jeremy managed to squeak out, blushing again as he cuddled into Michael's arms.

     "Hey Jeremy?"

     "Yea?"

     "Do you want to move to the bed because the floors kinda... Hard?" Michael said with a smirk.

     "D-Did you just...?" 

     "Yea..." Michael scooped Jeremy up bridal style and carried him to the bed, plopping him down and then lying next to him. Jeremy quickly cuddled into Michael's grip, closing his eyes as he leant against his chest. Michael pressed his lips to his forehead before drifting off slowly to sleep with Jeremy in his arms.

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a.n: haha i love be more chill and i needed another gay one shot book! hope you enjoy lol this is bad