A/n Sorry...this has some self harm and suicide stuff so if your sensitive to this type of stuff please don't read

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Tears fall down. They couldn't be stopped. They just kept on falling. He couldn't hold them back. Drowning on  the memories. Jonathan felt his body become numb. He lost all senses and the tought of not having his lover besides him killed him, slowly. Evan was gone and there's nothing he could do about it. Evan was slipping away. Loneliness ate jonathan, inside out. He was going crazy. Insane. He was becoming delirious.

He was fighting for one more day. Just one. One more day to spend with the person that gave him life. The person that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. The depression took over his body and his life crumbled down. Love turns to ashes and it dissolves in the air. It pops like bubbles on the sky. It melts like ice cubes on a sunny day. He was losing all control. He was losing his life. Painfully and slowly.

He would die to be where evan was. He would try to be where he was. But ofcores that's impossible.

Every night. He would dream evan was still there. It was a beautiful nightmare.

The ghost by his side. So perfect, so clear. When jonathan wakes up, evan would disappear, like smoke, back to the shadows with all jonathan holds dear. He dreams he was still here but  ofcores, even if he prays, evan won't come back. It wasn't a lie, it was just the hard truth. Lonely and depressed, jonathan lived. Or so he tought.

He tried his best but he just didn't see the light on the dark room.

No one was ment to be lonely and jonathan knew that, but he was just to busy being Evan's to fall for somebody new.

But ofcores he could always dream.

A  Crimson red color covered both his arms and stomach.

He wanted evan back. But ofcores that's wasn't gonna happen. Pride and honor won over his actions. Leaving the person he loved behind for his image.

The color drained out of his body, turning him into a light grayish white-ish color. His eyes where a silver blue color and they had no sparks to them. His lips where cut and  dry.

His hair was a mess and it became longer/puffy. He was a mess. The pain was way to much. Getting evan back was never gonna come true.

Evan had a new life. A fresh start, while jonathan gets stuck in the past.

Jonathan couldn't keep up the battle. He wanted to let go.

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Evan couldn't stand not knowing how jonathan was doing.

Did he forget about him?

Did he find someone knew?

Does he still live him?

Evan runs to his house and knocks. The door wasn't close and he just welcomed himself in. He ran upstairs and searched. He searched downstairs and found no one.

Realization hit him. When ever jonathan was sad he would go to the dock at the beach. Just to hear the sound of the water crash against the shore.

Evan runs out the house and runs towards the docks. He runs and runs with one thing clouding his thoughts. Jonathan. His soft brown hair, His smile, his crazy laugh, and his beautiful eyes.

With that he kept on running.

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Jonathan stands on the edge of the dock. With the heavy rock pressed against his chest. He trembles as he tries to keep his balance. The Rock was way to heavy and he couldn't keep it up much longer.

The Rock was connected with a rope and that rope was connected to his neck.

Ones he let's go of the rock. Everything will end. But ofcores, once you end it, you pass that depression to someone else.

And that someone was evan.

Evan finally got to the docks. His breathe was uneven. His heart was beating harshly. His cheeks tinted pink.

He searches for the love of his life until he sees him standing there.

His pupils shrink and evan runs.

To evan the dock got longer and it seemed impossible for evan to reach jonathan.

Evan wanted to call out for him but his throat whent dry. He couldn't speak. He couldn't call put for him.

Jonathan takes one last deep breath and whispered his last words. "I love you evan"

Evan finally swallowed that knot in his throat and screams.

To bad it didn't reach jonathan in time. He let's go of the rock and the rock sinks to the oceans depth dragging Jonathan's body along with it.

Evan cries and screams. He finally gets to the end of the dock and looks down. The water was dark and he couldn't see nothing. He stays there for 3 seconds trying to look for him but nothing was able to be seeing.

The last thing jonathan sees before he closes his eyes was the light getting darker and darker.  His hand was trying to hold on onto that light but there was no use.

Jonathan sees how everything goes dark slowly. Evan finally gets the courage and jumps inside. He could   barely see Jonathan's hand and he swims as fast as he could toward him.

Jonathan opens his eyes and sees evan reaching for him.

Jonathan let's go of his last breathe and slowly fades away.

Evan could feel him slipping. He could feel him slipping away.

Jonathan disappears back to the shadows. With all evan holds dear.

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Evan wishes and dreams he could be next to the man of his life.

Every night he dreams he was still here. The ghost by his side. So perfect and clear. But just like that day.

"I feel you slipping....I feel you slipping away"

End