A/n play the song when I tell you and another thing......I really hope that fame doesn't get into there head cause...that would suck...and I feel...like the fame got into Evan's head cause...he doesn't say thank you for hitting a mile stone and there's a lot of things he stopped doing now...and it kinda sucks when youtubers get lost into that type of stuff cause they forget why they do the things they do when they first started...yea it makes us laugh and shit but now it feels...different. I might be wrong but ya know...it just feels like that...it really hope I'm wrong doe...enjoy

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Delirious pov

"I finally got home...why can't we jus' hang out? Jus' be alone with are friends inside, jus' us" I said. "It will be just us, truest me will have fun" He said patting me in the back. I sigh and git on the car. 'Knowing evan he would invite a shit load of people to my house and party until we have bags under are eyes...' I said to myself.

"You should be happy man! You just hit 15 million subscribers and you did a face reveal and they all said you look hot and sexy...shit not everyone gets all does complements and besides"evan paused and smiled at me "we are getting richer every time just by sitting infront of a fuckin' computer, easy life!" Evan laughed. I frowned and looked at him. "Y'know...is think you changed evan..." I said. "What do you mean?" He asked. "Waddo I mean? I mean that before numbers ment nothing to you and how you did it for fun, now your doing this for the money..." I confessed. "Your talking nonsense jonathan, maybe that airplane flight to England fucked you up" he laughed. I rolled my eyes and looked out the window. 'This is not the evan I feel in love with 4 years ago...' I said to myself.

Time skip

"Come on jonathan" evan said while opening the door for me. "You'll have a great time with us" he said. I took a deep breath and walked upstairs. I then felt something warm on my ass. I yelped and turned around to see evan smirking. "Nice ass~" he said. I faked smiled and playedfully rolled my eyes at him. "What ever evan~" I said.

I opened the door to my house and then the lights when on and I was welcomed home by a bunch of people from YouTube. "SURPRISE! And happy birthday" They all yelled. I stared at all of the people and I faked smiled. I waved at all the people in my house and 'smiled' for the camara's. 'You liar evan...we where not gonna be alone like you said...we where gonna have a mob of assholes in my house' I growled as I smiled. After I got inside everyone said welcome and congratulations. I smiled and they started to put on music. I cringed but still kept a smile on my face. I pulled evan and wispered. "Im going to the restroom..." I said. He smiled and nods. I sigh and walked inside my room. I closed the door and walked into my bathroom. "Surprise! Surprise! Another day of turn up...." I said to myself.

(Play the song now)

I looked at myself In the mirror and saw someone different. "This is not me...this was never how I wanted my life to go..." I said. I splashed water in my face and dried myself up. "You'll be okay delirious..." I said out loud.

Ooooh it's just me, myself and I, so solo ride until I die cause I, got me for life (yea) ooooh I don't need a hand to hold even when the night is cold I got that fire in ma soul.

I fixed my hair and put some colon on. I walked outside my room and ones I closed my door I saw people drinking and talking. I felt my lungs burning from all the damn smoke and my mouth went dry. Some looked at me and smiled. "Ay! Congrats delirious! If you keep it up your gonna catch up to Mr. Canasian~" my friend Jesse said. "Haha y-yea, thanks bro for uh- coming" I said. He gave me a thumbs up and a smirk. I smiled and walked away. I didn't even move a damn feet before someone else came and talked to me. "Hey there jonathan~ mind showing me your place a little?~" Elizabeth flirted. 'Fuckin' slut get the fuck outta of my way' I said to my self. "I would love to but I need to go get something" I said and I pushed her out of my way gentle. I got to the stairs and I saw more people talking there.

Ooooh it's just me, myself and I, so solo ride until I die cause I, got me for life (Got me for life) ooooh I don't need a hand to hold even when the night is cold I got that fire in ma soul. I don't need anything to get me threw the night except for the beats that's in my heart that it's keeping me alive. I don't need anything to get me satisfied (you know) cause the music gets me good and it gets me everytime

I walked down stairs and I see people smiling at me. I smiled back "what is up everybody!?" I said. "Yo yo yo! Delirious ma man how's it going?" Scotty said. "You know what it is Scotty!" I said making him laugh. "Welcome home delirious" he said. "Thanks" I said. I pat him on the shoulder and smiled. "Gotta go Scotty! Ma people need me" I said amd walked away. "Now where's evan- oh shit sorry bro- TYLER!?" I asked surprised. "Haaaaaaay! Delirious what's up?!" He said. I been good and hows life in Indiana?" I asked. "Indiana? Fuck that place! There a bunch of fuckboys! I'm living with mini in California now and let me tell you how crazy the fan girls went, me and mini where thinking of making a shirt of both of us and selling it out! Imagen how much damn money that would make?!" I half smiled "yea"

Ooooh it's just me, myself and I, so solo ride until I die cause I, got me for life (Got me for life) ooooh I don't need a hand to hold even when the night is cold I got that fire in ma soul. I don't need anything to get me threw the night except for the beats that's in my heart that it's keeping me alive (keeps me alive) I don't need anything to get me satisfied (you know) cause the music gets me good an it gets me everytime lik' Pa-pa-pa-pa-da-pa
pa-pa-pa-da-pa
Pa-pa-pa-pa-da-pa (2X)
Cause the music feels me good and it get me, everytime

♡♡
E

arlier with delirious (when he was in the bathroom)

I wasn't gonna come out at all and wait till the party was over but I guess that wouldn't be fair if evan did this for me. I then remembered how they where singing happy birthday to me. I faked smiled again and sang. "Haaapy birthday tooooo delirious!" I looked at myself In the mirror and saw another me glaring at me. "I can't take you seriously right now" the other me said. "like for real let's talk about this, you want it this, you singed up for this right when you made that youtube chanel" he said. I rolled my eyes and groaned. "All this people are here to see you! For coming back from a trip, for your birthday and your complaining?" The other me asked. "You don't know man" I said. "Your being a little bitch 'ight now, quite being a littl' hoe" the other me said. Then I turn to my right and I see another me opening the door. "What are you all doing in here' there's a party over here" the me on the door said. I growled and warned. "You shut the fuck up" the two me's laughed and mocked me. "If I wasn't making videos no one would be here" they laughed. "Quite fuckin' talking to me like that! You don't fuckin' get it" I snapped. "You wanted this to happen you wanted to be recognized! Don't you forge'!" The me in the mirror said. "You asshole" the me on the door said. "Happy birthday jonathan" my voice cracked.

Ooooh it's just me, myself and I, so solo ride until I die cause I, got me for life (Got me for life) ooooh I don't need a hand to hold even when the night is cold I got that fire in ma soul. I don't need anything to get me threw the night except for the beats that's in my heart that it's keeping me alive (keeps me alive) I don't need anything to get me satisfied (you know) cause the music gets me good an it gets me everytime lik' Pa-pa-pa-pa-da-pa
pa-pa-pa-da-pa
Pa-pa-pa-pa-da-pa (2X)
Cause the music feels me good and it get meee, everytime

I finally found evan and he was talking to his ex sydney. I stopped and froze as sydney got closer to evan. He gave her one of his famous smirks and she connected there lips. I was crushed already knowing that all my friends forgot that we did youtube for fun and now my boyfriend just kissed her ex. I growled and glared. I had enough. I singed my arm making all the glass cups fall to the floor. All the people in the kitchen looked at me. Evan pushed sydney of off him and looked at me with wide eyes. "Surprise~" I laughed. I graved my pot and my pipe. I took a drink and and laughed. I jumped down my window form my balcony and walked towards my car. I turned around to see evan looking for me. "Fake...." I said. I light up my pipe and took a hit. I got in my car and took of. I went threw the free way and kept on drinkin', taking hits, fuckin' crying while I was driving. Shit I was multi-tasking.

Maybe the other me's would like to take over my place. I went to my special place. I went inside and drove in circles while screaming. I let all my anger out here. I graved bottles and threw them on the walls of the buildings. I finished all the beer and drinks from the car and all my weed was all smoked. I was super high high and drunk. I threw rocks and tried to hit the bottles but I couldn't. I was too high and drunk. I started to laugh. I then graved my knife and I tried to open it but it was to hard. So I used my left up to help me but ones it open it cut me. I gasped as I saw the red liquid drip down my arm. I then heard another car come in but in didn't dare to look back. Clean my arm with my face and clothes but it just wouldn't stop. "Shiiiiiit" I said while laughing. "Jonathan!" I heard two males yelled. I quickly turned around and threw my knife. I got up but my mind was getting blurry. "Jonathan! It's me luke! And evan is here too!" He said. "FUCK YOU AND EVAN!" I yelled. I fell back and my back hit all the bottles making then brake on my back. "Call the ambulance!" I heard luke yelled. "Delirous you idiot!" Luke said while running towards me. He hugged me and I graved him and kissed him. "I hate and love you both...with all my heart!" I smiled. I coughed and evan gasped. "Yes! I need am ambulance in the old park that no one goes to"

Luke kissed me and he ran his hand all over my body. I couldn't feel anything. "Oh man I always wanted to run my hands down your body..." he wispered. "Take me" I said but I knew in my head I wasn't gonna make it. It was hard for me to breath. Evan ran to my other side. "Im won't let you touch my jonathan! His mine!" Evan yelled. "You didn't take care of him" I groan and wispered. "Just....kiss me both of you" they did as I told them "and if they asked....who I'm it of to you tell them I belong to both of you...promise me that!" I yelped. "Yes..." they said. "I love you both....but hate you too " I smiled.

"Its....just......me.................myself..........................and....i" I wispered and then darkness.

A/n 2166 words! Well now there's gonna be more but fuck it sorry for any mistakes!