Don't let them tell you, you ain't beautiful

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No matter what way Jonathan saw it, it was just a mess. They asked for it right? They wanted a face reveal and that's what Jonathan gave them. He learned that, you can't please everyone. He wasn't like people described him. He wasn't like people made him look like, he was someone completely different. He did have brown hair but it was a little longer. It was short and it wasn't too long. He was a tan color and his eyes didn't shine, they where just a normal color blue. He was short and had facial hair and had long thin lips. Nothing special. He looked like a normal guy. So why where people bringing him down for that?

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"Guys...I'm calling quits" Delirious said. "Sure man, cya" vanoss said. "Bye fuck face!" Tyler yelled as a joke. The guys laughed at the joke except moo and delirious. Delirious gasped and covers his mouth. "Del-?" Moo tries to call for the male but then saw the corner of his computer screen and sighs.

H20 Delirious disconnected

"Was it something I said?" Tyler asked. "Yes, yes it was" Moo said. Moo disconnects and calls delirious.

"Please answer" Moo whispered.

Sometimes he asks himself, how did he get into the position he got into?
Delirious just stays on his computer chair and sighs. He won't cry, cause there's no reason to cry. He never self-harmed because he just didn't find the point of it and he just brushed off the insults, but deep down it was hurting him. "Maybe I should take a brake like I always do"

*ring ring*

Delirious looks down at his computer screen and he sighs. He clicked answer and moo appeared on the screen. He puts his Camara screen and smiles. "Hey man-" "Are you okay?"

Delirious does a little sound that sounded like a laugh and looks at moo. "You know me too well~"

"Talk to me, what's up-" Moo said. Delirious shortly pauses and sighs his a weak smile. Moo noticed that forced smile and waits patently for delirious to say something.

"Sometimes I wish people can be in my shoes. Just to see what is like to be me"

Moo bites the inside of his lip and looks at the broken man. "I'll be you, let's trade shoes, Just to see what it'd be like to feel your pain" Delirious' breathe hitched and he looked at moo.

"Go inside each other's minds, look at shit through each other's eyes. But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful"

Delirious had watery eyes and Brock just smiled. Jonathan let's go of that strong man act and brakes down. "Just stay true to you" Moo whispered.

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Delirious takes a brake. A brake from delirious and just be jonathan. He bumps into a few old friends and they asked him to go to a restaurant with them. Jonathan shrugged and goes with them. "You look different jonathan, you changed" a man said. Jonathan just smiled and forces a laugh. "Yea" Jonathan answered "same goes for you guys"

He feels gloomy and bumped out but still tries to act normal and not just a weird depressed growm man. He feels so tense and uneasy. Maybe it wasnt a good idea to go if he feels like this. Ones he opens the door to the restaurant all eyes go on him and he gulps. He walks ahead and avoids any eye contact. They sit down and talked. Talked about random nonsense ad hangs they did back then. Jonathan tries to crack a few funny and unfunny jokes for the hell of it making everyone laugh, even though he knew they weren't even funny. He feels stupid staying in a group that he met a long time ago but still knew who he was. He was a total stranger, but they didn't mind. They might feel awkward but one thing was for sure. He was feeling uneasy and unwanted.

"Jonathan your so funny man, you should be a comedian, God damn!"

Jonathan smiles "unfortunately I am" he then looks at the window and sighs. "I just hide behind the tears of a clown"

"What do you mean jonathan?" The girl next to him asked. "I entertain, I amuse people"

"What do you do?"

"...I'm a YouTuber"

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Brock knocks on the wooden door and holds his breathe. Jonathan groans and walks towards the door. "Who is it?"

"Early bird" Brock said slowly.

Delirious chocked on his air and quickly opened the door. He looks at Brock in the eye and laughs. Brock felt bad.

Was he laughing at him?

Jonathan pulls him in and hugs him. Brock gasp but still wrapped his arms around the shorter yet older man. "Oh Brock-"

"Can I tell you something?"

"S-sure"

Brock pulls himself closer and puts his lips close to delirious ear making him shiver. "Don't let them say your beautiful"

Delirious eyes widen and he tried to pulled away but Brock hugs tighter. "I can see right thru you jonathan, I know your broken because your not the way they tought you where"

Delirious sobs and keeps trying to pull away but there was no use on doing that now. "I think your beautiful. Inside and out, without or with tattoos, with plugs or without them. With and without everything they said" Brock said. Delirious gives in and holds onto Brock for dear life. "B-brock" Delirious whispered. "I-it...it hurts" Delirious sobbed and cried into Brock's shoulder.

"I know, I know delirious. I can imagen how much it can affect you and I whish we could trade shoes...I wear 10's let's see if they can feet your feet" Brock teased. Jonathan chuckles and smiles at Brock's dorky attitude.

Brock picks him up slightly, making delirious feet brush of the floor. "But, I need to tell you something..."

"Hmm"

"Just remember that they gave us this shoes because they know how much we can handle...be yourself. Be proud of who you are, and even if it sounds corny....don't let anyone tell you....you ain't beautiful"

Delirious pulls away and looks at Brock. Brock still holds onto delirious hips as he raices him up a little more. Delirious smiles and leans in. Brock was shocked but kissed almost immediately. They kissed like if they where sending each other's emotions into each other's body. Delirious pulls away slowly and tries to catch his breath but Brock graved delirious by his back thighs and makes him wrap his legs around his body. He pulls him back into a kiss and walks inside. Pushing the door and leaving his bag outside, without a care in the world.