A/n: Requested by @Winter5587, hope you enjoy^^

Ps. It's a sad one, I tried to lighten it up but it seemed to make it sadder;; sorry xD

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Jonathan had tears falling down his face, his messy hair falls back onto the pillow that was holding his head up underneath him. He clinches onto his phone and presses it closer to his chest. Million of things destroying his brain but they all went back to one thing. Luke.

He lifts the phone up and sees his eyes again. Beautiful soft brown eyes that holds so much love, care and respect. More and more tears fall off and he touches the screen. Running his fingers to swipe left to see another picture of him. The cheeky smile and his dark shades he always had on when he went driving or just to go outside. He sobs loudly and someone opened the door, "Jonathan...." Evan whispered as he sees his friend crying in pain. Jonathan shakes his head and curls himself up as Evan came closer to him. Evan sits down on the end of the bed and reaches forward to touch him and jonathan let's him.

"Sooner or later it's over...." He whispered to him and jonathan suddenly lifts himself up and evan reaches for him and they hug.

And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'll understand. When everything is made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.

They had a funeral right after everything was done and settled. Jonathan payed for almost everything even though the family refused (but were thankful), he did it anyways, because luke was everything to him and he only wanted the best of everything for him, even after his death.

He cries a river as the rain was pouring over his head. He was crushed by all of this and everyone knew it, they were close, too close and the people around understood why he had to leave when they started talking about how much luke ment to them cause they can only imagen how much he had to say but didn't want to speak cause he was too weak to do so.

And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'll understand. When everything is made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.

Loosing you're best friend was hard, loosing a family member was difficult, loosing you're spirit is worse and loosing that fighting stamina you had inside that kept you going thru all this year's was horrible. Everything was coming crushing down and his shoulders couldn't keep up that much weight. He looses himself and usually he was there to give him that extra push or the lift he needed to continue on his journey, but now what? He lost everything. His friend, his best friend, his partner in crime, his crush, his first true love, his soul mate, his lover. 

What now?

Who will he continue out his journey for? Who will give him that push that he needs when everyone is pulling him down?

Nobody. Cause no one will ever love him like he did. Cause no one will support and encourage him like he once did. They won't understand. No one will, but just for him, he will continue. He will go on, cause that's what luke would want after all. He would probably shove him and tell him "What the fuck? I thought I taught you better then that" and hug him until he got his senses back. Jonathan could feel his presents, he could feel the warmth around his shoulders and that killed him inside but made him happy somehow. "I love you..." Jonathan mumbles as he hugs himself and cries until he felt asleep on his couch.

I miss you. More then you can imagen.

But jonathan couldn't comprehend that until he has lost it. He was selfish and things flew over his head so quickly. He wasn't aware of the things that happened around him so not having luke wake up in the morning with coffee and sleepy eyes while petting his cat was weird and sad. Jonathan doesn't feel the warmth at night in bed when NC got cold. At least he has luke's cat but she won't live forever as well.

"Bummer" Luke would probably tease but now no one will tease him. It was weird and jonathan wasn't use to it, not yet at least. But everything has his limits, he can't feel depressed all the time because that's not who and how he is. He will move with a help of all of his friends, yes it hurts but jonathan is strong and with his army at side, he will never loose. He will fight and continue to move forward, no matter what.

And I don't want the world to see me, Cause I don't think that they'll understand. When everything is made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'll understand. When everything is made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am... I just want you to know who I am, I just want you to know who I am, I just want you to know who I am.....

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A/n Sorry for any mistakes :( but I do hope you enjoy this sad delitoonz^^