Pov  Dipper.

I don't care what Bill is. He's my friend and I don't wanna lose that. He's the only person that I'm comfortable talking with. He doesn't seem that bad. I don't care what they say about Bill.

I see Mabel and I frown. I know I'm I'm trouble. We walked back to the shack in slicent.
Once she opened the door I ran up stairs and locked my door. Once I closed the door I sat down. My back was against the door and my knees were up to my chest. 

I've missed up.
What was I thinking?

"W-What was I thinking? " I said out loud.

I'm paranoid right now . I could just imagine what they're going to do to me. So what I get for sticking up for myself, sticking up for other. 

I just feel so alone , I just feel so afraid. I don't know what to feel anymore. I don't have any happy emotions, I'm just so scared.

" why did they even come here." I said tearing up.

Someone was aggressively knocking the door. I was so scared to speak, I couldn't even move at this point. I slowly scooted away from the door. The door opened and I see Ford.

I feel like my heart's beating out of my chest. I can barely breathe, I'm just shaking and shaking. Ford quickly closes a door and locks it.

"F-Ford I-I c-can explain. " I stuttered.
" You're such an idiot Dipper! Do you know how dangerous he is." Ford yelled.

I got up and looked at him .

" maybe I don't know how dangerous he is, but you have to understand that you can change. I don't care what he's like. He's nice to me and I couldn't ask for anything else. He accepted me as his friend and I don't care what you say!"
" you don't even know him! You don't know what he's done to this town. I don't care if you think he good you're not seeing him!" Ford said.
" shut up ! I don't care-" I yelled.

I I wasn't finished with my sentence and he slapped me across the face. I looked at him and the flashbacks came back so fast.

" Your an obnoxious piece of shit! " he said.
". . ." I didn't answer.
" I know what he's capable of. You don't know what I'm capable of, so you better watch your tone with me." Ford said.

He grabbed me by my collar and pulled me closer to him. I've never been this scared of someone before. He punched me in the stomach and dropped me. I was on the floor letting the tears escape my eyes.

"your never going to understand." Ford said kicking me in the stomach.
". . ." I just looked at him with tears.
"You better not see Bill again. If you do I'll fucking hurt you. " Ford said.
"h-he was r-right..." I whimpered.
"Don't even mention him. " Ford yelled.

He kicked me once more. I started to bleed and I just laid there.

"If you tell anyone about this even your sister I'll hurt them. " Ford said.

Nodded yes while sobbing. He unlocked the door and left. He closed and locked be door from the outside. I crawled to my bed and sat up.

I went to my drawers and took out the blade.

"for being useless,  for being stupid, for being here,  for being myself...."

I pushed the blade deeper into my skin and cried. This was all my fault. It's always my fault.

"for them not knowing. " I said

The blood was running down my wrist to the floor.

Timeskip. 

It's been a few days, but it feel like months to me. I've been sneaking out threw the window. I get caught everyday. I don't care. This happened every single day now. I'm getting bruises all over my body and sometimes my face.

I don't know how much longer I can take it. I'm worthless.

I'm a stand by
I'm nothing
I'm broken
I'm a defeated
I'm not worth fighting for
I'm not a fighter
I'm weak
I'm hopless
It's my fault
I have these battle scars....

I can't even fight the monster anymore. I'm losing the wars, the battles. Everything. 

Everyday's the same day. Wake up, get beat, cut,  stay inside my room, get hurt once again, cut,  Sneak out,  come back,  get beat, cut and stay in bed.

Sometimes I try not to get caught but I always do. I'm with Mabel in my room. She talking about guys and other things.

"Dipper how's Gravity falls?  " Mabel asked
"G-Good. " I said.
"What do you think of our grunkles? " Mabel asked.
"There g-great. " I lied.
"That's good. " She smiled.
". . ."

After that I was thinking about something else. I wonder what Bill is doing? Maybe his demon type things. I've learned things about Bill and he's a pretty interesting guy. I realize the color of his eyes have changed little bit. The stories that Mabel told me about him don't seem true at all.

He told me stories of what he's done in his life . Like how he explore the world, how he defeated others and how he ended up here. The stories are so fascinating to hear. Almost everything he says is amusing to me and mesmerizing.

I don't know why sometimes I get mesmerized by the way he talks or his eyes. You could get lost looking into them. His golden eyes are just wonderful.  The way he comforts me when I feel sad or scared. The way we both laugh at each others dumb jokes.

" Dipper are you even listening to me?" Mabel said.
"W-What?" I said.
"what did I just says." Mabel said.
"umm.... You like someone? " I said.
"your good. " Mabel said.
"I was guessing. " I said.
" So do you like anyone? " Mabel asked.
" um... " My face grew a bright red for some reason.
"  you do like someone!" Mabel said.
"I-I d-don't." I said while blushing even harder.
"who is it. " Mabel asked.
"I-I'm not telling you. "I stuttered.
"Come on, please. " Mabel said.
"N-No" I stuttered.

The whole time Mabel was annoying me.

Pov Bill

I've been seeing pinetree more often. I've grown a liking to him. He's a pretty good meatsacks. I still hate how the human body needs certain things to survive. Fucking hate this.

Pinetree has been acting odd. Pinetree became more slienct over time. I'm getting worried. We've been talking to each other more. We've been through things together over these weeks.

He's my best friend at this point, right?  I hate these fucking meatsacks feelings. There so annoying. I'm going to visit pinetree . I don't care if they hate me. I feel like I need to be here for him. There's something going on and I need to find out.

I'm having a bad feeling. I don't like it.

Pov No-one

At the time Mabel left the room and Dipper was all alone. Not knowing that Ford heard their conversation. A minute after Mabel left Ford came rushing in. Dipper terrified of what he was going to do. Then he realized what did he do?

Today Dipper did nothing wrong he didn't go outside ,he didn't do anything without his permission, he just stay in his room talking to Mabel. He didn't think of him hearing the conversation that they. Dipper just sat there and Terror looking at his great-uncle. Dipper was praying to himself that he wasn't going to get hurt.

Then reality smacked Dipper across the face. He knew it. There wasn't going to be some knight in shining armor waiting to save him.

(*cough cough * Bill*cough cough)
Had to do that.

At a time Bill was thinking about his choices of what he was going to do. He was sitting under a tree where the opening was of the clear sky and the flowers. Bill decide to go visit Dipper and ask him what was really wrong. 

Bill  knows his answer was going to be "I'm fine, don't worry ,I'm okay" Bill saw right under that smile he was screaming for help. He didn't care if Dipper said he was alright, he knew he wasn't.

Dipper was sitting on his bed looking up at Ford. Ford looked at Dipper and slammed the door shut locking it. Dipper was filled with anxiety at this point not knowing what he was going to do to him this time. Ford face was bright red in anger.

" I heard your fucking conversation you moron." Ford yelled.
"I-I d-don't know what your t-talking about. " Dipper stuttered in fear.
" Don't fucking play with me. I know what I heard." Ford yelled.

What they didn't know that Mabel was hearing everything. Mabel was too scared to walk in, she was frozen in her place. 

" I know you're fucking hiding something and you better tell me." Ford yelled.
"I-I'm not telling you. " Dipper said
"you better fucking tell me. "Ford said grabbing Dippers shirt.
" I'm not going to tell you anything." Dipper said looking away.

Ford slapped Dipper hard across the face leaving a mark. He threw him on the floor and kicked him several times. Dipper wasn't crying out for help he was holding everything in. He knew that knows on save him, why bother yell or scream for help?

" Your a fucking disappointment, you know that right? " Ford said smiling.
" what do you do this to me? " he mumbled while tears formed around his eyes.
" I know everything about you. Your mother explain to me how sad you were. It's pathetic that she raised someone like you. Even Mabel told me how you have depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Might as well teach you a lesson. " Ford laugh silently.

Instead of walking in and saving her brother, she went to her room and pretended like nothing happened. Mabel was tempted to grab the memory gun and erase that memory. She didn't and went to find grunkle Stan to help. She knew she wasn't strong enough to fight grunkle Ford. She did know that Grunkle Stan was strong enough to beat the shit out of Ford.

Bill had a really bad feeling and he went running to the shack. He was thinking of what was happening to his poor pine tree.  The feeling worse and worse by the second. Bill was feeling worried. Anxious at this point, trying to calm down and telling him that he's going to make it, he's going of help pine tree.

" she told you." Dipper said looking at Ford.
" of course she did. I never gave sympathy to you. I never even liked you, I don't know why Mabel brought you here. " Ford said.

Dipper didn't speak at this point. He felt pain everywhere and felt emotionally unstable. He was thinking of how useless he was, how weak he was, how broken he was and how worthless he was.  
Ford looked at Dipper and laughed.

Dipper finally had the guts to sick up for himself. He didn't feel bad at all. Dipper wanted to get away from this nightmare once and for all.