He stared at me, breathing heavily without blinking his eyes, his eyes filled with arousal, and his lips, wet by my saliva, his hairs messed he was too a mess created by me, heavy ragged breath his chest rising and falling, i want him to infect me with his love,right now.

Want him to love me intensely and roughly, want him to abuse me in the filthiest way, and do every dirty thing with me that he could, kiss me, rip my dress off him, suck me over, bite me over, mark me his.

The most unholy thoughts am getting just by site of him, staring at me, my eyes locked with his. And both of us undressing eachother with the eyes, standing few feets apart we both were waiting, for a kick start, something that can take us to what we want.

Love making? Fucking? Sex?

I can't hold back the arousal and clenched my thighs biting my lips, and that was the kick start as he approached me, and wrapped his fingers around my throat lightly making me realise the hold of my lip i had between my teeth, he sucked both my lip, while i pushed myself toward him, the feeling driving me crazy, wetting me all over, my undie dripping with my arousal and my need for him.

He dropped his hand on my shirt as he undid the buttons, while i straightened my hands allowing him to remove my shirt at once.

"Fuck" he cursed against my lip, breaking the kiss, and stepped back.

Staring at me, exposed for him, in just a black lacy bra coveting my upper body.

He shakes his head" wear the shirt mon amour, this is not a right place to do such things...the office has camera everywhere"he said eyeing at the cctv camera behind his back on the top.

"And probably the guards are enjoying a very good porn show, probably jerking off thinking them in place of me...and i don't want them to do that"he said, i bit my lip, in embarrassment as i tried to cover my bare body.

He sighed and stood infront of me , "i am covering you... don't worry bout that i know the angle...just wear the shirt and let's leave...and continue this at our home"i nodded, picking up the shirt.

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"a penny for your thoughts"he said bringing me out of the thoughts and my staring at him session, i didn't realised i was staring at him, until his voice hit my ears. I blinked at him.

"What?"

"What are you thinking"he said, i straightened up on my seat and said "nothing", completely lying to him, i was thinking some thing, something like do i deserve him and his forgiveness, no matter how much i say to myself i wanna earn his forgiveness.

One part of me is still scared that i am gonna hurt him again, and don't deserve him or his forgiveness, that I'm  gonna just hurt him again. But i do wish i could gain his forgiveness, just once ,  i want all the awkwardness fly away between us like it never existed. But i don't know how to say, how to ask for it.

I am just scared.

"Stop lying mon amour, i know you were thinking something" he said and looked at me

"now tell me mon amour what were you thinking" his authorative voice, melted all the wall of hesitation from my heart , as i blurted out "i wish you could forgive me"i gulped the lump in my throat and chose to continue as the speed of car slowed nd his hand tracing my palm went still, " i wish i could get another chance, for us" "i wish i deserved you and your forgiveness" i chuckled sardonically and shift my gaze to the windshield, my eyes tearing up with tears. I just wish, i could get his forgiveness and we could live normally.

But no, no matter how good i try to be towards him, everytime i see him the only pang that hits my gut is guilt. Fucking guilt

"Forgiveness... forgiveness is something Nandini even if i don't want to forgive you....my stupid heart already forgave you"he said softly brushing off my hairs falling on my forehead, i was so stunned to react or move, i was frozen!

Yes frozen is the correct word, my face ashen, thing i was craving for is here in front of me, was it that easy?

Or is he too good and kind to forgive me, a feeling of happiness rushed through me, thinking about that he forgave me. My eyes teared up immediately, as i stared at him without blinking with tearful eyes.

He sighed as he looked at me in between driving, and probably noticed the tears, coz he parked the car at the side of the road. And turned towards me, i was still dazed am i dreaming? If yes then please don't wake me up, lemme live here happily, let him look at me with those loving eyes, the love i never deserved, i stared at him when he asked me "what's on your mind mon- amour"the tears build even more, i love it when he calls me that, i loved it always!!! It's the blissful feeling when someone calls you love or my love, especially the person you love, your heart will melt into water, that will flow down your stomach,tickling everywhere around, and the feeling is blissful.

He raised his brows gaining no answer, and i blinked at him.

"If it is a dream i don't want it to end"he rolled his eyes sarcastically.

"It's not a dream mon- amour"

"I don't deserve this forgiveness..."he frowned as he leaned on the chair staring at me, while i stared back at him.

He sighed and brought his hand upto my face, brushing his thumb on my cheek he starts

"Yes you do...my heart forgave you then definately you do, coz heart do what it feels, and it feels that you are worth everything"he said softly, and more , even more tears build up in my eyes.

"My love, my forgiveness, me you deserve everything Mon Amour and I'll make sure you'll get all of them"he said grazing his thumb staring deep into my eyes, it sounded like a promise, a promise he won't back out from, ever!

"Why are you so good"i sighed.

He chuckled"am i?....if you forgot am the one who killed your best friend and kidnapped you forcing you to marry me"he said pulling his hand away and taking his gaze up to the ceiling of the car, he blew a deep breath, while his finger tapped on the steering wheel anxiously.

"Stop lying Manik, i know Hadi is alive..."i said he looked at me with a frown, confused and blinked, flabbergasted.

"How do you-" i sealed his words in his mouth as i fused my lips on his, pouring the love i was feeling for him, all at once, his hand travelled up my hairs, while i climbed up upon his lap, deepening the kiss.

Within minutes i broke the kiss and looked at him breathing heavily.

"I am thankful your heart forgave me"i said unable to hide my smile.

" I am too thankful..it forgave u...."he said smoothing a hand on my back.

"but this time promise me u won't ever do such thing again or i"his tone sounded like he was petrified to lose me again, and a feeling of guilt washed over me again, ofcourse it is tough to trust once again, he gulped the lump and continued" or-i will die"

" I won't ever leave you again, kill me if i do"i said with determination, trying to comfort him as much as i could, but he shakes his head, as he landed his lips on mine before murmuring " i won't ever do that"

I bought my hands up to his face, promising him through my kiss to stay by his side forever, it was deep- intense- passionate -promising and filled with only one thing that is love, no lust no sucking, our lips were just resting against each other, eyes closed and tears flowing, that was the moment i realised.

True love does exist.

And i have fallen horribly with this person.