As a major fan of BAP, it was amazing that I could meet them and stay in contact with them. In a very short period of time, I became really close with them and loved them even more than I did.

After much persuasion, the company finally allowed us to go on a trip without any managers. We were on a road trip towards nowhere as we drove along a highway. All you could see out of the window was just the same thing over and over again. Trees, trees and more trees. But I loved nature and it helped me relieve some of my stress.

We were in a 8-seater Jeep. Junhong and Jongup was at the backseat, Daehyun and YoungJae were in the middle with me and Yongguk and Himchan were at the front.

Himchan kept on playing with the music knob trying to figure out how to change the music while Yongguk smiled at the sight of the confused diva and continued to drive. They were unsurprisingly the parents of the group. Himchan took care and guided the others with so much care despite constantly teased by the rest. Yongguk gave really good advices and always took control. They really complemented each other and the team would not be as efficient as it was without one of the two.

Jongup and Zelo fell asleep and were both close to the point of cuddling each other. The two maknaes are always close to each other and are inseparable. Whenever you are looking for one of them, the other will be there too. I tried to not squeal at how adorable they were being and decided to take a photo of them.

Daehyun and I chatted about their upcoming comebacks and schedules when I noticed something out of place. Youngjae had been acting funny since we got in the car. He was quiet and not like his usual cheerful self. He solemnly stared out of the window with his sunglasses on.

The rest too noticed the weird atmosphere and tried to make jokes which he had little reactions to. Daehyun slowly grew more worried and even nudged me to try to cheer him up since I was closer to him then I was to the rest.

Youngjae and I were unexpectedly really similar. We both tend to bottle up out feelings to not bother people and also please everyone as much as we could. We had a lot in common so we easily grew close. Everytime we had something to rant about, we would tell each other. Even though we were both open to each other, I could still feel like he was hiding something from me.

Soon, we arrived at a isolated and huge pitstop.

Usually Youngjae would offer to get the snacks with Daehyun which Himchan would follow them and end up getting too much stuff. But this time it was different.

"I need to go to the washroom. I will be back." Youngjae said before walking off quickly to the toilet.

Being the constantly worried over-thinker I was, I immediately notified the others and followed him.

"Jae! Wait up!"

I walked as fast as I could to get beside him but he started running which caused me to sprint. As I got nearer to him, I grabbed his wrist to stop him.

"Hey.. Jae... why didn't.. you wait up.." I panted and tried to speak between my uneven breaths. As I looked up at him, it was then I noticed his red face and the tears streaming down his cheeks. He started weeping more uncontrollably and involuntarily shook more.

"Jae?! Are you alright? Shh everything is okay.. Try and take deep breaths it will help believe me okay? In out in out.."

Unfortunately, despite the good listener I was, I was always very bad at comforting people. As I patted on his back slowly and guided him, he noticeably calmed down a lot more.

After a few minutes, Youngjae finally stopped crying. He looked at me and mouthed a 'thanks' as if not trusting his voice. I picked him up, suddenly realising that we were somehow on the floor near the toilet, and walked him to wash his face thinking it was the best thing to do at that moment.

I passed him my makeup pouch and waited outside. When YoungJae came out, he looked as if nothing happened. With a smile on his face, he thanked me again. Hesistantly, I took my chance to ask him what was going on. He then took me to a nearby bench and settled me down.

That was when he told me everything. As I had mentioned, I knew for a while that he was feeling down and he always talked to me about it hut always leaving something important out.

This time, he finally told me the actual cause for everything - his feelings for his best friend.