(BEFORE THE DRAMA EVENT)

Continuous...

Ken and Eunkwang entered the enormous house. Eunkwang was the one who closed the entrance door, the cold breeze that came from outside rapidly chilled Eunkwang's uncovered neck. He was just wearing a shirt, longsleeves,jacket and a coat, with a pair of heavy pants, bonnet and a boots. Ken immediately sat on the couch, his body bounced when his butt landed on the couch quick. He removed his scarf and layed his head on the edge of the couch.
While Eunkwang held on his shoulder bag's strap and went straight to his room without glancing at Ken. Wiping off the sweat that he had gain. Aside from awkward situations, They were still not talking to eachothers. Whenever they had an eye contact, someone or both of them will break the gaze.

Eunkwang closed the door behind him as he slowly dragged himself towards the bed.

Eunkwang's POV

Going to, and dismissal from school, Ken would still ignore me. No talks, no messages, no calls and all the stuffs we used to do for the past years that we've been brother type Bestfriend, are all gone. Was it my fault? Did he already found out that i have a feelings for him or... did he just found out that his BI and he felt disgusted about it? Aish. Why did that thing happened anyway?!
I didnt wished for it. What i actually wanted was, him... to be happy. But it seems different now. The atmosphere around us became gloomy and dull.

I crawled on top sheet of my bed on where my pillow was. Then I grabbed the pillow and held it tightly as i felt my tears bursting out like i havent cried for a long time.
Why would it have to end up like this?
It didnt have to be like this.

Tightly embracing my pillow with my body curved up on the bed. I stretched out my arm and pin it on the bed sheet, pulling it with an anger feeling releasing all the mixed up emotions inside my burning heart. I kicked everything that was around that particular place, I punch the pillow in a hammer way still crying and sobbing. I wanted to scream to let it all out but i cant seem to choked out all those words that should HAVE come out EARLIER.

Ken I need you
Ken I'm sorry
Ken Stay with me
Ken ken stop ignoring me!
Please•Dont leave me unspoken...

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I was woken up by a high pitch tone that basically was speaking up to me. I opened my eyes and blinked for a couple of times, still adjusting the brightness.
When i already recovered from the adjustment, i can see Ken sitting next to me with a look that he used to show me whenever his worried.

Eunkwang: K-ken..? (Hoarse voice) (Shivering)

I tried to speak up but my throat was left dried and soar. When i was about to move, my neck started to hurt.

Eunkwang: Erk!

Ken: (Held Eunkwang's arm) Yah Yah Slowly! Don't force yourself to get up! Your fever havent decreases yet!

Fever? I am having a fever?... Since when? I gave Ken a shocked expression with my lips parted from eachothers. I remembered that I gain alot of sweat after i entered here even if it was cold outside.

Before i could feel another warm touch from Ken, I felt a freezing object planted flat on my forehead. I hold it and squeeze it to know what is it.

Ken: It's an ice pack. It helps to reduce your high temperature.

I nod and sigh.

Eunkwang: t-thank you..

I couldnt think of anything to say but, Thank you! I'm glad that we're talking right now.

Ken: (Short smile)

I smiled back.
Then ring. Ken's phone vibrated on the bedroom's drawer from where my lamp shade was kept.

Ken: Wait a second..

He showed a "wait" sign and picked up his phone.

Ken: Hello..

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Ken: Now?..

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Ken: Ah...

He looked at me like as if his asking a permission but he once again broke our eye contact.

Ken: (nodding) right.. i'll be there...

I'll be there?... Which means his, leaving... He's going to leave now...
He looked at me once again and lifted his hand approaching my head. He placed his palm on my forehead while he was gripping on my arm. I looked at him with confusion.
His face expression became more somber, i couldnt guess whats behind that joyless Ken. Whenever he blink there will be a sparkling thing hidden deep inside his retina. He gulped not until suddenly he gave a "Tsk." Hard sigh.
My eyes closed and my breathing stop for a second.

Ken: I'll be back...

I looked away and nodded. I'm speechless. I dont want him to leave, just yet.

He stood and left the room.
I sit up, concentrating on his footsteps. Is he really going to leave?..
Tud
Tud
Tud
Tu--

It stopped?
But thats just what i thought. He left afterwards.
I glide down on my bed again and my warm tears started to descend on my cheeks again. When will i stop doing this?.. i mean when will HE stop? I am getting tired! My days are just.. They are.. just...so dark..
I'm still waiting but my feelings are overwhelming on seeing the new Ken. I hate him. I hate his attitude and everything!
How can i get rid of these hates?
-sobbing-

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Ken's POV

Eunkwang hyung is having a fever. I couldnt bare to leave him like that but.. theres something i should do first that he got no idea about. I am having a middle class girlfriend from the other side of this town from the passed 2 weeks, i havent told Eunkwang about it because... of the thing happened before, that leads on a worst situation that i have never encountered. Thats why i decided to start putting a gap between us. And I felt like Eunkwang hyung doesnt feel the way i feel towards him. I tried to contact my own feelings and to re-a-sure that i really have an odd feelings at Eunkwang hyung and it always sent the same answer positive I really love him. I dont think that its just from the kiss scene that i started loving him. It all started from
Strangers~Aquintance~Friends~Close Friends~Classmates~Bestfriends~Brothers I'm not gay but i cant say if i am a guy either. The only thing thats marked on my mind and heart is my love for Eunkwang.
But it all shattered apart when i finally knew the reason that i should stop feeling this love for him. Its too dangerous.
Clockwise i cant control myself whenever i see him. I just wanna grab him and hug him or push him on the wall and started marking a kiss all over his top body (or his torso). And then I started to feel erect whenever his around. I kept controlling my self and to stop myself for dreaming about him or wanting him. Its... its obviously useless.. he doesnt love him and moreover its forbidden for him, to be happy. Aish!
I honestly dont care about what others say if they found out that i love him. The only thing that i wanna avoid is his disease. I dont want that thing to happened again. Its loosening my body grip. Its giving me weakness.

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(AT KEN'S GF'S PLACE)

Ken's POV
It was my first time coming over my girlfriend's house.
I parked my car and spotted my girlfriend standing next to a tree holding her phone at her side.
She smiled and waved at me.
I waved back and called out her name.

Ken: Joanna! (Smiling) why are you standing there?

Joanna: I was waiting for you! (Pouting)

Even though it kills me to love someone else but i still prefer taking the hardest way to avoid the worst way.
I walked forward towards Joanna and wrapped my arm around her as we started walking inside her house.

We were laughing and was exchanging jokes when a sudden impression came up to me.

N: Oh the boyfriend is h--?? KEN?!

Yes, just like what i said. It was the FIRST TIME.
I gasped when N hyung yelled my name. I quickly glanced at him. His eyes were triple wider than mine.

Joanna: Ah-Hyung! This is my boyfriend ^^

N: W-w-w-w-wha?! H-huuh?! (Was going to drop his jaw)

I placed my hand on my neck as i looked around avoiding the annoying hyung.

N: It cant be!

Joanna: What do you mean hyung?!

N: (shaking his head) I cant belive you bastard. Why didnt you told me earlier?! How could you keep a secret from your squad?! And why my sister?!

Ken: calm bro! I didnt know that she was your sister!

N: no!! Liar!!

Ken: "Childish as fuck" Calm down hyung.

Joanna: HyeongJe!

N: (stopped)

Joanna: Where's mom?...

N: She went somewhere..

Joanna: (sigh)

Ken: (Awkward)

Joanna: (glanced at Ken) Ken.. (smiling) let's go inside my room.. ^^

N: Tch. If you get pregnant it aint my fault kay?

Joanna: SHARAP!!! SHIRO-YO!

Ken: U-uh.. (Remembered Eunkwang) B-but i came here because you said you wanted something?..

Joanna: Yeah.. but lets talk about it later! Let's go (Grabbed Ken's hand)

Ken: (pulled back) N-no! I mean--can you tell me about it tomorrow? I'm kinda busy right now..

Joanna stared at me with no emotions on her face.

N: Let him go Joanna.. It's getting late now--if mom came back your doom.

Joanna: Ipdakchyeo!

(A/n: Ipdakchyeo; shut up (informal))

N: Dont curse at me!

Joanna: I wasnt cursing! Ugh!

Ken: Umm...

Joanna: Sorry.

Ken: I better leave, your hyung is right and Eunkwang is having a fever too.

Joanna: ...... so.... your taking care of him?

Ken: (nods)

Joanna: Oh...

Ken: Bye...

Joanna: Okay.

She lean forward and kissed me on the cheek as I gave N once last glance, Aish.. Im doomed tomorrow, he will spread this with everybody, I am not gonna let Eunkwang know about this.

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I sling my way back to the house. It's pretty late 1:05 am even though i was gone for like 45 minutes only. Eunkwang didnt even bother texting me or calling me to assure what's happening to him. I press my right foot on where the clutch was and slowly push it by my foot and a high speed level. (120)

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Eunkwang's POV

I stared at the ceiling waiting for Ken's comeback it's been a quiet long while since he came back. I wrapped the blanket around my body again, The AC was turned off before Ken left but I still felt the cold all over my body. He left my medicine on the night-stand and the cold stuff that he placed on my forehead earlier.

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I took hold of the blanket tightly as I felt my eyes started to blur by the liquid that came out of it. I wipe it away but its useless, it still keeps on rushing out of my eyes, flowing quickly down my cheeks that taking over my entire face.

I said to my self It was no use for me to cry. Every thing has a reason for it to stop. I wish I could stop. But I cant even refrain from loving him. If I could only bring to an end the sensation feelings that i felt towards him then there will be no awkwardness around of us both.

I still stared at the ceiling like a puppy waiting for an/the owner to come home, Yes, i know. He doesnt own me and i hate that feelings.

I stop from over-thinking when i finally found the right time to fall back to sleep. I will just sleep for a moment before Ken comesback.... I was sweating from the hot atmosphere even though i felt completely cold and numb.

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Ken's POV

I was just at the right corner street of my house when all of a sudden the lights black out Shit. I managed to see through the fucking fog and use my front light to lighten up the foggy road. Its hella hard to see.

I arrived atlast. I parked the car inside the garage and quickly rush to Eunkwang's room.

I blast the door wide open. I saw Eunkwang's back facing towards me with the blanket placed on his average part (neck) that covered up all his torso, feet, arms and hands.

I looked at his night-stand table, he havent touch his medicine nor drink a water. He must be sleeping for quiet an hour now.

I walked in. As i dodge Eunkwang's body to face me, I gasped. His face was red and was sweating alot. I turned the AC on then I heard him groan--cold. He said under his husky breath.

I checked his temperature again. I freeze in horror from the temperature that the thermometer had checked. I cant believe his fever became high all of sudden. I didnt know that it'll be like this when i left earlier.

He wasnt opening his eyes, he just kept on groaning. Fuck! I cant let him get sick so badly! Tomorrow is the graduation day! He needed to be there or else I'll be completely over with my life.

I grabbed his arm and placed it around my neck but it keeps on slipping away. So i have no options but to lift him in a bridal way. I took his bonnet and a leather jacket to keep him warm since he was just wearing a sleepwear as I rushed downstairs straight to the car. I started the car as I waited for it to blow some hot air. I placed him at the back seat and pulled the handbreak. I pulled the gear on the "R" column and pushed the clutch by my foot. When I finally moved backward with the front trunk facing the way im going to, I stopped. I got the chance to rotate the sterring wheel as I pulled the gear to the "D" column and started driving.

(A/n: "R" stands for reverse on a car gear) (A/n: "D" stands for drive on a car gear)

To be continue.....