Eunkwang and Ken were bestfriends since 5th grade (Junior Class), they never been separated.
Eunkwang is 20 while Ken is 19.
Ken has a sister named Precious that has a crush on N.

Eunkwang's mother divorce with his father. He came from a broken family.
Since he was the only child, he work for himself. His mother abandoned him when he was 7 because she cant raised him by herself. Ken's mother adopted Eunkwang.

Eunkwang's POV

So many homeworks to do plus the coming event plan meeting for tomorrow was handled by me , Geez.... I'm becoming thinner and thinner each day.
Ken is pretty busy this days, we hardly see eachothers too.. *sigh*
I've been hiding my real self from Ken... I dont want him to know about it, even though we both tease eachother as gays...
Yep, i'm feminine.. ._____. That's the worst thing happened in ma life.. Ken is straight, i know. He likes girls not, gays.
And He told me before that he hated gays... Because of a gay his father left his mom and went to live with his manwhore...
Well actually I cant tell if i'm gay.. I like his sister but I love Ken. I love him as I loved my own self. But, i cant let this love ruined our friendship... Even though it hurts to see him dating so many other girls, i still cannot complain. It's too pity.. My heart is too weak to tell him and to hear his response. Being happy is forhibited for me.

And

After the thing happened back at the trip, I cant seem to stop my feelings for him.. I wanna tell him.. I want to tell him so badly.

-FLASHBACK-

Eunkwang and Ken were in the same room.
They both were busy surfing the internet in their separate bed space.
Eunkwang was playing games while Ken was watching videos, weird videos.

Ken was grinning silently with his chest pressed on his bed's matress.
Eunkwang was leaning on the wall, sitting on his bed, playing games.

Ken: Eunkwang come and see this! (grin)

Eunkwang: (busy) Just show me, I'm busy.

Ken: Nah nevermind..

Few minutes later

Ken: Umm... Eunkwang-sshi... Can I ask you something?

Eunkwang: What?

Ken: I've seen a videos of guys doing it with eachothers..

Eunkwang: (gasped) (heart-pouding) What the fuck are you watching huh?! Watching porn?!!

Ken: It's not porn!! It's a... Film... A short film about guys loving eachothers.. And theres this scene that bothers me alot..

Eunkwang: (gulp)

Ken: The guy did it with the another guy? Does it hurt??

Eunkwang: (looked at his phone) i-i dont know! (sweating) "Ken you're stupid!! How should i know?!"

Ken: Umm....... Well... Have you done it before?

Eunkwang: (shivered) (nervous) N-N-N-N-N-N-NO!

Ken: Hm..... Me neither...

Eunkwang: (...........) "I'm sweating so much what the heck?!! SHUTAP KEN!"

Ken: I wonder if it feels good...

Eunkwang: (blushed)

Ken: (layed down) (.....)

Eunkwang: (staring at Ken) (.....)

Ken: (glanced at Eunkwang) wanna try it?

Eunkwang: (shrieked) (turned away) W-wha? "Omg!! @#%& is he serious?" Tshsht S-seriously?

Eunkwang was nervous so he layed down his bed and placed the blanket upto his chin.

Ken: Hey... Hyung..

Eunkwang: (turned the other way)

So that Ken wont see his face.

Ken: Hyung!

Eunkwang: "Shut up please!" Go sleep now! Goodnight!!

Ken: *sigh*

Eunkwang's POV
What is he talking about?! Is he so freakin serious?? It's impossible!!! I'm still a virgin!!!!!!!!!! Even though i love him doesnt mean that I wanna do 'that' thing! I'm still not ready for it... Im weak enough for that!

Silence...

The room was filled with silence.. Only the rustling of the wind that came from outside is the only thing i can hear..
I was just about to sleep when "Hyung, I was joking.." I heard Ken say that.
I didnt reply, I am happy but i felt a disrelief.

-Present-

Ken started ignoring me when it was 'week test'. A terrifying accident, happened last month.
(A/N: Week Test means... Test for the whole week)

-FlashBack-

Before the 'week test' Ken stayed in his house with Eunkwang on weekend.
It was night.

Ken: Eunkwang, I'm bored--lets hit the pool!

Eunkwang: Ok.

They were at the backyard where the pool was.
Ken wore shorts with no shirt he jump on the pool that made a huge splash!
He rinse up and glanced at Eunkwang who just sat on the edge of the pool with his feet sync on the water. He was wearing a white sando and a shorts.
Ken: hyung are you going to swim or not?

Eunkwang: I'm trying to get used with the temperature. It wont take long, just swim on your own for now!

Ken: (scratching his hair) tsk.

Ken pinched his nose and sync himself down the water again.
Many minutes had passed but Ken was still not rinsing up.
Eunkwang: Ken... Ken!--Stop playing! It's not funny! KEN!

Eunkwang's eyes roam as he search for Ken.
Suddenly, !!!!!! Someone grabbed his foot below the water and pulled him.
He fell on the water.

Then he rinse with Ken behind him, laughing.

Eunkwang: (hardly-breathing) (turned to Ken) Shibal!! You!!

Ken: (laughing) You're too girly! PFT!!

Eunkwang: Tsk! (splash water to Ken)

Ken: Ek--' Aish! wanna play water fight huh?! (splash water to Eunkwang)

Eunkwang: Yah!--(wiping his face) Stop! (chuckle)

They started to exchange splashes.
Ken dive under the pool and pulled Eunkwang's leg but Eunkwang kicked Ken.
Ken rinse up again.
Ken: Haha--

Before Ken could laugh, Eunkwang pushed him on the water. He then started to swim away from Ken, he knew that if Ken'll rinse again he'll splash water on him again.

Eunkwang stopped at the corner of the pool, laughing. He then saw Ken rise from the water and was swimming towards Eunkwang.
Eunkwang was just about to pull himself up the water but Ken caught him. Ken came behind Eunkwang with their body pressed together.
He wrapped his arms around Eunkwang.
Eunkwang: (blushing)

Ken: Close your eyes!

Eunkwang: Wh--Dont you dare splash on me again!!

Ken: Noo~ trust me.. Close your eyes.

Eunkwang wipe his face first which has alot of water droplets. Then he closed his eyes.
Ken float in the water, infront of Eunkwang.
He held Eumkwang's back while the other hand was on Eunkwang's cheek.
Ken stared at Eunkwang's face, he then slowly lean closer to Eunkwang's left opened mouth. His lips pressed against Eunkwang's lips.
Eunkwang immediately opened his eyes, his fist was on Ken's chest.
Eunkwang: "Holy balls!!!!! Wha--wha--wha--ha--uh--ii--agaaggg!!!"

Eunkwang pushed Ken slowly.

Eunkwang: !!!!

Ken: ?!??

Ken removed his hands away from Eunkwang's cheek and back.
Eunkwang's heart was beating so hard.
He lift himself out of the water and went back inside the house.
Ken: (.......)

Eunkwang went straight to the bathroom and re-washed himself.
His heart was still beating so fast, not just because he felt the sensation back from the kiss but he has a weak heart that cant take up so much happiness.
While he was in the shower, washing himself up, his sight became blury and he couldnt breath.
His head was aching, he fell on his knees and held the faucet.
Eunkwang: Urgh--" (coughing) Argh.. Uh.. "He--elp.."

He held his chest and his heartbeat wont slow down.. Eunkwang slowly stood, he held the wall for support.

--
Ken rise up after Eunkwang and headed inside his room, he changed his clothes.
--
Eunkwang headed to the kitchen and took a glass of water.
He was just about to drink the water but it slipped out of his hand, he cant feel his hands, its numb.
The glass fell on the floor and it made a sound.

--
Ken heard the sound so he suddenly gasped and accidentally leaned on a sharp corner of his window edges.
Ken: Agh! Shit!

His left arm was scratched and was bleeding.
He didn't bothered about it and exited his room.
Ken: Eunkwang.. Hyung..

He cried out Eunkwang's name.
He doesnt know about Eunkwang's illness.
When he arrived in the kitchen, his body froze in its place with a horror looks fixed on his face, staring right up to Eukwang.
Eukwang collapsed.
--

HOSPITAL
The doctor told Ken that Eunkwang has this heart disease called Coronary Artery Disease. The most common symptom of coronary artery disease is angina or chest pain. Angina can be described as a discomfort, heaviness, pressure, aching, burning, fullness, squeezing, or painful feeling in your chest. It can be mistaken for indigestion or heartburn. Angina may also be felt in the shoulders, arms, neck, throat, jaw, or back.
Other symptoms of coronary artery
disease include:
Shortness of breath
Palpitations (irregular heart beats, or a "flip-flop" feeling in your chest)
A faster heartbeat
Weakness or dizziness
Nausea
Sweating

Ken was shocked hearing those.
Doctor: One more thing, If the patient gets too excited or joyful it'll be bad for his health. Too much hapiness will kill him. The best thing for him is too stay indoors.. His heart need to stay at it's normal beating/rates or else this thing might happen again..

Ken: (nod) yes doc..

Doctor: Keep your brother safe.

Eunkwang have no idea about what the doctor told Ken.

-Present-

After that , he never looked me in the eye nor talk to me in the way we used to. Whenever i call him he wont response..
The only time he talked to me was when I fell from a ladder..

-Flashback-
(Chapter 16 scene)
Eunkwang: "Omg! T-THIS IS MY LAST TIM--"
Ken caught Eunkwang and their eyes met again.
Eunkwang: "Maybe.....not.."

--
Eunkwang sat on a chair..

Ken: You okay?...

Eunkwang: (nod)

Ken turned away again.
Eunkwang: W-wait! (stood) (foot ache) agh!

Ken: ??

Eunkwang: Aigoo~~ (massaging his foot)

Ken kneel and massaged Eukwang's foot instead.
Ken: Be careful..

Eunkwang: !!!! (.....)

Ken: (looked at Eunkwang)

Eunkwang: ?????

Ken: How do you feel?

Eunkwang: U-umm...?

Ken: ..

Eunkwang: I'm fine..

Ken: (stood) stay here... You can work tomorrow instead. Just take a rest today.

Eunkwang: (nod) Ok..

-Present-

I wanna ask him what's the matter? Why is he ignoring me, lately?
I asked his sister but she doesnt know either. Hmm..
I was just about to lay on my bed when Ken entered the room.
It's my chance to ask him.

Eunkwang: Ken..

Ken: (....)

Eunkwang: Uh... Why... Um..why are you ignoring me?

Ken: (Badump)

Eunkwang: ?

Ken: Let's sleep..

He didnt answer my question.. He off the lights and went on his bed.
That's the time i layed down.

After a week
Weekend
Eunkwang and Ken were in their home as usual.
Precious greeted them.
Precious: Welcome back hyung~

Eunkwang: (bowed) thank you~

She was dress up.

Ken: (bowed) where are you going?

Precious: I'm going to hang out with my friends... Mom will pick me up in any minutes now.. Bye~

She waved goodbye and went out of the gate.

To be continue....