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Ray and I sat on the couch together, his guitar in hands. Quietly, he mindlessly strummed around. The sound of a door opening rang through the little home as tiny footsteps followed close behind. Our little boy found us in the living room and smiled.

"Hi mommy, hi daddy!" He greeted, waddling towards us.

"Hi Benji!" I greeted, helping him on the couch, and into my lap. His big brown eyes wandered to Ray's guitar. Curiously, he climbed out of my lap and towards his father.

"What's that?" The little boy asked.

"It's a guitar," Ray answered.

"A guitar?" Benji questioned, "What's that?"

"You make music with it."

"Music?"

"Yeah, watch," Benji quietly watched as his father beautifully strummed away on his guitar. Curiously, Benji climbed closer. Ray stopped strumming as Benji brushed his little fingers down the stings, strumming them himself.

"Woah..." The little boy's eyes filled with stars.

"Can you play us a song?" I asked, Benji looked at his father excitedly.

"Of course..." Benji climbed back into my lap as Ray began strumming a familiar tune.

"As I write this letter, send my love to you, remember that I'll always, be in love with you..." I sang.

"Treasure these few words till we're together, keep all my love forever, P.S. I love you..." Ray sang, Benji just looked at us. He was so full of wonder and amazement at all this.

"I'll be coming home again to you love, until the day I do love, P.S. I love you..."

"As I write this letter, send my love to you, remember that I'll always, be in love with you..." We both sang along with the guitar rhythm until the song was over.

"Wow... that was so cool!" Benji cried, "Do it again!"

"Maybe later, we gotta go make dinner." I said.

"Aww..." He whined. I pulled him off my lap and carried him into the kitchen. I set him down on his little kid chair with his little kid table. Ray set his guitar down and joined me in the kitchen.

"You were really good in there." Ray spoke quietly as I took out a box of mac n' cheese.

"Yeah? You were too..." He smiled, I smiled.

"Momma?"

"Benji?" I asked, turning towards him.

"What are we having?" I showed him the mac n' cheese box, he smiled big.

"Yay!" There wasn't much talking as we made the simple meal. It only took a few minutes, but just as I was dishing it out into three bowls, Ray got a text. He pulled out his phone, and held an irritated look.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Gerard says we have to be ready for tour by tomorrow."

"What? I thought you had another week!"

"That's what I said. Great, they got the date wrong."

"Are you being serious right now?" He showed me his phone. Everything in me had become so saddened, "Let's have dinner, and then I can help you pack."

"Okay..." Ray and I sat down at the little table with our son.

"How long will you be gone?"

"I'm not sure, but I think a few months," I took his hand, "I'll Skype you everyday."

"Where's daddy going?" Benji asked, we hadn't even realized he'd been listening in.

"Your dad has to go away for awhile, for work."

"For work?"

"It's where you go to make money."

"Money?"

"You use money to buy things like a house, food-" Ray explained.

"Toys!?" Ray and I smiled.

"Yeah, toys," I said.

"Woah, that's so cool." We finished eating, then put Benji to bed for the night. Ray and I stood in our bedroom, packing in silence. As I folded some clothes, I had to stop as light tears dripped down my face.

"Oh, sweetheart, c'mere..." He held me in his arms as I cried.

"I'm just gonna miss you so much." He kissed the top of my head.

"I'm gonna miss you too." I took in his warmth as much as I could. Everything in me knew that it would be a long time until I felt his warmth again. He pulled away, kissed my lips, and finished packing his bag.

"We still have tonight, and the morning," He said, caressing my cheek. I nodded, "Let's get ready for bed, okay?"

"Okay..." We each got ready for bed, as if it were like any other night. Except, everything felt, saddened. Finally, we laid in bed together, his eyes on mine, my eyes on his.

"Y/n?" I hummed, "I love you."

"I love you too, Ray." He smiled, then pulled me close. I snuggled into his warm chest as we both drifted off to sleep.

"Momma! Daddy!" I heard a certain curly haired boy cry, "Momma! Daddy!"

"Ray... it's your turn..." My husband groaned.

"No..."

"No?"

"No..."

"I know you're awake!" The little boy pulled on my arm.

"Looks like it's your turn." Finally, I sat up, defeated as the boy jumped around the bed.

"Daddy! I know you're awake too!" He pulled on Ray's arm.

"Yeah, we both know you're awake." Ray eyed me, then finally sat up, rubbing his tired brown eyes.

"Momma, can we have pancakes?" I looked to Ray, he smiled and nodded.

"Sure..."

"Yay!" Benji climbed off the bed and ran off.

Ray's hand was in mine as we wandered down the small hallway and into the kitchen. In less than an hour the small kitchen had been filled with the smell of chocolate chip pancakes and syrup while three messy plates sat neatly in the sink. Ray and I sat together on the couch with Benji between as The Power Puff Girls played on the tv.

"Gerard's gonna be here in about an hour." Ray said, immediately, my happiness had disappeared.

"I know, I just wish you didn't have to go." He took my hands and kissed my head.

"I'll be back before you know it. And besides, you've got Benji to keep you company."

"Of course..." Benji looked up at us, we just smiled at him.

"What?" He asked. Ray kissed the little boy's head.

"Little dude I'm gonna be leaving soon." Benji stood up on the couch cushion and held his dads face.

"Do you have to go?"

"Yes..." Benji pouted, but hugged his father.

"Keep your mom safe for me, okay?"

"Okay, I'll keep the bad guys away. I'll be just like the Power Puff Girls!"

"Just like them!" Ray said, "I should get ready." His sad eyes went to me.

"Benji, c'mere..." I held the little boy in my arms as Ray got up and went into our bedroom. After a few minutes, there was a knock at the front door. Setting Benji down, I opened the door to see Gerard.

"Hey, is Ray ready?"

"Yeah, he should be out in a minute."

"Cool..." He said, "Uhm, can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Sure, what's up?" I stepped outside and closed the door behind me.

"Uh, so, y'know how you were trying to get tickets to the Jersey show but it was all sold out n' everything?" I nodded, "Well..." He slipped two tickets out of his pocket, "One for you and one for Benji," I took them from him, "They're right by stage left, where Ray plays."

"Wow, how'd you get these?" I asked.

"I have my ways."

"Thanks, Gerard!" I hugged him.

"Aww, it's nothing," I pulled away, smiling, "I was also thinking maybe we could surprise him with it?"

"Oh yeah, I'm definitely gonna keep it a surprise."

"Cool..." The door then opened and there stood Ray with his bag.

"Hey," He greeted.

"Hey, you can put your bag in the van."

"Aight..." He walked over, just as Benji took a peek outside.

"Woah, uncle Gerard, your hair!" I picked up the little boy, "It's... it's red!"

"Yeah, you like it?"

"It's so cool!"

"Thanks little dude."

"How does it do that?"

"I dyed it."

"Dyed it?" He asked me.

"He put colors in it."

"Could I do that to my hair!?"

"Maybe when you're older." I said, just as Ray walked back over.

"Well, this is it." He hugged the both of us.

"I'm gonna miss you so much." I said, he kissed my cheek.

"I'm gonna miss you too." Pulling away, he ruffled Benji's curly hair that was almost identical to his. Ray pecked my lips, then pecked Benji's cheek.

"Bye daddy!" Benji waved as he walked off.

"Bye Benji!" He waved back, I waved to him as well, "I love you!"

"I love you daddy!" Ray smiled, then finally climbed into the van with Gerard, and they were off.

Time skip to later that night

"Benji, c'mere..." He climbed up onto the bed as the laptop lay open.

"Are we playing a game?" He asked, climbing into my lap.

"No, we're gonna talk to your dad."

"Really!?" He asked, just as Ray appeared on the screen, "Daddy!" Benji excitedly smiled. I held the boy in my arms.

"Hey little dude. Hey sweetheart," I smiled and waved. Ray had his guitar in arms as he sat on what appeared to be the side of a couch, "We made it to the tour bus, everyone's here."

"Hi guys!" Mikey waved, walking passed. Gerard did the same, but Frank definitely did not. He stuck his tongue out and made idiotic noises at the camera. Benji just laughed.

"Uncle Frank is so silly!" I giggled.

"He is..."

"Frank, go away!" Ray cried.

"Alright alright!" Frank did so, but stood behind Ray and stuck his tongue out. Benji laughed. Ray looked back and smacked him in the face, "Fine I'll go!"

"Daddy, are you gonna play a song!?"

"Yeah, that's why I got the guitar."

"Cool..." Ray smiled, then began to strum the all too familiar tune.

"As I write this letter, send my love to you, remember that I'll always, be in love with you..."

"Treasures these few words till we're together, keep all my love forever, P.S. I love you..."

"I'll be coming home again to you love, until the day I do love, P.S. I love you..."

"As I write this letter, send my love to you, remember that I'll always, be in love with you..." We both sang along to the song until Benji had fallen asleep.

"Did he...?" I nodded.

"I should put him to bed." I whispered.

"Okay, goodnight, sweetheart."

"Goodnight, sunshine..." I waved until he disconnected. I sighed, then put Benji to bed. Quietly, I walked back to my bedroom, put away the laptop, and went to bed.

For the next few days we'd Skype and sing that song. Days then turned to weeks, and weeks turned into months. Finally, the day rolled around to see him in concert.

"Benji, we gotta get you ready!"

"For what?"

"We're gonna go see your dad play."

"Play?"

"Play his guitar with uncle Gerard, Frank, and Mikey."

"Oh, can I wear my dinosaur costume!?"

"That's what you wanna wear?" He nodded, "Okay, lemme help you get it on." I did so, the little boy was extremely excited.

"When are we gonna see him?" He asked.

"Soon, why don't you play with your toys for a minute while I get ready?"

"Okay, momma..." I smiled as he did so.

Quickly, I went into the bedroom and shut the door. Excitedly, I flipped through my shirts until I found my favorite My Chemical Romance shirt. Along with that, I slipped on a black long sleeve on underneath since it was fairly cold. I fixed my hair and everything just in time to leave.

"Benji!" I called out as I grabbed my purse and tickets. He popped his head out his door.

"Are we gonna see daddy!?"

"Yeah," I answered, taking his hand.

"That's so cool..."

Soon enough, we made it to the venue and spotted Gerard. He saw us and walked over.

"Hey guys, c'mon, everyone's back stage." I followed him with Benji in my arms.

"Hey!" Mikey and Frank greeted.

"Hi, where's Ray?" I asked.

"In the back, he'll be here in a minute."

"Cool..."

"Uncle Frank!" The little boy made grabby hands at the short tattooed man, "Do you like my dinosaur costume?"

"Yeah! It's so rad!" The short man smiled, stepping to the boy. In that moment, Ray stepped in the room, and everything felt like it was slow motion. The way our eyes met, how I turned to him, and how he smiled wide, hugging me in an instant.

"Y/n, oh I've missed you..." He kissed my cheek.

"Eww!" Benji cried.

"Benji!"

"Hi daddy!" The little boy smiled and waved.

"Oh, hey, you guys are on in ten!" A guy called.

"We should probably get to our seats," I said, "A certain someone got us the best seats to see the most handsome man around." My gaze went to Gerard.

"Thanks, Gerard," Ray smiled, then kissed my head, "You should probably go."

"Alright, we'll be right there, cheering you on." I said, pecking his cheek, and walking out into the crowd.

I sat in my seat with Benji in my lap as the boys came on stage. Everyone in the crowd went wild.

"Benji, do you want earmuffs?" I asked as he covered his little ears and nodded. Digging through my purse, I found his dinosaur earmuffs and helped him put them on.

"Where's daddy?"

"He's right there!" I pointed towards stage left.

"Oh, hi daddy! Daddy! Hi!" He waved.

"He can't hear you, he's too far away." Benji's face saddened.

As they began playing, I stood up with Benji in my arms. Happily I sang along and danced with my little boy. Benji only laughed as I danced around with him. Strangely, over half way through the set, I felt a tap on my arm. Turning around, the guy from before stood there.

"Gerard says he wants you back stage, for a surprise."

"Really?" The guy nodded, so I followed him backstage.

"Aight, we got something special for ya all tonight. Ray? Why don't you come up here?" He sent a strange look, but did as told, "Y/n, get out here!" Nervously, I stepped on stage. The crowd cheered loud.

"Hi!" Benji waved.

"C'mon, Y/n!" Gerard motioned for me to come up to the mic with Ray, so I did so.

"Uncle Frank! Hi! Hi uncle Mikey! Hi uncle Gerard!" They all waved to the little boy as I set him back on his feet between Ray and I.

"So, what are we supposed to do now?" I whispered to my husband, he shrugged.

"Sing a song!" Benji cried.

"Yeah guys, sing that song!" Gerard cried from beside me. Ray then began playing the all too familiar tune, once again.

"As I write this letter, send my love to you, remember that I'll always, be in love with you..." The crowd went wild.

"Treasure these few words till we're together, keep all my love forever, P.S. I love you..."

"I'll be coming home again to you love, until the day I do love, P.S. I love you..."

"As I write this letter, send my love to you, remember that I'll always, be in love with you..."

As we sang along the other boys on stage began playing their instruments to the song. Everyone in the crowd sang with us too. My hands shook like mad, but I didn't care. Benji was mesmerized by the performance.

"Woah, that was so cool!" He cried, "Can I try?" He grabbed at the mic, I picked him up so he could speak.

"Hi!" The crowd roared with excitement, "This is so cool!" Gerard walked back over to the mic and began speaking.

"You guys might think that song's so sweet and cute, but imagine being stuck on a bus with that going on every single god damn night," He chuckled, "I mean, you two are adorable, but it gets annoying after the tenth time."

"Aww..." The crowd yelled. Ray smiled at me, I smiled back.

"Okay well, that's the last show of the tour. Have a great rest of your night, so long and goodnight!" The crowd went wild again as the curtains fell. Immediately, I kissed Ray smack dab on the lips, I couldn't help myself.

"I've missed you so much." He whispered.

"Eww!" Benji cried. I then kissed Benji's cheek, "Eww!" Everyone laughed.

"Let's go home." Ray said, I agreed. Benji then yawned and rested his head on my chest.

"Aww, Benji, are you tired?"

"No!" He yawned.

"We should probably get him to bed, bye guys!"

I waved as they sent goodbyes back our way. Ray set his things in the car while I put Benji in his little car seat and took his earmuffs off. As he drifted off to sleep, I kissed his head. We rode back home in silence so we wouldn't wake the little boy.

"Don't worry, I got him." Ray whispered, holding the boy in his arms.

"Okay, I'll get your things." We made it inside, put the little boy to bed, and flopped onto the couch where Ray just held me.

"So, how was tour?"

"Just like any other, tiring."

"Remember when I'd go on tour with you, before Benji was born?"

"Yeah, that was always fun," He yawned. Quietly, I twisted his curls around with my fingers, then kissed his cheek, "I'm not moving..."

"Good, I'm not either." I yawned, and we both fell fast asleep.

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Damn, this one is pretty long, almost 3,000 words. I really like writing Ray ones with Benji in them, they're so cute :) also, for some reason wattpad won't let me add a YouTube video for the song but it's P.S. I Love You- The Beatles. Have a marvelous day~peace out cheesebags