Your POV
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The way he wore his beanies. They way he let his hair just be messy under it. And his voice. His goddamn beautiful voice that could put me to sleep in an instant.

You opened your eyes fully as you pushed yourself out of bed.

"No (y/n), stop thinking about him. He broke your heart and your only making it worse." You silently said to yourself as you picked up the bottle of grey goose that was sitting on the floor by your bed. Half empty yet filled with weakness and sadness.

You turned on your shower and slowly stripped yourself looking in the mirror.

"God," You said in disgust. "Look at yourself. Ratty hair," You continued as you picked it up in pieces. "Greasy as well, but that not unusual." You finished as you rolled your eyes.

You stepped into the shower along with the bottle of liquor you found on the floor. The shower was scorching hot but you couldn't find yourself to change it. Not even a slight bit. In fact, you liked the feel of it. It was a way of hell making an appearance without actually going there.

"I'd probably be too much for the devil." You mumbled as you drank the nasty liquid. Scrunching your face you slowly sit down with the water still running.

"What am I doing?" You whispered.

Kellin's POV
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"Are you sure you wanna cover this song?" Jack asked me.

"Yes." I said one last time. The song reminded me of (Y/n) and maybe if I sang it, she would be gone. Out of my mind. Like she was never there before.

"Okie dokie." He said as I walked into the studio.

I was still pretty down about the break up... actually scratch that, I'm completely fucked up after the break up. She was my everything. And she needs me but she- well we, decided we needed to part ways. I just hope she okay and not downing a bottle of vodka like she used too. She can't get back into that already. Right?

"Kellin!" Jack said as I looked up. "You gonna turn on the mic?" He asked.

"Yeah," I said quietly as I switched it on. I looked up for a spit seconded and I noticed Jack and Justin looking at each other. They both shrugged and we all prepared ourselves.

I took a deep breath and waited for the piano to start and there comes the guitar.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you'd feel me somehow

My mind went to (Y/n). Why can't I get her out of my head?!

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now

Kinda just like our first date. She kept whispering how she didn't want to leave, how she didn't wanna go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight.

Your POV
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And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand

Those lyrics ran through your head multiple times. You understood them like no one else could. You related to them so easily. It was kinda sad. But what isn't right now?

When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

"I miss when he'd sing to me," you whispered swallowing a whole mouthful of the liquid. You stand up and turn off the water, wrapping yourself in a towel. You slip on some leggings and an oversized t shirt.

"I'm tired of Grey Goose, give me that vodka." You say into slurred words as you stumble into the corner of the counter.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't comin
Or the moment of truth in your lies.

"Kinda like when I was lying about not drinking after he asked about it." You said. You could barley make that whole sentence before you finally grabbed the vodka but fell down seeing as you got dizzy.

Kellin's POV
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When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

(Y/n). Alive. I need to know she's alive.

"Hey, can we cut for a few I need to go somewhere, I'm sorry." I stuttered as I grabbed my keys.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand

The lyrics repeat until I made it to the house we used to share.

When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

They get louder as I enter the front door and to the left I entered the kitchen.

"No. No go away. I'm fine." I heard.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand

"How much have you drank?" I said as I pulled her into my lap. She had liquor pouring out of her mouth and all over the floor.

When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.

"I said I don't need your help." She whispered to me.

"Love," I said. "Look at yourself. You don't only need help. You need me." I said back pulling her to my chest.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

"I just want you to know who I am." I whispered the last lyric as she peacefully closed her eyes.

"I love you."

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HI ITS BEEN LIKE 19 BILLION YEARS BUT I GOT SUPERRRRRR INSPIRED BY THEIR COVER OF IRIS BY GOO GOO DOLLS! LISTEN TO IT ANYWAYS I LOVE YALL THANKS FOR READING!!!

(1/19/18, 994 words)

// much love, Ry 💛 \\