(Y/N)'s POV

I am (YT/N), my friends call me (N/N), but you can call me whatever. My real name if you must know is (Y/N) (L/N). However, know no ones that, not even my friends.. or my face. I'm currently at 900k subs on Youtube and just a few hundred more away from 1 million! If you watch Vanoss, Daithi De Nogla, etc, then you must know my friends.

I recently just got an apartment here in LA. There's been this rumor being passed around on the internet that people have heard me and seen what I finally look like in person. Do they always provide a picture? Do they always provide the CORRECT person in the picture? Pfft, never.

Mini, Lui, Wildcat, Vanoss, and I just finished a few hours of recording and playing GTA. Everyone started saying their goodbyes, the last ones out are usually Vanoss and I. It's nothing like that, we just talk to each other a lot more than the others.. Oh who am I kidding, I'm head over heals for this guy. "So you gonna sleep or you gonna stay up and edit?" He says in a husky voice showing he's on the verge of passing out.

"I think I'm gonna go sleep, I'm pretty tired-"

"Hey.. can I ask you-.. actually never mind." Vanoss says cutting me off.

I chuckled. "No you can ask me, what is it?"

"Never mind, I answered it myself.. ahehe." He says awkwardly.

"Uhh ok then? Hehe.. I'll talk to you tomorrow then, I guess." We both said our goodnights and ended the call. I really want to know what he wanted to ask.

After I got ready for bed, I jumped into bed until my comfy-ness got ruined by a text. I hissed at the bright screen, immediately turning down the brightness. I see then see that text was from Vanoss.

"Ok fine I'll ask you. (N/N) why don't you ever show your face?"

I kid you not, I stared at my screen for five minutes trying to figure out how to answer this because I always avoid it when I do my Q&A videos.

"Umm idk really. It's not an insecurity issue, I just like the privacy."

Alright in all honesty, it is an insecurity issue.

"Really :/ Alright I won't bug ya for it... Nvm I was gonna ask you another question."

"oml. Evan if you got a question just ask, it's just us lol."

"it's not really a question, more of a favor. can I at least know your real name?"

"lol what's with you and trying to get personal info from me tonight?"

"knew it. anyways, idk. i just wanna get to know you more. it's almost been a year since we've met"

I'm surprised he paid attention to that kind of information. And a bit weirded out by how he's acting.

"ok one more question, since you're probably annoyed rn, might as well go all the way :p"

"you annoy me everyday. that's not gonna change lmao."

"fuck you bitch cakes"

"love ya too fuck stick :*"

"ALRIGHT. my question"
"do you like anyone more than just a friend? in our group of friends that is."

I felt my face heat up and screamed into my pillow like a fangirl on Twitter who just got noticed by her senpai. I just stared at the ceiling for five minutes straight. Ok look, I really do like Evan.. but after what Sydney has gone through? I don't want that. AT ALL. Well.. the only difference between her and I was that if given the situation where Evan cheated on me with Delirious, I wouldn't mind. I would gladly want to watch them fuck. Even he knows that. Also, doing this probably means the demand for my face reveal will double up to what it is now, and I see that fucking shit a lot in my comments and Twitter.

"(N/N)?"

"sorry i went to go get a drink"

"STOP AVOIDING THE QUESTION"

"i'm not avoiding anything. i really went to go get a drink"

"yes you are -.-"

"lololol what was the question?"

"are u fucking kidding me. JUST SCROLL UP."

"oh that. no not really. unless you mean like do I consider one more of a best friend than the other?"

"nonono. I really mean like, do you like one of us like a boyfriend?"

"no I don't."

"oh I see."

I didn't text back and I didn't receive anything back for 10 minutes. I thought this was signal that I could go to bed until I got another text from Evan, again.

"I really like you though (N/N).."

My eyes widened and I screamed into my pillow again. A part of me hopes that he means this as a friend.. only because it kills me just thinking about having to reject him.

"I really like you too Evan c:"

"no as in more than just a friend. (N/N) meeting you this year was probably the best thing that's happened to me all year. Whenever the guys and I go to all these conventions, I secretly wish that I'd run into you and we could finally meet in person. Now that I hear that you're in LA, the same fucking state and city as me! It's driving me insane. The thought of you passing me on the street and I wouldn't have known kills me. Most comments Lui, Craig, and I get now that you told everybody you're in LA are 'have you seen (YT/N) in person?' and how I'd love to brag about how I have. I just really wanna know who's behind that beautiful voice, behind the computer screen."

I was left in shock, I didn't reply just yet.. because I don't know how to! As much as I really want to be his, to meet him... I just can't.

"Evan idk what to say.. but I'm sorry. I just can't be with you."

Seconds later after I sent that, I receive a call from Evan. "Yea?"

"Is that it? That's all you're gonna say after what I said?"

Guilt overflowed my body, triggering tears to escape from my (E/C) eyes. "Evan I-I.. I don't wanna meet you."

"Wh-what..? Why not..." Evan said with a shaky tone in his voice.

"I d-don't wanna meet you and fall in love. I just don't want that right now.."

"I-I understand."

I cleared my throat trying to not sound sad. "I'm really tired, Evan. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

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Here's a really watered down version of a Vanoss x Reader I had in mind for the future. If I do plan on sticking with this story, don't worry I'll be filling in the blank spots because there's a lot of back story I planned to add. Oh and the chapter for this title won't be the title of the real book either, I just couldn't think of a title lol. I just wanted to share this c: Anyways, peace out everybody! Goodbye~