I was sitting there chilling in my room using my phone...

It's been 10 days since the last day bhuvan and i had argument and after that none of us tried to contact the other one...i miss him way too much...but rightnow everything that matters to me is my self respect... if anyond wants to call it my ego than it is not ...

Flashback...

Dad.. i want to talk to Nayan (16 year old Drishti whined stomping her legs)

Princess what did i tell you??(he said looking up from leather folder held in his hand)

To not talk to him until he does not ask for my forgiveness or he apologies...(i said looking down)

And did he do any of the two??(he asked and i shook my head no)

So no you'll not talk to him...

Dad i can not live without talking to him...

That doesn't matter ... Learn to make people regret who crosses you whether he or she is anyone even if that's your mom or your dad or anyone against you...

Dad but that's ego, how can i ignore the people i love just because they did something when they were angry , aren't family understanding?

They are... but that doesn't mean they can take their frustration out on you whenever they feel like whether you are wrong or not... And this is not Ego princess, this is you standing for your self respect... do not let anyone harm that , if they harm your self respect once and you let it slide they will do it again and slowly it will become normal for them to harm your self respect...

and let me tell you nothing comes before your self respect...The time you feel disrespected by someone walk out of their lives and let them regret...(and i nodded understanding whatever he said)

Flashback ends...

I did not talk to Nayan for 2 more days and when he apologised to me I looked at my dad and he smiled that was my queue to forgive him and i did... after that none of my brothers disrespected me let alone raised their voice at me until the day dad told me to leave Roy Mansion , that day Nayan disrespected me and after that Nikhil did when i was engaged and I didn't talked to them till they realised their mistake and apologised to me...

But i forgot to apply this rule to Bhuvan Bam aka my husband... I should have stopped him the first time he shouted at me when we were engaged, at that point we were equals ... if i had stopped him that time then he wouldn't have dared to slap me ...

Like everytime , he managed to crush my self respect under his shoe like it didn't affect me and he expects me to accept his apology so easily... I'm sorry but NO the day he raised his hand he lost all his rights to be my husband...

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1month after Drishti walked out of Bhuvan's life...

Bhuvan's POV ...

I barged into her and she was comfortably laid down on her bed with blanket over her body ... here the door opening she looked in my direction and she sat down on the bed... and I started walking in her direction...

Though you've forgotten your manners . But you should have respected my privacy before barging in my room...(she complained and by now i was standing by her bed)

Drishti I'm really very sorry... i know I cannot reverse the pain i have caused to you but I'll make sure to give all the happiness that the pain I've given would be very less in comparison to the happiness...

And you think I'll trust you?(she asked and now she sat at the corner of the bed )

You have to.. (I knelt down in front of her )

Bhuvan I'm not stupid . Bohot baar ho chuka hai yeh...(Drishti said her eyes glossy)

Drishti I love you . Jab tu nahi thi tab i realised . (I said keeping my hanc on her knees anfd confessing my feelings to her)

Jhooth mat bolo , yeh sab aap isliye kar rahe hona taaki me aapke saath ghar chali jaau , toh listen no I'm not coming with you... I'll not ... aap gande hi , aap mujhe hurt karety ho..(her eyes teared up)

I'm sorry Drishti, itni baar toh bol chuka hu ab kya karu...(i said)

Apology not accepted Bhuvan... aap jaao. Mujhe nahi chahiye kuch...aapko divorse nahi dena mat do I'll stay here , cho ese hi rehna pade bhale hi ...(tears slide her eyes and she wiped them off)

Drishti. Mene tab bhi jhooth nahi bola jab tune apne love confess kiya toh ab kyu bolunga . I'm in love with you sachi. Or yeh tab realise hua jab tu jaa chuki thi meri life se, me tujhe wapas lene aaya hu . Come home Drishti...

This is Home...(she said )

No ... come to our home .. Nothing is complete without you. I'm incomplete without you, i need you Drishti... sab life me thik hone laga tha or mene yeh chutiyapa karke tujhe mujhse door kardiya... woh chali gayi yarr tu mat jaa please..(a tear slide down my eyes too but i didn't wipe it off , i wanted to show her what i feel , what she means to me)

No.. Aap mujhe phir hurt karoge , phir meri self respect ko harm karoge.. nahi hai bhuvan ab itni himmat ki me or sahu...I was always the pampered child, Aap mere sab kuch 1st bane. Mere 1st crush, mera 1st obsession, mere 1st kiss, mera 1st time aapke saath tha and you know what bhuvan Mere Upar haath uthane wale sabse pehle insaan aap the.. (she said with hatred in her last line)

I regret that day Drishti, i want to go back and reverse what I've done...

You cannot... this isn't a fairyland Bhuvan... you've raised your hand on me and that would be the same for the rest of our lives ...(she said harshly poking my chest, and i held her finger and then held her hand between both of mine)

Mujhe us din tu nahi dikhi Drishti, mere aankhon ke saamne Maya thi... (and I cried and Drishti other hand came over our hand tower)

Maya thiii... usne ek baar koshish kar rakhi haj aai ko hurt karneki but me bewkoof tha mene nazar andaaz kiya or us din aai ko is halat me dekh kar mujhe woh time yaad aagaya Drishti...(i said while crying and rested my hand on her lap)

I'm sorry Drishti... mujhe pata hai tu bilkul uske jesi nahi hai , tu bohot pyaari hai , tu kisiko hurt nahi kar sakti , but mere dimaag me kuch hai joh har time tujhe use compare karta hai... Tu bohot achi hai tu mujhse better deserve karti hai Drishti, But i need you Drishti.. I'm stubborn me nahi jane dunga tujhe ...(i said looking up and held her face in my hands )

Maaf karde yarrr... i know nahi rectify hogi cheeze , me yeh nahi bhulunga , I'll regret it till the day I'll die I'll apologise to you everyday promise , maanja yarr... tere bina sab adhura hai . me Adhura hu...(I said and now i stood up , she was about to say something and i kept my finger on her lips)

Nahi sun sakta me No Drishtii. Mat bol kuch. (I said and she held my hand and pulled it down)

Kya kiya tha Maya ne aapke saath?(she asked and I looked away, I didn't wanted to discuss this)

It's ok aap nahi bhatana chaho toh . Itne time bina us baat ke rahi huu or rehlungi.(she said with a smile and stood up from the bed and went to the bathroom and i sat there on the bed thinking about the situation )

I felt something cool touch my face and looked in the direction, there stood Drishti with a pack of wet wipes in her hand and probably wiping my face with that only..

Aap hastey hue hi ache lagte ho , rote hue nahi...(she said her eyes welled up again)

Drishti mat kar yarr ese chal jaa gharr . (I said holding her by her waist and hugged and she wrapped her arms around my head)

I fucked up Drishti... me us mod par khada hu life ke jaha kya karna hai kuch samjh nahi aaraha . Or Mujhe smart sensible Drishti ki bohot jaroorat hai!!(i said and placed a kiss over the silk top she was wearing and I decided she needs to know)

Toh sun...(i said and separated from her and made her sit on my lap)

Bhuvan!!(she squealed )

Its a long story, tere per dukhenge!! Baithjaa(i said and made her straddle my lap and hse wrapped her hands around my neck)

Ummm.. kaha se start karu??( i thought because there was a lot to say)

Jaha se aapko bolna hai bolo . I'm all ears!!!(she said caressing my head and i leaned into her)

Maya and i met , around 2 and half years back , in a business party . And i began a liking towards her. She established her career in modling . She asked me if she and I could hang out and i immediately agreed ... we started handing out, dates , dinners and what not . And after around 2 months I proposed and she immediately agreed , we dated for 3 months and she proposed an offer of live-in and i agreed , when I discussed about this with my family they all immediately disagreed especially aai but i went against them .none of my family members liked her .

And we lived-in for around 10 months more and i had to go to spain for interview and i was there gor a weak . When i came back , i came back early to surprise her , we both had keys to the apartment. When I opened the door , and started taking steps , i heard moaning sounds (and i took a deep breath and Drishti stiffened abit) i started walking towards our room and the sounds started getting louder , the room was not closed , clothes were scattered here and there on the floor and there she was riding someone on our bed!!! (And i choked on my tears and Drishti started rubbing my back)

Flashback...

What the fuck??(i said looking at my girlfriend riding someone on our bed and she turned around and her maskara was running down her eyes , and her eyes showed fear but she composed herself )

Bhuvan!!(she exclaimed and got down of the man )

Tum parso aane waale the na...(she said coming towards me after wrapping the comforter around her)

No need to wrap that around your body Maya because that man and i have already seen your body without a piece..(i said with hatred and that man took a pillow and kept between his legs)

Bhuvan!!! (Maya dared to widen her eyes)

Dont Bhuvan me.. Actually continue your act , I'll go...(i said and started to turn around and my eyes became watery)

Bhuvan tum kal aane wale thena... (she said and kept her hand over my shoulder to stop me and I slapped her hand away )

Dont touch me... you disgust me !!and i came here to surprise you but instead you surprised me.. (i said without turning)

Come-on Bhuvan dont be a baby... that's nothing to big...(she saud and i turned around)

You are telling me Seeing my girlfriend riding somelse's vock in our room our bed in nothing big....(i yelled and a teared fell down my eyes and i wiped it instantly and i again turned around and without waiting i started walking out )

Bhuvan, i wasn't interested! That is due to my career , I'll get really big contracts , I'll become the best Indian model I'll get chance in hollywood as well... (she said and my blood boiled)

You are telling me that you are selling your body to make your career ... You are disgusting Maya ...

Mind your words Bhuvan!!

I regret dating you... keep my keys these apartment, sell them if needed to build your career ...(and i threw them on the floor)

Bhuvan!!!

I know my name! Stop yelling that out... Your and that man's orgasm are still due . Go satisfy him so your career can satisfy you...(she looked shocked cause i never spoke like that to her)

Filthy woman!!!(i said and left the apartment)

Flashback ends...

And by now i was a crying mess...

Shhh.. joh hogaya us par kya rona...(she said pulling away and wiping my tears and i nodded )

Aai ko kyu hurt kiya usne??(she asked)

Us din woh ghar aayi hui thi mujhse milne or mere room me thi , mene use bhataya ki aai nahi ready hai live-in ke liye or Maya kuch kehti use pehle aai room me aayi par Maya ki dekhke wapas nikalne lagi or maya boli me aunty se baat karti hu or me haske use bheja or 3 mint baad aayi ke chilaane ki aawaz aayi or me bhaagta hua bahar gaya waha naya ki aankho me aansu the , mene poocha kya hua tih boli aunty ja per slip hi gaya sidiyon se or me bhagta hua wapas neeche gaya or aayi ko manya utha rahi thi mene uski help ki . Mene poocha kya hua aai boli Maya ne dhaka diya , but maya boli mend nahi diya unka per slip hua , aai ke per me chot aayi thi bohit phir me hnhe room me leke gaya or aai ro rahi thi . Bol rahi thi Maya ne dhaka diya mene aai ko bola ki aai tera per slip hua tu gir gayi Maya ne dhaka nahi diya or us time aai ki aankho me litterally mene mere liye nafrat dekhi Drishti!!! (And I cried harder )

Bhuvan please mat roo na ...(she said rubbing my back)

I love you Drishti... I really do . jhooth nahi bol raha kasam se... i know me bohot ganda tha tera dhyaan nahi rakhta tha ... but please ab itna dhyaan rakhunga na me tera tu thak jayegii pareshaan hi jaayegi... (and i heard her giggle )

Aapse kabhi pareshaan nahi houngi me...(she said rubbing my back of the head and i snuggled in her neck finding my peace inhaling her scent and i peppered a few kisses there and then i let my head rest there , today i let everything in my heart pour out in front of her . EVERYTHING!!

And now if she doesn't agrees than I'll not force her , cause nobody deserves to be treated the way i used to treat her and i will never forgive myself for that .

And if she not agrees than I'll believe BHUVAN and DRISHTI were never meant to be together , and maybe she came to my life to show me that life doesn't end after a heartbreak , that's just a lesson of life not the climax.. and i again breathed her scent in ...

I love you Drishti...(i mumbled and i fell in the derp slumber of sleep after alot of days my body wanted to sleep by itself not because of I would take some pills)

To be continued..
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