~Jackson~

I was very curious to know the secret of Alexandra 

From the first time , I have seen her , I don't know what but there was something that was attracting me towards her 

Its like some invisible force pulling me towards her 

It was not like she have the prettiest face or nice looks or cute curves , no , a big N.O.P.E

She was ... in nice terms .. ugly 

yet I don't know why I feel a pull towards her 

I always feel like , I have to be with her , save her from all her troubles and make her smile 

No Jackson ! You are a player , you can't feel like this towards this girl 

She is ugly

She is ugly 

She is ugly

SHE IS UGLY 

I chanted in my mind , so that I will stay away from her 

and there she came to that Eddison and he put up a show infront of everyone and asked her for a date 

I don't know what I was feeling but I was praying continuously in my head that she should reject him 

but my prayers went into trashbin 

She rejected me ! and accepted that .. that Eddison 

I was angry ... no .. I was MAD 

I was fuming and left that place the moment she said yes 

and that clingy skylar was following me all the way around 

Can't she get the meaning of "it's over " 

She thinks I am her possession

and I was so mad that I literally dragged her into Janitor's closet and she jumped on me and started making out with me and I was putting all my frustrations into this so called make out 

yeah I know I feel guilty in a deep part of my heart but she was the one who threw herself upon me and I am a bad boy , a player as this school named me 

I was distracting myself in skylar when she got a call and excused herself and went out of Janitor's closet and the moment she went out my mind was again filled with the thoughts of Alexandra 

What was he doing ?

Is she enjoying her date?

Did she allow him to kiss her ?

Are they making out?

Are they....

and all of a sudden she barged in or so I thought Skylar barged in 

but .. the scenario I never imagined was Alexandra barging in 

She was panting 

I heard a fight outside but never have I imagined that She fought with the most famous fighters in our school and kicked their asses 

I heard the commotion outside but never thought it would be Alex

Its like as if I got a second chance with her to start my relationship with her without any lies 

I made use of it 

I made complete use of the chance that was given to me 

I the well known "PLAYER " played 20 questions with her 

Ironic huh?

The person I was being with Alexandra , my Lexi now , is not some fake mask or act of mine

I was being myself with her 

and it felt heaven ..

I had to put up with the image of a Bad boy because people , society expects me to behave that way and If I don't then I am treated as nothing , I will not have any identity , and I don't want that to happen so I put up a fake mask always and act as they all expect me to act and I must say I stand  upto their expectations  and by doing this for years together....

 I forgot Who actually I am !

and after all these years .. 

I spent time with someone removing my mask as a badboy

being my truself 

and I know for a fact that Alexandra will not judge me and she will not tell everyone about my true nature , I don't know how I decided that but I can feel it that she is not That type of a girl who gossips or leaks secrets or practically speaking bitch 

she is not a bitch 

I can feel it 

And  I don't know why I felt safe with her and  behaved as true Jackson but I don't regret even a bit of it

It's so refreshing to be myself , to feel Who actually I am and I can say happily at this moment that

I am Jackson Wilson 

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I wanted to write Jackson's side of story before proceeding further

Sorry to all those who are waiting for secret to be unfolded but I am going to do that in baby steps 

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